heal my heart and not my head

A little boy of thirteen
was on his way to school
He heard a crowd of people laughing
and he went to take a look
Thousands were listening
to the stories of one man
He spoke with such wisdom,
even the kids could understand

The hours passed so quickly
the day turned to night
Everyone was hungry
but there was no food in sight
The boy looked in his lunchbox
at the little that he had
He wasn't sure what good it'd do
there were thousands to be fed

But he saw the twinkling eyes of Jesus
the kindness in His smile
and the boy cried out
with the trust of a child
he said:

"Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as You will
I surrender
Take my fears and inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
to feed them all"

I often think about that boy
when I'm feeling small
and I worry that the work I do
means nothing at all

But every single tear I cry
is a diamond in His hands
and every door that slams in my face
I will offer up in prayer

So I'll give You every breath that I have
Oh Lord, You can work miracles
All that You need is my "Amen"

Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as You will
I surrender
Take my fears and inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
I hope it's not too small

I trust in You
I trust in You

Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as You will
I surrender
Take my fears and inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
no gift is too small

This is the 1000th post and it's a whole new breakthrough for my blog (: And this is uber long because 1) I haven't blogged in like forever and 2) I have revelation(s)!

I know I have probably posted this picture before but I'll use this again because I think it's quite apt to what I'm facing right now. Well. Maybe this Adidas poster has already been taken down but it has brought forth its message.

"Give it everything and then get it right back."

Isn't it like our walk with Him? Give Him everything - especially our lives and we get it right back in heaven. Treasures up there are better than what we have on earth. If you're reading this and you're wondering, "What is she talking about?" Well gotta have an un-Thomas attitude man. He saw before he believed. That's not FAITH. And faith is another topic altogether and I don't want to digress. Haha.

"I don't know how I keep going...yeah I do."

That's an attitude I think we should adopt. However we know why we keep going - our destiny in building this awesome house of God, our future to be affluent in the marketplace to influence...everything awe inspiring. I sometimes have this feeling of nua-ness, the kind when you really want to leave church just because. But I just keep on keeping on, and hence the "don't know how I keep going." And yeah I really do.

That said, I'm going to keep on, I'm going to grow, lead, and nuture. Even if I'm just a regular, a team player, a pianist, a model - but I'm gonna be the best regular, the most valuable team player, the best pianist, the best model Yiruma I'm so going to duet with you! Yiruma and Naomi. It sounds so perfect. :D Oh & Jihoon I'm so not going to let you off the hook. I'm gna work all the way with supernatural effort and tell you good news. HEHHEH Imagine Pastor Cho's church with Jihoon.

It'll break through 750 001 man. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

& my mother jokingly said that if Jihoon goes to HOGC it'll be explosive. Sorry mom but I don't think it's Jihoon but I think it's God. I mean, a superstar can go to a church and his fans will follow, but if then fans don't get a revelation or somewhat it'll be of no use.

Well it costs nothing to dream, so I'm going to dream anyway.

Of a dream that's going one way.

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Pastor talked about faith and confidence.
Be BOLD in any circumstances.

Oh, only small people will dare to attack big people, like Joseph and his brothers.
They tried to destroy his dream but look, he managed to be the governor of Egypt and his brothers all bowed down to him. Is that cool or what.

"Who will contend with me? Let us stand together.
Who is my adversary? Let them come near me.
Surely God will help me
Who is he who will condemn me?
Indeed they will grow old like a garment
And the moth will eat them up." - Isaiah 50:8-9

I hope this is subtle enough, yo.