so we'd spread love like violence; ♥
환영
♥ rai·son d'ê·tre (rā'zōn dět'rə,) {존재 이유}

n. pl.reason or justification for being or existence

나는


naomi jung
서여정, 三浦 なおみ
29 june 1992
ngee ann poly mass communications
Rorsharch ink blot
Pianist
J Tune Entertainment

& ooooh, Rain 비 = ♥


ll.intoxicated.ll@gmail

Heart of God Church ♥ b41

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나의 남편!

누구지?

정지훈/Rain/Jihoon - the husband.

Faith/Spaz - the best friend.

Prisia/Siao - the other best friend.

Cheryl - Cooking mama

Joyce - Korean fanatic.

Brother (wenjun) - who has 10000000 brains

Hyun - Mr Smart-ass Korean.

Chew - Dear Leader.

용어

Ajumma (아줌마) : Auntie

Ajusshi (아저씨) : Uncle

Chagiya/Yeobo (자기야/여보): Darling/Honey

Namja Chingu/Namchin (남자친구/남친) : boyfriend

Yeoja Chingu/Yeochin (여친/여자친구) : girlfriend

Hyung (형) : Older brother (for males)

Oppa (오빠) : Older brother, also can be used as "boyfriend" in a steady relationship (for females)

Nuna (누나) : Older sister (for males)

Onni (언니) : Older sister (for females)

Ssulung (썰렁) : "so cheesy/cold/lame" for cold jokes

Selca (셀카) : camwhore/self camera

Wang Ja (왕자) : 6 pack/washboard abs

할말!



친구

♥ Heart Of God Church
♥ B and C Zone!
♥ donghaeng; Lord and Me
♥ Moi-même-Moitié
♥ amelia
♥ andrew lau!
♥ andrina
♥ anqi
♥ bellrarie!
♥ boxue!
♥ candy!
♥ cassandra!
♥ chew!
♥ clara!
♥ dajie
♥ darren!
♥ daryl!
♥ debrah
♥ faith, best friend!
♥ fedora!
♥ gabrielle!
♥ hinwen
♥ ivan!
♥ jasmine
♥ jia en!
♥ jia jia!
♥ jiayang!
♥ jia yun
♥ joanne!
♥ joyce
♥ kenneth!
♥ le raine
♥ ling
♥ liyin
♥ lucinda!
♥ marissa
♥ nadine!
♥ nelson!
♥ pearlyn
♥ peggy
♥ pei fen!
♥ pei jun
♥ reuben
♥ ruoen!
♥ ryan new!
♥ samantha!
♥ samantha whang
♥ sion; mr kimchi!
♥ shermaine!
♥ shihua
♥ shijin
♥ shizhe
♥ shumin
♥ shu xian/joe
♥ sofiana
♥ sophia
♥ sushian!
♥ sylvia!
♥ thea
♥ ting wei!
♥ trisha
♥ wanwen
♥ wei lai
♥ wendy
♥ winsome
♥ yi jing!
♥ yu xuan
♥ zhiyi!

명사

♥ Abingdon Boys School
♥ Gackt
♥ Kenichi Matsuyama @ Horipro
♥ L'arc~En~Ciel
♥ Malice Mizer
♥ Namie Amuro
♥ S.K.I.N

♥ Big Bang
♥ DBSK Offical Site
♥ Epik High
♥ Rain's Company - J Tune Entertainment
♥ Rain's Company - J Tune Creative
♥ Rain's Offical Site
♥ Se7en
♥ Tablo
♥ Yiruma

♥ Gackt Dears
♥ Gackt Syndrome
♥ Rain Singapore
♥ Rain Union
♥ Sexy Bi

블로그

Blogs I read:

♥ Feet Man Seoul
♥ Joss Sticks
♥ K-popped!
♥ Lakeside Girl
♥ Mr Brown
♥ Mr Miyagi
♥ Mr Wang Says So
♥ PopSeoul!
♥ The Sartorialist
♥ Sibeh Sian
♥ Singaporean Mind
♥ Son of Singapore

주크박스

과거

11월 2005 12월 2005 1월 2006 2월 2006 3월 2006 4월 2006 5월 2006 6월 2006 7월 2006 8월 2006 9월 2006 10월 2006 11월 2006 12월 2006 1월 2007 2월 2007 3월 2007 4월 2007 5월 2007 6월 2007 7월 2007 8월 2007 9월 2007 10월 2007 11월 2007 12월 2007 1월 2008 2월 2008 3월 2008 4월 2008 5월 2008 6월 2008 7월 2008 8월 2008 9월 2008 10월 2008 11월 2008 12월 2008

감사

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목요일, 2월 28, 2008, 7:53 오후

` 963; -



Hilarious.
Since I've never actually liked Wonder Girls anyway... apparently it's been a hit with the Koreans.
Thanks Hyun Jun for telling me about it HAHAH.

I wish I had high school friends like that.
Oh well never mind.

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11:55 오전

` 962; -

Dear God,

101 for piano exam.

Amen.




화요일, 2월 26, 2008, 8:24 오후

` 961; - have you ever wondered





Found this super old photo taken on the last service at FTMS. IVAN! :D

Woah, I just finished talking to Ivan on the phone and it was amazing.
I mean, man, whooooooooooooooooo
Exhilirating, ever inspiring. Ivan I want to be a replica of youuuu (:
Oh and one thing, we both start our smses with HAHAH/HAHHS 8D
See see I'm slowly replicating! Hahaha

Even though my piano exam is like in 3 days time, I know that God is doing something...
My piano teacher went MIA for 3 whole months and my scales are like nada, so I really need a miracle for that just one half an hour, to PASS, AT LEAST PASS.

Piano aside, and on to Ivan!
It's these little things that define whether a leader is respect-worthy or not and Ivan is definately one of them.
Not neglecting Samantha, Dominic, Charleston, Leonard, Roy, Garrett, Yassy, Chew and the others... it's about the heart.

I want something that they have.
I want their hearts.

Oh man I'm having the jitters of the exam already; help!

On a totally proud note;
BEK JIA EN I AM SO PROUD OF YOU (:
YOU ARE GOING TO BE A GREAT WOMAN OF GOD (:
WE LOVE YOU!!!!

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월요일, 2월 25, 2008, 9:34 오후

` 960; - I don't know how to make this stop





I saw your face in a crowded place
And I don't know what to do
And I'll never be with you.

There comes a point of time in a relationship where you can choose two directions to take for it has gone beyond mere friendship. You could take it into a romance and be thrilled (at instances for the spur of the moment) or if not, then you have problems for it is not what both of you can walk away easily from.

The contact glue between the both of you has dried, and there's no way you can pull apart without damaging the pieces.

라벨:




일요일, 2월 24, 2008, 12:04 오후

` 959; - yes, a heart can hallucinate





and you'll be somewhere which is 10000000x better than you already are.

*

You sit down on your bed, wondering where has all the love gone in this world without knowing that you actually are putting down people who are willing to forge a relationship with you.

There comes a point in a friendship where you think you could make use of the other party, so much so that he/she becomes a laughing stock cum doormat for you. All is well when he/she does everything you ask him/her to, therefore providing a source of enjoyment for you and your friends - until he/she finally realises that you, Miss True Friend is not really what you seem to be and he/she breaks off all connections with you, getting along with people who treat him/her much better than you.

That's when you realise what a stupid, insipid fool you had been, ten years on when he/she finally becomes who you desire to be.

라벨:




목요일, 2월 21, 2008, 8:41 오후

` 958; - sturm und drang



Presenting to you my favourite Japanese actor - Kenichi Matsuyama :D

Moving on moving on.

Music was fun today, sitting beside Marcus and in front of the girls was funner :) Lionel was being homosexual as usual ( "Homosexuality in the Roman Empire was high-class!") and poor Marcus was tortured. And thank you Remy and Gail for saying my hair's pretty (: ILY! And Jolene saw my U Weekly with Kenichi on it and started to give me a Japanese surname, ranging from Ryuuri to Matsukami :) She then decided that Matsuyama Naomi sounds pretty fine and she's calling me Matsuyama Naomi-san :/ What happened to Naomi Camui-Jeong?! Oh dear.

Loveeee them. Thank you again Sherman and Marcus for being so sweet to offer to duet with me since Alastair can't :) I may be dueting with Jolyn though... need to find scores, crap!

That pretty much sums up my day in MEP class (:

And prayer meeting's tomorrow (: But before that have Chinese oral and Prefect's Investiture bleagh :/

Man, I can't wait for more, more, more of You (:

라벨:




수요일, 2월 20, 2008, 7:01 오후

` 957; - we just accelerate, you know



Miracle that I found this somehow in my computer. It's the old B2, hahaha for Glamour Night or something. This is ancient man, should keep it in the archives or something.

There comes a time when you just break through, everything and anything in your life. Well I broke through in terms of my prayer life and I tell you it feels so amazinggggg.

Idk about you, but I feel that I've matured through this point in time, the point where I fell from grace in January. God picked me up and now I'm sprinting towards my higher calling; well if you know what I mean. Woaaaaaaaah. Now I look back, and I think I was really immature; worrying about things that mean little when not caring about larger things...

Crap, there are seasons in life. My season for now is faith.

Gotta have faith in the little things, like revival in HS.

Now I'm onto my second Daniel fast with Hannah and Sylvia. Even though it's tempting to just give up and gorge on fried wonton but...

yeah you get the idea, it's all about God not Unhealthy Day! :D

Had this AMAZING fellowship with Daniel today... crap, how great it is when you can just flow with someone! Like, you can just connect... woah man, the flow~! :D I can't say more but what he says speak sense... great to see how God touched his life and now he's changing, step by careful step. Amazing.

Talked about End Times and other stuff... awesome.

Oh man, my iTunes just played Gackt and I switched it to Pastor How ((:
Loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
Gotta keep the flow of God man.
Love undeservingly.

라벨:




일요일, 2월 17, 2008, 11:11 오후

` 956; - and You reign in me



Okay this picture of Gackt-sama is irrelevant to the post but I love the costume and everything so yeah. :D I'm in awe of him because he has this determination, an incredible amount of talent (wikipedia him yourself) and I want to emulate him. But not all aspects though... like him smoking and his pervertic mind. He needs God.


I forgot who and I were wondering what would it be like if Gackt were saved and on fire and is HOGC Japan's worship leader.

HA.HA.HA. ONE DAY I PROMISE :D

Blogger's being irritating by making my in-between-line break unevenly..disgusting...
Anyway, NAOMI IS SO HAPPY THAT SHE BOUGHT TWO BOOKS IN A SINGLE WEEKEND!
Man, put me anywhere with books and I'll be sediated :D
So, my future boyfriend MUST LOVE BOOKS :D

I got I Kissed Dating Goodbye by Joshua Harris and Ever Increasing Faith by Smith Wigglesworth! Gotta read these man, they're awesome. Devoured Kissed Dating Goodbye in one day (recieved a lotta revelations which I'll share) and currently reading the other one... it's going to bring me up to a whole new level.
Must save up for more books man... and of course apply them to my life. My bookshelf is still crying out for the weight of books to be upon it... so it may become holy too...

WHAT NONSENSE.

Meepok came to church today and I'm happy. HOUGANG SEC IS EXPLODING I TELL YOU. And I'm so so so so so so so proud of them! A lotta cookies and hardwork but it's worth it.
Younger Generation! Man, the whole place is swarming with future amazing people and blah but it's eggcitingzxzxzxzxzxxzxzxzxzx.

Amazing week. Next's gonna be better.
WHOOOOOOO DANIEL FAST!
ONE WHOLE WEEK OF RABBIT FOOD (:
But I'm looking forward to it.
Lots of reasons why I'm doing this fast with Hannah but yeap!

:D
I LOVE LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
I LOVE YOU.

[EDIT]

I'm into all this hype for the American Presidental Elections.
Time Magazine... you gotta get it.
I support you Obama!

www.barackobama.com

ONE REASON: HE IS A VISIONARY.

I love people with vision.
I will be one.

HOUGANG SEC; 15 AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CANNOT TAHAN LIAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[/EDIT]

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10:40 오전

` 955; -

And I'm starting to fall, even deeper, in love with You.

Without You, my life would be a mistake.
I mean, who would know me so intimately; but You alone?

My life has a purpose; a destiny.

라벨:




토요일, 2월 16, 2008, 10:55 오후

` 954; - Today's shocker...

is this.








I know, yes, it's Jihoon. I was like :O at the computer after seeing his HAIR.
I saw it in the Life papers yesterday and I went nuts. Reactions from fans (when I went to Soompi, Z-degrees, rainsingapore, sexybi) were ALL THE SAME: SHOCKED.

I mean, seriously, Jihoon's like all expect the unexpected, but this is far out.

Anyway, my intake on his look:

FIRE THAT STYLIST. PRONTO. I like the glasses, but what's WITH THE BYJ hair??? Come on, you're not trying to emulate BJY aren't you. Clothes wise, sloppy, but I like the suit.

And he does not look like a 6ft tall version of Han Ji Eun. PFFT.
If any one says about him looking like SHK again I'm going ballistic.

[EDIT]

I'm actually more interested at what was said at the presscon. :D

[/EDIT]

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목요일, 2월 14, 2008, 11:20 오후

` 953; - hearts are all over the world tonight




Today, like last year, was liberating - I knew, and I learnt about the human heart, soulwise, the bad and the ugly.

I don't know about you, but it was heartwrenching; because being in the midst of these preparations and stuff, it wasn't easy, it was difficult, tiring, but we'll do anything for God.

Today, Valentine's Day, was a real true test of love - the one which God describes in Matthew; love undeseverdly. Love, love, love. It hurts, but love endures.

The smiles on the sec 1's faces - really made my day.
Crap, I'll rather have that sec one's smile than a hundred empty thankyous; it's worth so much, much more.

I try, God, I try. I know, I know, I know.
For when I fall from grace You pick me back up again.
Start by believing, by loving.

I was sitting in front of my computer, and I was touched by God, darn, you know what I mean?
I know something's great going's to happen, soon enough.

I'm going to run, into Your arms yet again.

라벨:




월요일, 2월 11, 2008, 11:10 오후

` 952; -

I have decided to take a break from studying, just sitting in front of the computer, my thoughts drifting away.

I re-read the post I have posted just now and I felt that all that I have wanted to say have been said there. However I feel that I should surrender everything up to God now.

It's been a deary year, crud, because of Irene Ma hospitalised and Grandma recuperating from a mild stroke...but God saved the day. He gave me enough harvest and faith, faith arising, and now my junior wants to come to church.

Awesome right... Hougang Sec is going to be explosive man.

Revival aside, I really need to pray for my family.
Everyone's getting illnesses left right centre... and no one's like having a care in the world.
Cousin's still admant to go to school, that bleepin' bugger, should bring him to the Boy's Home and let him experience it for himself.

Cousins? Still the same, girly girls too girly for my liking sometimes... not all but some of them. Crap, I could use a tip or two to help me look like a girl or even more feminine. Haha

Was on the bus just now after buying stuff with Jia En at Compass.
Heard some girls talking (rather loudly)

Girl 1: "I want to patch with Joel... *insert whine*'
Girl 2: "He's in remand right?"
Girl 1: "Yes!!!!! I want to break with Mack and stead with Joel again... wo aii ta!"

And it goes on and on and on.

It set me thinking... why are they wasting too much time on their hormones? Like, you have an amazing destiny right in front of your face and then you're there talking about all those useless stuff. :/ I don't know, but I find it all meaningless. You're not going to marry the guy anyway so why waste precious time on him? :/

If only she's on fire... she can really use that passion for God.

Well I gotta do what I gotta do... PROBABILITY & MATRICES I LOVE YOU....
Reverse psychology, they say...

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7:19 오후

` 951; - the truth about forever, is a big lie







Was thinking to move to livejournal but I have to figure out the CSS and everything. But maybe later, later, when I manage to grab hold of time lovingly, embrace it with a passion never thought possible...


Maybe, maybe.


I have no idea if anyone will read this, but anyway I'll write what I want to write, a whole myriad of detached thoughts flowing through poised fingers a-tap-tapping away on a cheap, $20 keyboard with Gackt's chocolate-to-my-ears voice through the speakers.


What a way of saying about love, subtly.


My entire January was Crap. With a capital C. Well it figures because it's already somewhere mid-Febuary - but it doesn't matter does it?

January - love, laughter and betrayal (or is it?) I was loved, and I had loved, I opened up and in the end was shut close with a bang. A huge one at that, which ended up in a "cold war" of sorts... a "time for you to think things through." What nonsense. However, I've gotten over you already. Thanks to you, I've lost a whopping 3kg in just 3 weeks of nausea-induced reactions during recess, obviously, by you and a certain someone. Doesn't mean you hang out with people of the opposite gender means that I can't do the same. Get that in your head.

However there must be a reason why people write bitter before sweet. Probably this is a time of obstacles that I have to go through - refiner's fire. I wouldn't say it's exactly pleasant but I know I'm on my way there. I don't know where the sweet is but I'm sure that I'll be there somehow.

People can be so ugly sometimes. I don't know how you feel but that's what I think. I know, I'm not perfect, and neither are you, but you can't use that as an excuse to cover up the things/words that you say to me. Well, all that I know is that I have better friends, a better smile, a better future with meaning, than you. Continue saying what you want, ranging from my complexion to my attitude - but hey, learn to look at yourself before you condemn other people. You may never know when what you say may be upon you.

I try to picture you smiling, telling me everything's okay, but love you're on the other side of the world and I can't imagine anything, because my mind's all fogged up. And probably you don't even exist. So how can I think of you? I don't know. I've always wanted to do something with you - not physical, you dirty mind, but something like, oh, a project? A photoshoot? I'd love that. Or act? Because, the only times people can actually experience the events that happen in the korean serials that they're so hooked upon is when they are actually acting in it. I may want to be given the chance. Maybe one day? You'll still be there right? Maybe we could get someone else in? It'll be terrific, I tell ya. Better than Full House or Moon Child put together. I'm looking forward to it.

I feel that you should try listening to your heart, and God. I know it sounds a bit cliched, anyhow, just give it a try than trust your naked eye. Something naked isn't always good. Just ask any man who had just contracted an STD and lost his family at the same time. You can't always judge people - you need to give them a chance. And I'm not saying it's me; there're a lot of people out there who are affected - directly or indirectly - by your words, your bitching, your sarcasm - I don't know. But seriously, get some lovin' in your soul.

Okay. I'm referring to 3 different people, but if you ask nicely I may tell you who they are. I have no idea on how to construct my thoughts, but, I'm sure you'll understand.

(L), make love not war. BAI.

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토요일, 2월 09, 2008, 11:31 오전

` 950; - 'cause we're too lazy to pick up the phone

Woah, what a week.

Rushed around Singapore from Serangoon to Chai Chee to Dover to Harbourfront to Hougang just for New Year visitation. And I am one happy happy girl :D

Okay. Not so happy.

Idk, something's like happening in the family and I don't like it. First it's grandma and now it's Aunt. ): It's just the devil la, some idiot he is.

However, it was amazing. I could see seeds of revival happening in my family. Cousin after cousin were getting saved... at the rate they're going it's amazing. Now Shuxian gor's a leader in FCBC and Dajie was a CGL in CHC. Woah. Things are happening fast. Now my Xiaoyi (9th Aunt) is going to church occasionally... but that's a start.

*

Went back to Childhood Home ystd and met Ronald = childhood friend/neighbour who's like 6 years older than me 8D

Omg, he's all tall and suave. Perhaps the army changed him. But the goofy smile and sense of humor still remained the same, like I've always remembered him. His brother is no different, still the same smartypants (he went to NJC omg!)

I missed them much. Last time we went on holidays together and they'll always like take care of me becos I was the youngest and the only girl among them HAHAH although Ronald was the one who took most of the caring because Kelvin would go and do some funny dance somewhere :D

"Since you've left everything changed."

We're planning some holiday to Korea/Japan after my Os :D

And my cutest darling baby Ansel came and he was oh-so-adorable :3

Hilarious, because him, being only 3, came over and gave me my angpao and went in a friggin loud voice and in CANTONESE "GONG HEI FATT CHOY JIE JIE, STAY PRETTY AND YOUTHFUL, AND MAY YOU FIND A BOYFRIEND LIKE (OR IS) RAIN!"

...

And he started to hug himself and said, "WO SHI RAIN!" in this omgggggggggzxzxzxzxxzz voice 8D

:D made my day.

Now I'm off to Yihang and Yanyu's house to say hello and bainian :D

8D BAI (L)

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수요일, 2월 06, 2008, 10:03 오후

` 949; -

My uncle called from Japan yesterday and it was super funny.

"Naomi, do you want anything from Japan?"
"GACKT CDS! :3"
"Spell his name?"
"G-A-C-K-T! :3" *expecting a I-dunno-who-he-is answer*

"OH, GACKUTO!!!"
":3!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

Andandand my uncle's bringing me Gackt & other fashion stuff from JAPAN and I'm going to hugggggggggggg him when he comes back omggggggggggggg! <3

And after all the squeals of Gackt (mostly by ME), my uncle offered some advice:

"Where's he from?"
"Osaka or Okinawa if I'm not wrong ;/"
"Naomi, must marry Okinawa/Osaka men! Very handsome and can sing. Gackt is astoundingly handsome, marry him!"
"HE'S LIKE 34?!"
"Ahya never mind la he looks young."

Uh, firstly Gackt has to be Christian first (which is like 5% chance since with Malice Mizer he sings what nonsense of Communion with Nimrod or something but STILL GOT CHANCE HE'S ALIVE ANYWAY) and secondly he's a bit weird (well techically he's VERY weird because his house has no windows and he prefers to use the candlelight).

But still :D

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토요일, 2월 02, 2008, 10:02 오후

` 948; - 闇の終焉







歪み続ける時空の狭間で
背中に剌したナイフを翼に見立て
宇宙を仰ぎ続
け僕の体中を巡る記憶の媒体すべてを
燒き尽くすため
君だけを見た...

All the leaves that have fallen onto the floor has been blown back into the sky.
I may not be online ever so often due to something that happened
The knife that stabs me in the back gives me wings
That's all I can say.

腕の中で広がる世界は the last secret garden;

라벨:




금요일, 2월 01, 2008, 3:14 오후

` 947; - is this how we say goodbye?



I'm so, so, so tired of you. You, You, YOU.


You've changed. So much. For the better or the worse, I don't know. But from what I see, it's probably the worse.

I should've known better. Everytime when I open myself up to someone, I get let down. Every. Single. Time. I slap myself for being so vulnerable, especially towards you. I get tired, bruised and battered. I'm probably half-dead by now if you hadn't noticed. No, I don't think you have. You possibly DON'T EVEN CARE.

When I see you, you avoid me like I have AIDS. And you maintain we're still friends, or even better ones. I think all that talking are all falling on deaf ears because you don't seem to be doing anything.

Today's the last straw. I'm tired of seeing you being led around like a lapdog on a leash, tired of the empty promises of being friends, tired of the tears, tired of all the endless questions of "What the hell happened to ____?", tired of you, just you.

Don't give me the crappy nonsense that you've always promised, to give you more "trust and belief,have more faith in me, I'm your close friend." Ask yourself this; HAVE YOU GIVEN/SHOWN ME A REASON TO? HAVE YOU?! Eve if you say that this is for the better, ask yourself again, DO CLOSE FRIENDS IGNORE EACH OTHER DAY AFTER DAY? DO THEY SHUN AWAY FROM EACH OTHER? DO THEY LOOK WITH DISGUST AT EACH OTHER? DO THEY? I THINK NOT.

I've thought you were nice, and we could weather this friendship through thick or thin, rain or shine. Looks like it can't even make it through a drizzle, talk about being together for each other.

I should have known.

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