so we'd spread love like violence; ♥
♥ rai·son d'ê·tre (rā'zōn dět'rə,) {존재 이유}

n. pl.reason or justification for being or existence


naomi jung
서여정, 三浦 なおみ
29 june 1992
ngee ann poly mass communications
Rorsharch ink blot
J Tune Entertainment

& ooooh, Rain 비 = ♥


Heart of God Church ♥ b41

/more about me


나의 남편!


정지훈/Rain/Jihoon - the husband.

Faith/Spaz - the best friend.

Prisia/Siao - the other best friend.

Cheryl - Cooking mama

Joyce - Korean fanatic.

Brother (wenjun) - who has 10000000 brains

Hyun - Mr Smart-ass Korean.

Chew - Dear Leader.


Ajumma (아줌마) : Auntie

Ajusshi (아저씨) : Uncle

Chagiya/Yeobo (자기야/여보): Darling/Honey

Namja Chingu/Namchin (남자친구/남친) : boyfriend

Yeoja Chingu/Yeochin (여친/여자친구) : girlfriend

Hyung (형) : Older brother (for males)

Oppa (오빠) : Older brother, also can be used as "boyfriend" in a steady relationship (for females)

Nuna (누나) : Older sister (for males)

Onni (언니) : Older sister (for females)

Ssulung (썰렁) : "so cheesy/cold/lame" for cold jokes

Selca (셀카) : camwhore/self camera

Wang Ja (왕자) : 6 pack/washboard abs



♥ Heart Of God Church
♥ B and C Zone!
♥ donghaeng; Lord and Me
♥ Moi-même-Moitié
♥ amelia
♥ andrew lau!
♥ andrina
♥ anqi
♥ bellrarie!
♥ boxue!
♥ candy!
♥ cassandra!
♥ chew!
♥ clara!
♥ dajie
♥ darren!
♥ daryl!
♥ debrah
♥ faith, best friend!
♥ fedora!
♥ gabrielle!
♥ hinwen
♥ ivan!
♥ jasmine
♥ jia en!
♥ jia jia!
♥ jiayang!
♥ jia yun
♥ joanne!
♥ joyce
♥ kenneth!
♥ le raine
♥ ling
♥ liyin
♥ lucinda!
♥ marissa
♥ nadine!
♥ nelson!
♥ pearlyn
♥ peggy
♥ pei fen!
♥ pei jun
♥ reuben
♥ ruoen!
♥ ryan new!
♥ samantha!
♥ samantha whang
♥ sion; mr kimchi!
♥ shermaine!
♥ shihua
♥ shijin
♥ shizhe
♥ shumin
♥ shu xian/joe
♥ sofiana
♥ sophia
♥ sushian!
♥ sylvia!
♥ thea
♥ ting wei!
♥ trisha
♥ wanwen
♥ wei lai
♥ wendy
♥ winsome
♥ yi jing!
♥ yu xuan
♥ zhiyi!


♥ Abingdon Boys School
♥ Gackt
♥ Kenichi Matsuyama @ Horipro
♥ L'arc~En~Ciel
♥ Malice Mizer
♥ Namie Amuro
♥ S.K.I.N

♥ Big Bang
♥ DBSK Offical Site
♥ Epik High
♥ Rain's Company - J Tune Entertainment
♥ Rain's Company - J Tune Creative
♥ Rain's Offical Site
♥ Se7en
♥ Tablo
♥ Yiruma

♥ Gackt Dears
♥ Gackt Syndrome
♥ Rain Singapore
♥ Rain Union
♥ Sexy Bi


Blogs I read:

♥ Feet Man Seoul
♥ Joss Sticks
♥ K-popped!
♥ Lakeside Girl
♥ Mr Brown
♥ Mr Miyagi
♥ Mr Wang Says So
♥ PopSeoul!
♥ The Sartorialist
♥ Sibeh Sian
♥ Singaporean Mind
♥ Son of Singapore



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금요일, 11월 30, 2007, 11:19 오전

` 868; - over our heads

I liked yesterday, and of course, today, everything that happened. I love spending time encouraging integrations with my cg mates, I always love that.

Went to my school's Addiction II band concert yesterday. Met Fedora at Dhoby and then met Best Friend at Tanjong Pagar after his Usher Training :) Sure to see him carry Pastor's pulpit on the stage as Security, yo.

Sat through the first half at the top, something funny happened and Weekiat took on the persona of Darren ("I am Darren. My name is Darren" in a Patrick Star-esque voice) and me as Sylvia and Fedora as herself. Wanted to go pee during the intermission ("I told you not to say PEE!" - Weekiat) and then migrated to the front to see Jia En better :)

"I've been spending more time in church that these people doesn't seem so familliar anymore, Naomi."

"That shows that God is really ushering you into your destiny... soon you'll see all of them in church. :)"

Strangely, I didn't feel affected by anything or anyone anymore. Amazing. I think I've moved into a better place, where I learned how not to be small-minded and think big. :) I used to live in the real world with her, her, her, her, her, and her. Now I'm in someplace better :)

Went to Dhoby straight after and had supper at BK and talked, talked, talked, about nonsense and about prayer. I love that.

Trained home with Weekiat, with the vocals of Hillsong United and Planetshakers and The Fray entertaining us along the way :) Talked some more about life, God, faith, revival, plans, VBS, future, love, hope, growth, and our school. God has plans in store.


I see a generation
Rising up to take their place
With selfless faith
With selfless faith

I see a near revival
Staring as we pray and seek
We're on our knees, we're on our knees

Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You
How You have loved me

Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am for Your kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity


목요일, 11월 29, 2007, 12:38 오후

` 867; - you had me at hello.

Life's good. With God (:

I'm off to condition my hair, put on a face mask, meet Best Friend at church then it's off to Tanjong Pagar to meet Fedora for makan (: and it's a night of my school band seranading us with their musicccccccccccccc <3



수요일, 11월 28, 2007, 11:31 오전

` 866; -

I want Phil Pringle's But God and Bill Wilson's Whose Child Is This?

You know, crap...
Hougang Secondary has grown from two to five now...
There're like, besides 5 of us, SEVEN INTEGRATIONS!
We're so going to get them planted man :D
I remember the days of nua-ness when there was only Esther and I (I DIDN'T KNOW NONI AND JEREMY WERE FROM HOUGANG SEC TOO!) and both of us were constantly huddled in the corners of the school and praying for revival...

And now it's in full force.
I can't wait for our school to be the next Northbrooks.
40 over people man, can't you believe it?!?!

And every recess they would get together and eat together in the midst of people and their BGRs and nonsense and worldy talk
WAH they really carry the anointing man!
Even the teachers were sad to see them leave!
Crap... when I look into Weekiat's and Esther's and Angelina's eyes, woah I can see the same fire burning within.

I can imagine Hougang Sec to be like that, and even bigger
Even though we have one year left, some two or three, we still can make a difference!

Pastor How spoke last week about preparation. Prepare.
Now is the time for me to rise up and put my full focus on God.
Rise up! I say to you
You have been stagnant for long. RISE!





화요일, 11월 27, 2007, 10:14 오후

` 865; -

I love my life (:


월요일, 11월 26, 2007, 11:46 오후

` 864; -

Didn't turn out right, then they all (Darren, Fedora, Weekiat and I) went to my house where my mom helped.

And yes, that's me.
Poor lighting. But my hair's like orangey streaks.
Going to cut hair with Hannah tomorrow (:

Bye world.
Thank You God for such lovely friends (:


일요일, 11월 25, 2007, 11:36 오후

` 863; -

You, you, you, and you.

I can't stop crying when I think of you guys. You could have been where I am now. With laughs, the presence of God here, the opportunity to change.

I don't know where are you right now. Maybe when you recognize me on the streets, I'll go, "Hello stranger. I remember you. I'm in Heart of God Church, and I'm wonderfully living my life. Are you?"

But no.
I pray for you each night, do you know that?

"I'll give You my heart and my song
For it is You all along
in a world where so much is right and so much is wrong
But Your love is my beginning and the end won't be long
I love You
I need You
Till I see You again"

I apologise, my thoughts are in a mixed-up haze

Every tear is a diamond in Your hands oh God, and every door that slams in my face I offer it up to You.

I can't think straight, like a meandering stream curving down the crevices of the ground

Oh God, please, mould me and carve me and shimmer me till perfection. Enable me not to be jealous of what people have and I do not. I really want to serve You yet I feel like I'm not growing at all. I accepted You for the journey and Your abundant love. I know it isn't easy. I want You.

I just want to stop worrying so much. I was talking to someone on the way home and he told me that maybe I should just stop thinking too much. Maybe so. When he says it is easy, so it shall be because he said that God told him to tell me whatever He wants him to tell me. So it shall be true.

I begin to see something in me. I'm like some person, helpless, along the sidewalk when everyone's rushing past me. Everyone's growing. Except me. I don't know how to grow in character. It's hard but I'm trying. Trying hard. It's hard but I'll convince myself that it's easy so it shall be.

Because others can, I cannot. Others give up, but I'll give UP.

And I need to tell myself:

This is easy, it'll be something real in the near future.
Love is easy. This is easy, love is easy
this is love.
I know that I'll succeed in this walk because I have You.
Because I have You, I grit my teeth and walk on.
I need more faith.

Pride too tired and broken by God to think straight

I gotta say, my mind is jumbled

So many words mean so little,
Vocabulary missing, my diction out of place.

라벨: ,

10:07 오후

` 862; - overwrite hate with love

Hello world.

The full face of rejection of Him in front of your face. I felt it today.
It's saddening really. If it could really break my heart so badly, how hard God's heart must break.
I almost cried on the number 43 bus on the way to Singpost if Weekiat and Joel weren't there to offer me tissue and pat me on the back and make Public Nuisances of themselves in the bus.

Service was fun with Camille here with us today, she was the love. Sorry darl for making you wait. I'll make it up to you someday, I promise.

I dislike my parents for hindering me from going to church till late. But anyhowso I guess it's partially my fault as I didn't study.

& thank you so much God. I love You.

I'm going to bleach my hair tomorrow at Weekiat's house with the help of Fedora. Bye world, I'm off to do theory and drown myself in piano.

Even if you reject God
He'll make sure you'll come back to him.
Not now, but someday soon.

라벨: ,

금요일, 11월 23, 2007, 9:40 오후

` 861; - addicted to You

Hey world. Camp was mindblowing/exhilirating/exciting/awesome. It's amazing to see how the people you're closest to grow to a whole new level. Yes, camp's good. More than good. It's the best camp I've ever had so far. Trust me, the experience you get from this camp is more valuable than those camps of leadership that only teaches you things in the natural. But this not only teaches you the natural, it teaches you how to make things happen in the supernatural.

Parachute Band was superb. They can really pull down the presence of God! B & C Zone got the privilege and stood in the mosh pit which was the nearest to the stage. I was crying and worshipping and just in awe of everything :D

Revival Night was great. Charleston carried the anointing man. I remember standing there and everyone was being prayed for, except for me. And my heart was racing. Why wouldn't anyone come? And I remembered Jesus waited patiently. My heart was not open to him yet. I immersed into the presence and Ivan prayed for me. He told me to lift both my hands and worship, and as I did so, he grasped my hands like how Jesus was cruxified. "Rise Naomi. Grow to a whole new level. A breakthrough. A total character change."

Did QT with B2 and B4 together. Worshipped for 2 and a half hours non-stop. :D OMGOMG. I'm addicted to the presence of God (:

Others can, Naomi cannot.
Others can go clubbing and have promiscuous relationships, but Naomi cannot.
Others can break God's heart, but Naomi cannot and will not.

Funny Incident #1:

Joel: "Weekiat do you have the balls to do it or not. Guts man."
Weekiat: "Yeah I do have them!"
Joel: "Oh yeah? Lemme check." *pounces on Weekiat*
Weekiat: "Hey get off me! I'm not allowed to use them until I get married or something."
Naomi: "... hello I'm like the only girl here."

I couldn't stop laughing! Because what he said was logical but that coming from Weekiat who's like an overgrown child (according to Tingwei).

Funny Incident #2:

We were sleeping in the linkway leading to the alfresco after QT. Joel was sleeping like super soundly and as he did so, his boxers were showing.

Fedora: "Eh Wee can you like pull his shirt down or something."
Weekiat: "Okay."

And he used a slab of cardboard and put it over, and (maybe) Joel thought it was a blanket or something, and he covered his head with the slab.

Funny Incident #3:

I was putting toothpaste on Weekiat and Joel's faces. Joel didn't notice it until he woke up.

Darren: "Eh Weekiat wake up! It's like 10 am and everyone's like doing BM already!"
Weekiat: "Kaidghiqwudghn HUH? Sue the government! Sue the PAP! Sue everything!"
Naomi: "What has the government got to do with anything?"
Weekiat: "Don't know."

Funny Incident #4:

Zhiguo was sleeping in the middle of the audi (those in HOGC know that it's a bad bad move). Elgin and his partners in crime went to smear toothpaste on his face and he still didn't know. Then Elgin went to wear his disgusting Scream mask and scared the living daylights out of Zhiguo.

Super funny la xD
And Charleston got his new Mac.


라벨: , , ,

화요일, 11월 20, 2007, 11:34 오후

` 860; - say that you love me

She sat silently in the dining room, her sleek laptop perched on the table. The only thing she can hear is the sound of raindrops pattering lightly on the windowglass and the clacking of the keys as she typed.

Suddenly a messenger window popped up on her screen.

"I miss you. Love, Kyle." it said.

She gulped. Kyle?

She could still remember the first day of primary one. They were forced to be partners, to hold each other's hand. She could still remember the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles backpack he carried. They were carefree, and did not have a care in the world about each other's background. He was the son of a mogul that opened it's own chain of hardware stores; and she was the daughter of an expatriate.

They grew up to be fast friends and now...

She could not get the thought of Kyle and his Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles backpack out of her head as she shut her laptop with a soft click.

라벨: ,

10:08 오전

` 859; -


A schoolmate asked me this question yesterday, "Why are you so committed to church? Are you some religious freak or something?"

The answer is, No, I'm not a religious freak because Christianity is not a religion, it's simply a relationship. I mean, which God will become human just to show us how much He loves us? You take a look. You have never heard about a God becoming human, it's always about humans becoming gods.

I can safely say that I have sacrificed quite a fair bit. But God always, always has helped me tide through. For example, I quit my SYF this year to go for Ignite Conference to learn more about Him from other speakers, and God miraclously enabled me to get an A1 for my CCA points when my peers are struggling for a B4.

I just want to give Him my all (:

라벨: ,

일요일, 11월 18, 2007, 10:08 오후

` 858; -

To all my homies out there yo!



토요일, 11월 17, 2007, 11:38 오후

` 857; - chasing dreams

I am happy (:
I simply can't explain this joy in me.

I MEAN, isn't it AMAZING?
I'm not tired of saying it but I'm saying it again!

HOUGANG SEC IS REVIVAL-ING! (if there is such a word xD)

Because of this and other random but glorious things in life, I was like rambling non-stop about how excited and happy and joyous and exhilarated I am about church, leadership, growing, hunger,zone camp, VBS, and Hougang Sec revival to Weekiat and Edward today on the way to church!

And Ivan said something really powerful today.

Force = mass x acceleration.

We already have the acceleration, we need the mass so we can have the force, the brevity that will impact society and all walks of life!


Pastor spoke about leadership today.
Had a few revelations and jotted them down. (:
Really, I cannot be STUNTED.
I must grow. The time is now.



Hougang Sec, 15~!

라벨: , , ,

10:20 오후

` 856; - ZONE CAMP!

B & C Zone Camp is coming up soon! Here's the Mocca Advert Spoof cum Camp Promo Video done by the Post Production Ministry and...... ALTON! HAHA

I can't wait for Zone Camp. Apologies for not blogging on the 22nd to the 25th :D

라벨: ,

9:39 오전

` 855; -

I just found your handmade birthday card, Mr First Love.

I wonder where are you now.


금요일, 11월 16, 2007, 11:22 오전

` 854; - you have no inkling

I'm trying hard God, really I am.

I keep on telling myself, stay strong, stay strong, stay strong. This will be easy, and when I'm over and done with with this thing now, something good will come out of it. Oh Lord, if You can, take this Cup away from me. But it is Your will.

I feel like banging my fists against the door, and hoping that the force of it will split my knuckles apart and I could really feel what the agony means to me. But it's different. I cannot. I can't. I need to soldier on.

It's stupid, really, if you think about it. My heart is hallucinating now with various "what if's." Now is the time for Naomi Seow to be like Job. I cannot curse God. I don't want to. I couldn't.
I hate people to not understand me. Even now. Even those closest to me.

I used to love them. I used to. Now it's nothing. I don't feel it anymore. They're lost in the coporate world of figures, money, shares, stocks and networking. They can never go back to the time that when they weren't so absorbed. They can but they don't want to. There's nothing I can do, but to silently and patiently wait for the day that I can move out and legally change my surname to that of someone else. Preferbly move to the next side of the island or far far away. And for the surname to be Jung as well.

Love is watching someone die.

Will you watch me die?


목요일, 11월 15, 2007, 11:38 오후

` 853; - kick some devil ass

When I'm weak, You are strong
You're my feet when I can't move on
You're the light in the dark
You're the whisper inside my heart

I'm all for You.


Well. Went out with Hannah to buy books today. Bras Brasah Complex's Popular was vast. Had fun playing with the trolley (:

Things are no better, but I'm still going to strive on, carry on.
Even when they don't allow me to go to church by cutting out my expenses, I'm still going to strive on for God.
A fighter inside.

As Chew Theng talked to me on the phone just now, I feel energised (:
I'll be worried if the Devil doesn't see me as a threat!
It means I'm stunted in growth.
I've been praying for opportunities for me to become a leader, and now is the time.
It's full blown holy discouragement.
Gotta have godly defiance!

I'm going with Yuxuan tomorrow to the job (:
I pray that I'll get it.
So I can ave the finances to go to church (:

All that I know is that I love my God and I'll emerge victre laudrum. :D

Say loser, all together with me now, with your hands up in the air
Say loserrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.


수요일, 11월 14, 2007, 10:00 오후

` 852; - NAOMI.

AH, first that Swing Girls fattie and now this Korean singer!!!!


Hope Mr Jeong doesn't confuse her with me.
Nice vocals too.



7:10 오후

` 851; -

Take me to the secret place
Where I can only see Your face
And nothing else could ever feel this way

I'm desperate for Your touch
& I needed it so much
All I want is You


Went to church early to help Sister Alicia to set up for Deco. Surprisingly, Alvin Low turned up. Being the manly man he was, he wanted to join Deco-Fashion Ministry (: And I made a flower bouquet. AHAHAHA.

Joined the hiphop class next with Desiree, Gong Hua, Sinfei, Haoyue and Weekiat. HAHA. Messed up and Ian taught me (:

Bussed home and made Weekiat take the bouquet. xD

Offered the bouquet to Mum but she said she doesn't want it. Oh well.

I can give it to God instead (:

[edit] And I have joined the Banana family(:


Fedora BananaMew
Ian Banana Jellyfish
Desiree BananaTAUHUAY (I forgot what's yours so I put tauhuay first :D)
Sylvia BananaPringles

Naomi BananaSashimi Jeong. (I refuse to take away my surname!)

And Weekiat's jealous that Ian sorta refused to take him in HAHAHAHAHHAH "I don't wanna join anywayyyy. *pouts!*"



Apologies, I have no mood to blog today. Goodbye.


9:45 오전

` 850; -

I have been stunted in my growth as a Christian.
Now it's time to rise up.
For God has faith in me as I in Him.

For He has said, "I'll never leave you nor forsake you."


화요일, 11월 13, 2007, 10:50 오후

` 849; - and now you know why

I've got a revelation.
2, infact.

I was just telling Tingwei, that God is putting holy discouragement on me now, as every obstacle life puts in our way is to enable us to grow character-wise.

1) My parents aren't giving me allowance and I'm broke.

Possibly God wants to use this time to see if I would still praise and thank Him in this time. For in the bible it says that "The most intimate praise and worship is one that when everything looks bleak and the person still worships Him." Another thing is that maybe God wants me to learn how to be frugal. "Frugality is a virtue."

2) Acne!

Maybe the acne on my face now is God's way of trying to tell me not to judge other people. Last time I've been judging other people by how they look, behave and blah. It may sound cliche but beauty is in the eye of the beholder. "But first take out the log in your eye before telling your friend he has a small speck of wood shaving in his."

I really hope and pray that God clears up my face by this year! So next year I can start in the modelling industry and give my first pay to God. I feel that I've been a robber in God's house, by not giving Rental Assistance for 2 months now and my tithe for this month as I'm broke... well... God created me, He can also erase all blemishes! ^^

My God is good! (:

라벨: ,

10:28 오전

` 848; - a walk to remember

"Something on your mind?" he asked, as we walked down the mysteriously deserted shorefront.
We watched as the waves lapped the shore and the wind tossed my hair about, tousling his hair as it went.

"Mm, nothing much," I continued, sighing. In order to escape answering his next question, I pointed towards that horizon.

"Chagiya, do you think we'll meet in heaven again someday?"

"Yes, I think we will, ye bbun yoja," he answered with a smile. After answering, he asked again, "Remember what I told you? God will always be here with you, even though you feel like leaving Him."

"Ya, chagiya, I didn't say that I'll backslide!" I gave him a pout. "Don't you trust me?"

"Anio, I just saw your face and you were looking troubled, so just go to Him and pour out everything..."


"Well if you want to tell or share it with me you also could do so," He concluded with a grin.

I couldn't help smiling as I sat down beside him on the sand, leaned my head on his shoulders, just watching the sun set.

"I'm naked around You
Does it show?
You see right through me
And I can't hide
I'm naked around You"

- Naked, Avril Lavigne ( I know it's a secular song, but if you put it into a godly context... well...)

라벨: ,

월요일, 11월 12, 2007, 8:49 오후

` 847; - chin up, kid

Met up with Joyce today to go windowshopping :D And met Weekiat on the train to Bugis! (Well he was infront of me on the escalator at Dhoby and being the blind person he is he didn't notice pretty me ): Until I whacked him hard of the back and he finally realised and gave me a wide smile :DDDDDDD)

Trained together with Edward and Weekiat and met Joyce at Bugis. Then went with Fedora, Chelsea, Darren and Cindy to walk around (: Weekiat finally pointed out to me who Spawn was (note: "Spawn moves like THIS!" *wiggle arms around head*)

Lazed, then went to Marina Square. Went to Topshop/Topman and fooled around (: Joyce and I went into the changing rooms and started trying on clothes we could never afford ): And the rest just went to Topman. Blehhhhhh. Met Nelson and Hannah after that.

Went to Zara after that and tried on sunglasses (: We were supposed to take a picture (Fedora, Chelsea, Weekiat and I) but the salesgirl chased us out ): BOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

Trained home with Joyce, Weekiat and Edward. (: Naomi is happy happy (:


She can hear screaming and shouting, a furious row. Part of her wants to drown out they are trying to say about her by turning the volume up to the max but the other part wants to listen, to eavesdrop in what they say because she knows that it'll hurt her. Inside her, this battle within wants her to yell shut up and the other tells her to hold her tongue or not she'll get into more trouble.

Well, from the start she has not been very welcomed - she sees the photo when she was small, with her carrying me as though she may explode any second; and him looking like what the heck she was doing there. She has tried closing the window to drown out the noise but she can still hear it resonating through the door and above Gackt's smooth vocals.

라벨: ,

9:32 오전

` 846; -


I need a pina colada.


일요일, 11월 11, 2007, 10:26 오후

` 845; - still my beating heart

I think this must be one of the worst days of my life.
I've never felt this bored before.
Super unproductive, with me lazing around the house watching GTO.

Even though every fibre of my being is screaming "O LEVEL IS COMING", I feel as though I have this sensation that it's hard to even breathe, let alone think about it. And when I started to play the piano, even though it's just Mozart's Sonata in C, I played it rather horribly. And to think my Grade 8's in 5 months time.

I feel that I couldn't care less about it.
I don't intend to continue piano after Grade 8 anyway, unless that firey passion that once consumed me a year ago miraclously comes and engulfs me once more.

I feel like a sparrow trapped in a cage. Do you know what sparrows do when they are trapped? They bite their tongues and die.

Well, I'm like a sparrow about to bite its tongue, like a free spirit locked up. Oxymoronic, isn't it.

I guess being forcibly locked up at home only cultivates one thing - indifference.


6:49 오후

` 844; -

넌 내게 오면 돼
너의 가슴이 다시 뛸 수 있게
그저 넌 아무 말 없이
기다렸단 듯이
내 손을 잡고 걸어줘
그가 보란듯이 웃어줘

가끔 또 울고 싶을 땐...

Would you say that to me? 그대?


1:31 오후

` 843; - i'm the new face of failure

I'm prolly feeling the same way now.


I'm now stuck at home when I know I should be sitting on those lime green chairs now talking to people and waiting for service to start. But? I'm stuck at home with Dad yakking at me telling me how a failure I was to him. OHWOW. And just yesterday, I dreamt of HER stealing my ticket for Chagiya's Daegu concert and I'm stuck here in Singapore! I know she's prettier, older, richer, and the perfect candidate for Chagiya but I feel like shitzxzxzxzxzxzxzx. Go haunt some other dream and get your own chagiya! ): And now Trish is being too sweet (: and she's trying to cheer me up by saying that I'm His Girl. (: Thank you darling but you know. Sometimes we're just too -.

I need to be pretty now. ):

I feel like this million and one things in my head that are going round and round and round in my head creating this buzz. If this is meant to be death, I think I'd rather choose to live.


Thank you Fedora, Darren, Hannah, Lynn, Sylvia and Weekiat for the smses and miss-you-muchs. ILY <33333


10:36 오전

` 842; -

Hookey hookey hooha, my wonderful parents happily locked me up at home so I can't go to church - just because Dad spilt his health drink crap INTO his brand-new laptop and it can't start. HAHAHAHAHAHHHH. And he wet the warranty card and it tore. And then he questioned my results and blah blah and then HE LEFT FOR CHURCH.

Whatever, payback, suckahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.



Stealing this from Ling! As I'm rotting at home. Maggots are eating me from the inside out.

Using 5 sentences or more, answer these questions seriously:

What type of person would you describe yourself.
Extroverted and confident. I love meeting new people, interacting with them, and discuss practically everything with them, from classical to Rain to blah and blah. I have no qualms about speaking publicly or making a funny fool of myself in the MRT or what have you. When I love someone I really love someone - my crushes all last for more than a year, the longest being 5 (MR JEONG!). I'm artistically inclined; I love J-pop/rock, K-pop/rock, English, a little bit of chinese and I adore classical, being a pianist myself. I would say that I'm hilariously funny without knowing it; just ask my friends, especially Best Friend who absloutely loves to laugh at everything I do. Maybe I shall end here. Get to know me and you'll know the full picture (:

What type of job do you want to have in the future?
I would like to have a job in the media, being a model or a news broadcaster or a celeb. I would want it to pay reasonably well. I need to love my job. I want it to be the one the crowd faces; the prototype in my field, the one where everyone mentions that field and the first person that they think of is me. Call me atas or proud but that's the way I want my job to be (: Something enjoyable. At the same time I would like to be a pastor in Heart of God Church :D

What type of friends do you have?
Well I can safely say that I have a big circle of friends. But the ones I hang around with mostly is my churchies, namely Fedora, Sylvia, Tingwei, Darren, Hannah, Joel, Weekiat - just to name a few. Those are the friends that really changed my perspective and we help each other along in life. Oh, and most of my good friends are guys, even my Best Friend is a guy. Why? I find guys easier to relate to and they're so... simple. They don't like to gossip as much as some girls do, they know how to flatter you and they have an eye for pretty clothes (: I have a Girl Best Friend too, and I just share with her what I can't share with him.

What type of friend do you want to be?
I want to be a friend that they can rely on, share all their secrets with me. The one that lends you a shoulder to rest/cry your heart out on. The one who would go keesiao with you and the one who would just talk things out with you... the one who would be your bridesmaid on your wedding day.

What food do you usually eat?
Fruits, veg, the usual. I can't eat to much salty foods as my kidneys are Liable To Fail Any Second. That's why everyone observes I order my fries without salt. I love Burger King, MOS Burger and Yoshinoya. Before church service I'll always be sipping on Soy Bean Milk. I'm your reliable Health Junkie - but I have a weakness for chocolate chip mint ice-cream (:

What type of boy/girl do you like?
I don't know, it comes randomly... like THAT! Well if you must insist;

He must, firstly, be godly as both of us can walk together in our Christian life. I would like him to be funny - lame, hilarious, anything, as long as he makes me laugh, oh, and he must be well-informed so that we could enjoy conversation. I would like him to be minorly childish, but yet mature at the same time. He must be able to deal with my randomness and not get annoyed. Someone who would not have a short temper (unlike my dad), loves children and just... carry himself with dignity, poise and grace. Someone who would just let me cry and shed tears all over his Armani suit when the time calls for it. Being able to sing (in key) and/or play a musical instrument is a plus point.

In all, someone who loves me for who I am, and someone that I could never live apart from.

What type of person do you hate the most?
I hate people who dislikes you because of your looks/race/religion/mental state, etc. Overly childish people are at the bottom of my list; those who try to disturb your best friend when he wants to go out with you eventually wasting your time. I hate people who say that they themselves are oh-so-mature but when they see you, or even come close to you, they make their effort to avoid you so obvious that you could just laugh at their stupidity. Like Ling!, I hate fake people and those who just love to bitch about you on their blogs (or secretly on MSN), and when they see you in school they just smile their sacchrine grins and act all nice to you.

What type of student are you?
I'm a generally good student; I make okay grades for exams. However I'm a sucker at math and I tend to make a lot of noise in class... but that's about it.

What type of person will you forward this message to?
Anything that moves.

라벨: , ,

토요일, 11월 10, 2007, 11:00 오후

` 841; - deal or no deal

Life hands us a pack of cards. It's how we deal with it.

Sometimes do you just wonder how some people manage to be pretty, rich and smart at the same time? Yeah, sometimes I wonder it too. Everybody has a different hand. For instance, I have a hand in which I can play the piano, I can actually study when I put my effort in, a reasonably well-to-do family, and a case of moderate facial acne.

Some others, have a good hand in theirs - clear face, pretty looks, filthy rich. That's Her. Him? Well-to-do family, lax parents, good looks that will change into suaveness in 3 years time.

But I know I have something that they don't have.
I have God by my side.

For now I'll play the hand that I have.


Thank you God. Ever since knowing You again, my life has been totally transformed. I could never thank You enough.

I can never find a word, surprisingly for me, Girl-With-Too-Many-Words, to find a word in my mental dictionary to describe the boundless joy that I have when I have You beside me. Sometimes as I am walking alone in my estate with the wind whipping my hair around and the gentle breeze of You on my skin, I would rather be there than be with my Beloved Husband if there was a choice. (For I know You have reserved him for me :P)

I love You, more than life. These few days of introspection has changed me. I am now ankle-deep in Your revelations, but like Elisha, I want more of You. Engulf me.

라벨: ,

목요일, 11월 08, 2007, 4:36 오후

` 840; -

(this is not the first time, nor the second time. Looks like you're pretty much both the same.)

Full details in /wordpress/, if you ever bother to read it and ask me for the password. It's in a very very raw form so... read it if you dare :\


On a happier note;

Going out with Joyce: Wednesday. ILY.
Going out with Yuxuan and Andrina to watch Hero: 22 Nov!
Going out with Ling!: Sometime soon, haven't fixed a date. Bring bring bring bring along some people nehxzxzxzxzxzx. 2 people not fun. (:

I'm rather excited to go out with Ling though. Probably it's because we are meeting each other for the first time. Well I'm sure we'll get along pretty fine (:

I'm happy that I've made more friends. People that come into my life like wilted leaves swept off a tree. Not that bad a thing.


수요일, 11월 07, 2007, 8:38 오후

` 839; -

After this advertistment appeared on TV you wouldn't believe what my friends and family said to me...

Shihua: "Naomi ah! Your boyfriend on television! The Clear advertistment! Faster come see!"

Peijun: "Naomi you still like Rain right. Never broke up right. Oh now the Clear, you buy one bottle you get Rain posters."

Denise: "Ahya you'd better study hard or not you cannot study in Korea to be with your boyfriend! Must faster!"

Michelle: "Naomi you must learn cooking. The korean guys like their wives to cook! And your husband loves bulgogi. Must learn!"

Mom: "Naomi, do you know that Watsons outside got my son-in-law's picture as the standee? You can go ask for one you know!"


My Korean teacher is also one of them.

Miss Yeon: "Yojung-ssi, faster learn Korean! Or not your chagiya get married to another korean girl then how? Pali pali gongbu hanun! (Faster study!) Yojung hwaiting! Oh and I saw your namja at the NTUC and Watson. Wah so big! Can see everytime you come for class!"

HAHAHA they know Jihoon's taken by me. ME. HAHAHA tell me I'm 짱! 하하하~

정지훈, 저는 너무너무 사랑합니다~~~~~~~~~! ^^


1:40 오후

` 838; -

To Do List (Normal things):

- Get more Christian books, eg. Whose Child is This?, and My Utmost for His Highest
- Reach out. Revival!
- Go out with CG
- Watch Hero with Yu Xuan. Read Yu Xuan's spasm here.
- Learn and catch up on Korean. Must not fail exam.
- Shopping spree with Joyce
- Go gym. Finally, with Sylvia, Candy and Yangqin and get a hot body.
- Watch Coffee Prince and Goong S
- Finish up last exam piano piece, practise for Christmas concert and Grade 8 next year
- Get the Rain Clear standee that Watsons have on their store front
- Clear up all acne
- Get 5th ear piercing
- Cut hair
- Get contacts
- Go swimming with (anyone)

To do list (Not so normal things):

- Go Korea, go Pastor Cho's church and attempt to sit in during the korean service and understand everything he says.
- Pierce my belly. But I'm scared.
- Overnight K-drama marathon with Shihua
- Go Australia and visit and torture Kennayeeeeee :D And Alan and Jeffery :D

라벨: , ,

10:35 오전

` 837; - empathy

What kind of empathy, any form, would you give a person who had just went through something you've never experienced?

I'd never say, "oh I know how you feel" when I myself don't. But maybe, I can see and analyse your situation, and, if you ask me for it, my advice. That's the best I can do. Maybe that's the best you could do too. Not to give your straight-forward opinions and some knee-jerk utterations, or worse still, your tragic pity - but just be a listening ear, a supportive shoulder. A heart. Even if you don't know what's going on, just be there.

Be my, or others', silent rudder, to steer the ship through troubled waters to the direction it once took.

Please, even when you're on the other side of the world, please, be my escape.
Because your presence is good enough.


화요일, 11월 06, 2007, 3:00 오후

` 836; -

No matter how shallow, how worldy, how unloving, how unteachable, how indifferent, how unstable in my faith, how shakable, how distant I seem to you, to everyone, in my faith, in God,

I just want to tell you that I'm pushing hard.

Really, I am.

I'm going to rise up.


The Korean Speech contestants were really good.
Really really good.
Maybe I'll join next year.

You get to be on KBS news too!
HAHAHA. Trisha said she'll make this big cardboard poster saying 정지훈 사랑해요!!!!
And when the reporters are interviewing me, she'll go, "I LOVE YOU JIHOON OPPA!"
Or maybe Dongwan oppa, because she concluded that Ji-hoon's my husband (:
Smart move there Trish :D

Omo I haven't finished my Korean homework...
저는 가요!



1:53 오후

` 835; -


Fedora just messaged the attendance for church! :D

Youth: 661, average for past 2 months is 616
Adult: 145! average for 2 months: 12
Children: 97, average is 76,



I'm so PROUD of HOGC and BZONE!

breakthrough, 1000!

라벨: ,

11:28 오전

` 834; - blahhhhhhhh

I think I must be going 비첫는!!!!
아, 구조!!!!!!

I dreamt of - and - and Rain. Don't ask.
It was scary! SCARY! I actually cried in the dream! Stupid! And when I woke up from the dream I scolded Ji-hoon!




Current Mood: Happy-go-lucky.

Current Taste: Lays BBQ Potato Chips.

Current Clothes: School PE shirt, Nanyang PE shorts

Current Desktop: Heart of God Church

Current Toenail Color: Black. *emooooo

Current Time: 12.29 PM

Current Surroundings: Korean text & workbook, Besta Electronic Dictionary, Reader's Digest, School diary, Church bulletin, laptop, Tupperware Mug, bowl of unfinished greenbean paste, Belt, makeup bag, handphone, desk clock, Biology textbook, comb, used tissue paper, Jane Austen's Pride and Prejudice.

Current Annoyances: Scary dream, acne, wrapped up hair.

Current Thoughts: When can I see you again?


First Best Friends: Erm. Tjhia Lie Ting? Prisia Ong? Justus Aw? Fifi Koh? I dunno.

First Crush: Eh. Books? Or -?

First Movie: Damn Yankees. HAHAHA.

First Lie: Don't remember.

First Music: Classical. Chopin if I'm not wrong :3


Last Cigarette: Never.

Last Drink: Water.

Last Car Ride: Forgot. Last week? Or does a bus count, then yesterday.

Last Crush: Rain Jeong. From South Korea. Still crushing. *swooooooooonnnnnn

Last Movie: Pirates of the Caribbean, First Installment

Last Phone Call: Shihua, cousin.

Last CD played: Casting Crowns.

Last song played: Funeral for a Friend, Into Oblivion.

Have you ever

Have you ever dated one of your best friend: Never.

Have you ever broken the law: Jaywalking. Public Nuisance of myself, downloading MP3s.

Have you ever been arrested: No.

Have you ever skinny-dipped: No.

Have you ever been on TV: ... Yes. First being on Japanese Nationwide Television advertising some handphone at 8 years of age. Gosh.

Have you ever kissed someone you don't know: Eh yes. My dad brought his angmoh friend and he would always ask for kisses. ):

5 things you are wearing: PE shirt, underwear, glasses, Shorts, and? HAIR.

4 things you done today: Ate, played the piano, conditioned hair, ponder.

3 things you can hear right now: Maid's radio, tapping of keyboard keys, the song in my iTunes.

1 thing u do when you're bored: Imagine.

라벨: ,

월요일, 11월 05, 2007, 10:49 오전

` 833; -

I couldn't sleep very well last night.
Probably it's the fact that my dad forced me to sleep at like 10.30, which is like when everyone goes online.

I was lying on my bed, staring at the rain splattering on my window and the shapes that the roadside traffic lights were casting on my bedroom walls, when I decided I should use this time to talk to God.

Well, now is a time for revival but I feel that this is not how a revival should be... it should be fast moving like how Northbrooks had 40!

And we now only have 6. And 3 of us are going to graduate next year.

It's time for us to buck up.
If Northbrooks can do it, so can we.


& Jihoon's in the US alr.

너무 너무 사랑합니다, 차갸...

경우 어떻게하면 다시 볼 수있습니다~

아자아자 화이팅!

라벨: ,

10:12 오전

` 832; -

★ ☆ NAOMI JEONG!; ♥.† upsize 700; revival. says:

♥.† We Are Big ,We Are Bad And We Are Here To Save You♥.† says:
Ya why?

★ ☆ NAOMI JEONG!; ♥.† upsize 700; revival. says:

♥.† We Are Big ,We Are Bad And We Are Here To Save You♥.† says:

★ ☆ NAOMI JEONG!; ♥.† upsize 700; revival. says:
Got free Rain poster! When you buy gimme! :DDDDDD

♥.† We Are Big ,We Are Bad And We Are Here To Save You♥.† says: ppl are valuable not indispensable

★ ☆ NAOMI JEONG!; ♥.† upsize 700; revival. says:
Pretty pretty please with sugar on top! so also don't waste the golden opportunity

♥.† We Are Big ,We Are Bad And We Are Here To Save You♥.† says:
naomi is also a very weird rain addict girl

★ ☆ NAOMI JEONG!; ♥.† upsize 700; revival. says:
weekiat is a very weird FLOW addict guy :D


★ ☆ NAOMI JEONG!; ♥.† upsize 700; revival. says:
Faith! Do you use clear shampoo?

空陳 - 仕方がない blanc et noir,kuro to shiro someday i'll play L's theme ♥.† says:
No i use silkpro.

★ ☆ NAOMI JEONG!; ♥.† upsize 700; revival. says:
you get a free rain poster if you buy one bottle of it

空陳 - 仕方がない blanc et noir,kuro to shiro someday i'll play L's theme ♥.† says:
so,if my deduction skills are with me today

空陳 - 仕方がない blanc et noir,kuro to shiro someday i'll play L's theme ♥.† says:
you either want me to buy lots and lots of clear

★ ☆ NAOMI JEONG!; ♥.† upsize 700; revival. says:

空陳 - 仕方がない blanc et noir,kuro to shiro someday i'll play L's theme ♥.† says:
and give you the posters

空陳 - 仕方がない blanc et noir,kuro to shiro someday i'll play L's theme ♥.† says:
deduction 1) naomi wants me to buy clear shampoo and give her the poster.
deduction 2) naomi's going to broadcast that she's going to buy all the bottles of clear shampoo that she can get her hands on.

空陳 - 仕方がない blanc et noir,kuro to shiro someday i'll play L's theme ♥.† says:
how are my deduction skills today.

★ ☆ NAOMI JEONG!; ♥.† upsize 700; revival. says:
not really functioning very well because naomi is in no position to buy clear shampoo now, no allowance

空陳 - 仕方がない blanc et noir,kuro to shiro someday i'll play L's theme ♥.† says:

★ ☆ NAOMI JEONG!; ♥.† upsize 700; revival. says:
OH I KNOW. I CAN FINSH UP THE CONDITIONER! then i buy one of the clear conditioners!

空陳 - 仕方がない blanc et noir,kuro to shiro someday i'll play L's theme ♥.† says:
WIN! YES! or, quote Borat, "GREAT SUCCESS!"

★ ☆ NAOMI JEONG!; ♥.† upsize 700; revival. says:

空陳 - 仕方がない blanc et noir,kuro to shiro someday i'll play L's theme ♥.† says:
I like you. I like sex.

★ ☆ NAOMI JEONG!; ♥.† upsize 700; revival. says:
Okay let's talk about more spiritual stuff


Super funny.
It was like havoc on the bus yesterday as Tingwei, Edward, Weekiat and I bussed home.
Edward kept annoying Tingwei and I, and Weekiat was emoing in a corner with his mp3.
Before that I stole his mp3 because he was spreading the emo virus to us ):
And he was WHINING!

Tingwei: "You dress until very suave and then you spoil your image by whining."
Weekiat: "I don't careeeee!"
Naomi and Tingwei: *winces*
Edward: "I'm surprised it doesn't work on you two. It works on my mum though."



The holidays are amazing.


일요일, 11월 04, 2007, 10:05 오전

` 831; -

It's all about loving people, even if they tell you at the last minute that they're not coming.

"Going into a church doesn't make you a Christian more so than walking into Macdonalds doesn't make you a hamburger."

So true, so true.

Influence --> Teach --> Lead --> Inspire & Motivate!

I would really want to inspire and motivate, be the one that everyone wants to be. Not saying it in the worldy sense, but as Peter said, "Imitate me as I imitate Christ."

But first I have to learn how to imitate Christ in everything I do.
I remember my three convictions:

1) Catch the flow; aspire to be a TL by middle of next year as the influx from Hougang Sec is going to be very very very large,
2) Hougang Sec breakthough 15 by the end of this year, 1000 for church!
3) Every single person in church to grow to a whole new level!


Upsize 700!

& Joyce is coming today :D


토요일, 11월 03, 2007, 9:43 오후

` 830; - epik high!

Epik High - Fan


I know I can't have you
But you're always in my head
Even though I can't touch you
It's just wishful thinking
I can't say it
Watching from far away
You know I do love you
Even though you don't know who I am

Oh baby don't you know
You dont know my name
I couldnt sleep because I was thinking of you

Oh so beautiful grasping the photo I took of you in my hand
My love for you is buried under the world's love for you
You're not listening I will never be allowed to
In the next life we would live separate lives
I want you so much I can't go back
Thoughts of kissing you tonight,
I hold my pillow tighter

Today would be the first time we meet
You say that to everybody you meet
I always talk to you with your back facing me
Even the familiar 'hi' seems so awkward today
If we blocked everybody's ears
I'm hoping you would listen to only
What I had to say
Seeing you walk away makes me go into a trance (please wake me from it)
From far away you become a dot
Where can I see you (tell me)


I love you

Even though you don't know who I am
Why aren't you smiling today
I hope nothing's wrong
I can't face to look at your worried face
I wish I could take your pain away.
But I can't and that saddens me
Just today - if I ask you how you are doing
Would you answer me? - hug me?
I can't reach you, touch you, hold you
I'm going to meet you in my dreams again tonight

Even in my dreams people disapprove
They say I'm crazy - if I erase the world
That makes you mine. Why would I lose you to anybody else
No, I can never understand that.
I'll make it so that you'll only look at me
I'll give you everything when we kiss I'll give you everything
So that you can never leave me.
I'll keep you in my cold heart

You are My star,I'm your no.1 fan
Baby please take my hand


Boys and girls who have fallen
In psychotic love say oh, oh oh!
Boys and girls who have fallen
In idiotic love say oh, oh, oh!
Boys and girls who have fallen
In hopeless love say oh, oh , oh!
Boys and girls who have fallen
In love like mine say oh, oh, oh!

Even if you don't know who I am


Somehow this Mv reminds me of Saw :/


금요일, 11월 02, 2007, 11:28 오후

` 829; -

I hate looking at people's face when I'm talking to them.
Even more so if they have a good complexion T_T

Sometimes I think that if I have a good complexion or something
It'll be the second best thing that will happen to me.
I dislike the way I look now.
I look like some cheese.


God, I pray this Christmas for good skin. Amen.


10:16 오전

` 828; - first love

I caught a glimpse of my primary school diary.
Oh I miss the times there.

I remember one incident in Primary 4.
That was when I had my first crush/love/whatever you call it.
I still remember that tangible feeling
and even more so when the other party returns it too.

I remember two of us would get together during breaks, especially more so during Chinese Orchestra. I recall you clutching your erhu, and me with my drum sticks, at the da gu. You would try to catch my gaze as you sat in the congregation of erhus, and when I did, you would grin at me and wink. And the times you amused me with interllectual talk and I'd be just listening and saying, "And so, and so."

Of course, I remember the letters you sent. Every. Single. Word.

"Konnichiwa, Naomi-chan. Your name means straightforward beauty in Japanese,
I could never say how true that is. You know, don't get me wrong,
But I think you'll make a great... wife. Yes, a great wife. For you have been
providing endless care and concern for me, and you were there all the time.
As this year ends, I'll be leaving Nanyang. And you'll still be here.
However, I'll still be calling you, keep in touch with you. However,
Secondary school life is not going to be the same without you beside me."


Up till now I haven't seen him. Although we are still in contact, we haven't seen each other for the last 2 years. I wonder how he looks like now.

And I know that he's somewhere in RJC now, clutching his camera and looking for more pictures to take. I remember I used to be the center of his images. But now I wonder.


목요일, 11월 01, 2007, 9:31 오후

` 827; -


Rock a bye baby
On the treetop
When the wind blows
The cradle will rock
When the bough breaks
The cradle will fall
And splatter poor baby's
Brains on the floorrrrrrrrrrrrrr.


Went to Joel's house today, with Jun Hao, Best Friend, Fedora, Chelsea, Edward, Zhengjie and Edwin.
Friggin HUGE. D:

Watched the first installment of Pirates of the Caribbean; funny.
I am an official fan from now on :D

Joel kept spoiling the romantic scenes of Will Turner and Elizabeth Swann ):


JOYCE! hahaha.