so we'd spread love like violence; ♥
♥ rai·son d'ê·tre (rā'zōn dět'rə,) {존재 이유}

n. pl.reason or justification for being or existence


naomi jung
서여정, 三浦 なおみ
29 june 1992
ngee ann poly mass communications
Rorsharch ink blot
J Tune Entertainment

& ooooh, Rain 비 = ♥


Heart of God Church ♥ b41

/more about me


나의 남편!


정지훈/Rain/Jihoon - the husband.

Faith/Spaz - the best friend.

Prisia/Siao - the other best friend.

Cheryl - Cooking mama

Joyce - Korean fanatic.

Brother (wenjun) - who has 10000000 brains

Hyun - Mr Smart-ass Korean.

Chew - Dear Leader.


Ajumma (아줌마) : Auntie

Ajusshi (아저씨) : Uncle

Chagiya/Yeobo (자기야/여보): Darling/Honey

Namja Chingu/Namchin (남자친구/남친) : boyfriend

Yeoja Chingu/Yeochin (여친/여자친구) : girlfriend

Hyung (형) : Older brother (for males)

Oppa (오빠) : Older brother, also can be used as "boyfriend" in a steady relationship (for females)

Nuna (누나) : Older sister (for males)

Onni (언니) : Older sister (for females)

Ssulung (썰렁) : "so cheesy/cold/lame" for cold jokes

Selca (셀카) : camwhore/self camera

Wang Ja (왕자) : 6 pack/washboard abs



♥ Heart Of God Church
♥ B and C Zone!
♥ donghaeng; Lord and Me
♥ Moi-même-Moitié
♥ amelia
♥ andrew lau!
♥ andrina
♥ anqi
♥ bellrarie!
♥ boxue!
♥ candy!
♥ cassandra!
♥ chew!
♥ clara!
♥ dajie
♥ darren!
♥ daryl!
♥ debrah
♥ faith, best friend!
♥ fedora!
♥ gabrielle!
♥ hinwen
♥ ivan!
♥ jasmine
♥ jia en!
♥ jia jia!
♥ jiayang!
♥ jia yun
♥ joanne!
♥ joyce
♥ kenneth!
♥ le raine
♥ ling
♥ liyin
♥ lucinda!
♥ marissa
♥ nadine!
♥ nelson!
♥ pearlyn
♥ peggy
♥ pei fen!
♥ pei jun
♥ reuben
♥ ruoen!
♥ ryan new!
♥ samantha!
♥ samantha whang
♥ sion; mr kimchi!
♥ shermaine!
♥ shihua
♥ shijin
♥ shizhe
♥ shumin
♥ shu xian/joe
♥ sofiana
♥ sophia
♥ sushian!
♥ sylvia!
♥ thea
♥ ting wei!
♥ trisha
♥ wanwen
♥ wei lai
♥ wendy
♥ winsome
♥ yi jing!
♥ yu xuan
♥ zhiyi!


♥ Abingdon Boys School
♥ Gackt
♥ Kenichi Matsuyama @ Horipro
♥ L'arc~En~Ciel
♥ Malice Mizer
♥ Namie Amuro
♥ S.K.I.N

♥ Big Bang
♥ DBSK Offical Site
♥ Epik High
♥ Rain's Company - J Tune Entertainment
♥ Rain's Company - J Tune Creative
♥ Rain's Offical Site
♥ Se7en
♥ Tablo
♥ Yiruma

♥ Gackt Dears
♥ Gackt Syndrome
♥ Rain Singapore
♥ Rain Union
♥ Sexy Bi


Blogs I read:

♥ Feet Man Seoul
♥ Joss Sticks
♥ K-popped!
♥ Lakeside Girl
♥ Mr Brown
♥ Mr Miyagi
♥ Mr Wang Says So
♥ PopSeoul!
♥ The Sartorialist
♥ Sibeh Sian
♥ Singaporean Mind
♥ Son of Singapore



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목요일, 1월 31, 2008, 11:31 오후

` 946; - built to last

Sometimes when the wind blows, all leaves on the empty courtyard are tossed into the air.

Like that, your emotions are lightly (or even strongly) being scattered all over, all around, and swirls till it all dies down. That is the time when you finally become the iron lady you've always dreamed of being, until yet another gust sweeps you off your feet. By then, you don't know where to pick up the pieces and put them back all together again. But after that, the gale does not make any impact even though it's just as monstrous; leaves flutter but they don't travel. It remains, still and unscathed. It has been through a lot so it learns how to withstand the pressure.

That's good, because I don't want to scatter too far again.


수요일, 1월 30, 2008, 7:35 오후

` 945; - different from me

What Naomi Seow Means

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.
You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.
At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.
You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.
You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.
You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.
You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts.
You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it.
You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator!
What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?


월요일, 1월 28, 2008, 8:33 오후

` 944; - quickie

Annyeong Haseyo.

Just here to post a quickie before returning to the depths of schoolwork, exams, stress and pimples;

(Un)eventful Monday, as usual. Went to school with new haircut and garnered some comments. Well, all I can say is :/. The only interesting thing(s) that happened today is that Jiong Yang went for CG :D and I finally know Kathy's score for Os.

I was doing dismissal for the lower sec today and I saw the cohort before me.
I mean... amazing, I could see revival, if you get what I mean. I'm exhilirated, excited, on the brink of total euphoria... okay enough of the synonyms for now. But we've prepared something, something God.

I know, Your faithfulness saves me everytime I fall.
And, I won't be falling (again).

I can see, me, him, you, in the same school after this one, still taking it for God.

Revival Town
That's what they're calling this place
Revival Town
& put a smile on your face

I've got a story to tell
about the king above all kings
He spoke of peace hope love justice
Things that we all need today

You let a broken generation become a dancing generation
This is revival generation
You may not hear it on the radio
but you can feel it in the air

You turned my mourning into dancing

라벨: ,

토요일, 1월 26, 2008, 11:29 오후

` 943; - what will I become?

While I was doing Quiet Time around last year, I remember asking God who He thinks I will be and should be.

He replied, "Deborah."

Deborah? Why not Esther, Ruth, or even Mary? I questioned.

"Why not you research more on her and you'll find out." He answered.

I went to google for Deborah and this is what came out:

"As you dedicate yourself to the lord and seek His face you will be prepared to fulfil His will for your life."

Woah. Even in the olden times where men were super egocentric, Deborah was respected by all and was the first and only woman judge of Israel. She did not let anything hinder her, even though her post was meant for a man.

Even a man, Barak, requested Deborah to accompany him for the battle; he knew that Deborah's presence would guarantee victory. Such was the respect and confidence of Israel in Deborah. She was a woman of God and all recognised it.

Deborah was not proud nor did she hold an unspoken grudge against men. Hurt and bitterness affects your ministry like how it affected Rachel.

It is a godly attitude that will promote you. All human beings will respect and heed to your ministry once they see the love and character of God flowing out from you.
A whole generation had peace because of the godly behaviour of one woman.

I will be a Deborah.


12:01 오전

` 942; - replication / mitosis

I was studying Biology just now when I had a revelation.

DNA replication and mitosis are precisely controlled in a dividing cell. DNA replication faithfully copies all the information stored within the chromosomes. This ensures that the daughter cells produced by mitosis contains all sections of the DNA (genes) needed for subsequent cell division and differentiation. The resulting daughter is said to be genetically stable.

If an error occurs during DNA replication, it will be transmitted to the daughter cell. This may lead to harmful changes in the genes and affect how the cells function.


This is about replication, copying the DNA of God, Pastors and the Leaders within us.
We faithfully copy all the information stored within the Bible and apply it to our lives... crap, it's the good stuff that God tells us, not the wars and stuff.

Genetically stable as a Christian, a leader, a regular, a Pastor, a You.
We reproduce after our own selves, we reproduce leaders.

The error refers to wrong attitude or doctorine. The exact same thing will be replicated... and it'll divide the church. We must not let that happen.

My revelation seems divided because I was mugging for Bio for 2 straight hours and my right eye is asking me very politely when am I going to sleep.


금요일, 1월 25, 2008, 9:57 오후

` 941; - You stole my heart

Boxue's "Happy Halloween" chili sauce.

Lunched at Selegie with Darren, Fedora, Esther, Joel, Boxue and Weekiat. Fedora brought us to LaSalle and her teacher thought that she brought us there to advertise LaSalle :/

Both Joel and Weekiat spazzed on the eggtarts and the fried dough fritters ): I feel a studygroup of acne approaching oh no.

Trained to church :D


Ivan shared a really powerful message today, and it really perked me up even though before that I was about to fall asleep. :/

It really spoke deep into my heart because these few weeks my fire has been like flickering, and the things that I've gone through in school is just to mould my character for greater things :D
Propel, even Jesus was perfected through obedience.

My life, my responsibility.
My zone, my responsibility.
My school, my responsibility.
Mitt skola, min ansvar.
With responsibility comes maturity.

Now it's all back to basics, loving God like a child, just simply loving Him, all over again.

라벨: ,

목요일, 1월 24, 2008, 10:45 오후

` 940; -

Cousin, I'm so proud of you.


I love you, coach. Shaun, now you owe me a year of math tuition :D


7:20 오후

` 939; - fill our hearts with Your compassion

Beached with Yuxuan.
Once I stepped on the beach, I stared in awe of what God created.
He created every grain of sand down to its last detail, for a purpose.

When I just stood there, He knew.
He knew everything, from the inside out.
Everything disappeared.

Screamed, vented and wrote our names on the sand.
Oh Lord, only You know.

Today my all time favourite bestie pootpoot JOYCE LEE-KWON HUI QING visited me. :D

Thank you for the smiles, the laughs, the retardedness, the "bloody hell" jokes.
Mustmustmust go back Korean School kay. :D


Today was okay, better than other days I've ever had.
The past few weeks really showed me that I really really need God.
Lots of propaganda, heartbreak, childishness and people whose mouths and brains need to be washed throughly with Dettol... and a person's relationship with God almost went ka-poof.

Stupid devil. Get behind me Satan.
If you want to control God's revival with these nonsense, fat chance.
I'll get back on my feet soon enough
Just you wait.

I was reading Gabrielle's blog, and a revelation struck me.
Gossiping in school is rampant, and how come the prominent people gossip?
I hate, hate the culture. What if it affects the next generation?
I can never find relationships like that in church.
How can people ditch a person just to hang out with the popular crowd? How long can it last?

Funny things, people are.

If you have negative vibes about someone, just think about something positive about the person... replace the old man with the new.

They just need God.

Pray, trust, obey.

라벨: ,

수요일, 1월 23, 2008, 9:18 오후

` 938; -

Something my principal said awhile back:

"In order to attain ACADEMIC EXCELLENCE, you need to have your own motivation."

Familliar eh. HAHAH.
All the schools are like stealing our line after Selwyn got tops in national N level results. I mean, he got like a 3!!! Which is the best in the history of N level :D

Weekiat wonders if they would not allow us to go to school if we don't complete our 20 hour study rule or something.

They make us stay in school. :/

라벨: ,

2:35 오후

` 937; - love undeservedly

Come up to a God level of love.
It's been hard.
I'm really trying my best.

In school it's been like hell, it's hard, it's hard, but I'm trying and going through. I'm praying, really I am.

To love, it's simple yet difficult. An oxymoron. I try, I really try.

Love undesevedly. I can do all things in Christ who strengthens me.
For He gives me strength.

This melody from my Children Church days replayed in my head, like a tape recorder without a stop button.

"For He gives me strength
For He gives me strength
I can do all things through Christ
who gives me strength."

To go up to a God level of love.
It ain't easy, but I'm doing it anyway.


화요일, 1월 22, 2008, 3:05 오후

` 936; - save me from myself

Two weeks and we'd caught on fire,
She's got it out for me,
But I wear the biggest smile.


I hate being vulnerable. I hate being confused. I hate the feeling of my heart being constricted by an invisible metal fist. I hate that my appetite always seem to disappear when I happened to glance your way. I seem to be all "high" and happy ladeda to you. Probably the facade is just to make yourself feel happy. Maybe it's to assure you that I'm all okay. Indifference? Possibly.

No, nothing's perfectly okay. I hope it will be.

I try to forget, I know I shouldn't let my brain process all those emotions that whiz within my head, but it just did. I felt myself wanting to grab you and scream at you, scream out all the truth which I could see in her that you are somehow blinded from. I have the sudden urge to slap her, yank her and pummel some sense into her. And the scary thing is, I wanted to do these things. I have never felt this way before.

I try (don't you know?). I hang onto the statement that I should trust you more and nothing else and still, you don't give me any reason to. Or better, I can't seem to find any.

I'll continue to be the person you once knew, the "old, smiling, hyper Naomi". She'll never go away.
But for this "neurotic, scary, insecure, unable-to-trust Naomi", she'll disappear the same way she came.

But without God, she'd probably be out of control.


월요일, 1월 21, 2008, 5:36 오후

` 935; - we're hiding in a safer place

"For the longest time after that, neither of us said anything. I was unaccustomed to his silence, but I didn't mind it. I knew near everything about him, and he knew near everything about me, and all that made our quiet kind of song.

The kind that you hum without even knowing what it is or why you're humming it.

The kind you've always known."

"Take my arm, Naomi. And now I wouldn't mind if it were even farther, if we could just go on like this forever." - Will Landsman

- Memoirs of a Teenage Amnesiac, Gabrielle Zevin

라벨: ,

일요일, 1월 20, 2008, 12:02 오전

` 934; - 'cause You made me smile for just a while

LOL darn funny la this picture. Taken when we went home like on Friday with Tingwei, Gonggong and Lester :D


Ignite was... okaaaaaaaay. Got to enter the church early (!) because of deco and cafe. Best Friend also went early because of usher. He's ushering for 3 whole days! Power la he. I'm so proud of him :D Finally caught the fire :D

Did cafe with Melissa. Was supposed to change uniform but didn't ):
Went home and talked talked with best friend.

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA I'm like grinning when I type this. Lawl.

The angmohs who live below me are scary. Eh, Jacques, Matt and some guy who looks like Mika. They came and talked to Weekiat and I when we were walking home!
They talked about whether we club or smoke or drink and stuff. Then when we went off (told them we got curfew), they kissed us on the cheek (Best Friend included)!



Went early again. Best Friend and I fell asleep on the bus because we slept super late the night before ):

Love undeservingly.

Represented Hougang Sec with Best Friend on stage :D Hopefully the pics Miaow Guan took will come out soon :D
Got Pastor Joakim to sign stuff for us :D

Weekiat and Andrew (his cousin) walked me home because I scared of angmoh ):



I lost my ezlink card and my mom is angry.
Never mind. Get behind me, Satan.
Nothing will stop me from going to church.



“Going to church, doesn’t make a person a Christian more than going to a garage makes him a motor car.” - Billy Graham.

My day was temporarily spoiled by some girls from another church who made fun of Bellrarie and indirectly dissing our church culture. I can't believe they're Christians. Not saying that I myself is some self-righteous person or summat, but seriously, they're behaving like people in the world. Like, all immature. Pah.

"The only thing that stopped me from being a Christian are Christians." - Mahatma Gahandi

Sad ain't it. Some people just like to adopt the name "Christian". Being a Christian is your lifestyle, not your label. I feel sad for those who just acts Christian in a church but they have unchanged character.

We really need to keep the culture.

For example, Pastors used to clean the toilet when they first started the church. They lay the foundations for us. Now we have BM. When Pastors ask/request something from us, we'll immediately say, "Yes Pastor." Only when we're like in, say, a serious medical checkup or something, we'll offer them solutions or do it for them later.

Others would simply say, "Oh Pastor it's raining." "I'm sorry Pastor I can't. I'm in the middle of studying."

Yet they still make fun of our church when we respond, like "Yes." or "Amen."

Break my heart for what breaks Yours.

라벨: ,

목요일, 1월 17, 2008, 11:55 오후

` 933; - meme

From Ling! who got it from Nelle.

1. I can whip up a meal. Marry me.
2. My left thigh is slightly smaller in size than my right.
3. I look totally different with specs and without.
4. I was made in Japan but born in Singapore. Thus with the name "Naomi."
5. I have a fetish for Chocolate Chip Mint Ice Cream.
6. I have rebonded my hair twice.
7. I am crazy about Rain now. :D


1. Cockroaches D:
2. Watching surgery in operation. Pardon the pun.
3. Best Friend backsliding D:
4. Losing loved ones.
5. Gory/Horror Movies.(DUH)
6. Heights.
7. Roller coaster rides.

1. Built to Last - Melee
2. Sakura Drops - Utada Hikaru
3. Window - Shirlyn Tan
4. Misery Business - Paramore
5. Light Up The Sky - Yellowcard
6. I Can Only Imagine - Mercy Me
7. Gotta Give Him The Glory - Christian City Church Oxford Falls

3. Daddy
4. Mummy
5. Leaders
6. Best Friend :3

1. I love you.
2. Eh!
3. Walao eh
5. Lawl
6. WTH!
7. Crap

1. (insert name here)
2. (insert name here)
3. (insert name here)
4. (insert name here)
5. (insert name here)
6. (insert name here)
7. (insert name here)


Omg I found my photoshoot pics :D

I shall post one here I guess...


9:32 오후

` 932; - you and I collide.

It's the 3rd week of school and I'm already feeling /horrible/. I hate waking up in the middle of the night crying and pleading. I'm tired of being the butt of acne jokes and juicy gossip made by people who have too much time on their hands... if you know what I mean.

2008 is passing by relatively slowlyyyyyyyyy. Even O Level Music seems to be such a dread, really. Having a teacher who disses you when you get an A1 seems depressing enough, but when he throws a stack of assignments that you don't even know how to do them is worse. Trust me.

I'm just going to have faith.


And you're the only person who've successfully managed to enable me to lose 2kg in 3 weeks.
I'm tired of waking up in the middle of the night crying and screaming.
I lose my appetite when I see you.
Didn't know you would turn out to be like this.
I don't want to lose you, you mean a lot to me, but I can't take it anymore.

I can't believe I'd say this but,


수요일, 1월 16, 2008, 7:57 오후

` 931; -

I can't say a word.

& I can do all things through You who strengthens me.

Hougang Secondary, pwnage.


화요일, 1월 15, 2008, 9:39 오후

` 930; - a beautiful mind

You baffle me.


I find peace when I'm confused
I find hope when I'm let down
Not in me
In You
It's in You

Hope to lose myself for good
Hope to find it in the end
Not in me
In You


월요일, 1월 14, 2008, 11:43 오후

` 929; -

어리석 있는 멈추십시요!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
너 장님은, 너 모르는가 저것을 이는가???????????????
열으십시요 너의 눈!!!!!!!!


Don't bother asking.


10:15 오후

` 928; -

Tired? Yes. Lethargic? Yes. Irritated by someone? DEFINATELY.

However I love what I'm doing and I won't trade it for anything else.
I love to serve.
Jesus loves to serve too.



토요일, 1월 12, 2008, 11:56 오후

` 927; -

I'm in loveeeeeeeeee.
I'm surrendering myself, no longer I but He lives totally in me.

I love Love.
I love you and you and you. :D


10:34 오전

` 926; -


Yes, God, I'm really trying.

It's hard. Who says it was easy?
I've been recieving holy discouragement a lot in school lately, it seems like the norm. Everyday, everyday Lord, You are the same and You'll never ever leave me.

Crap... school seems like a challenge. With the same old people trying to force the HOGC Hougeans to undergo rigorous propaganda. But I trust them not to listen and buckle under pressure. I love them to the max.

I see the scenes of a typical gangsta drama serial all the time, with pettiness, childishness and hate being the foundation of the pyramid of social hierachy. I see people smoking in the toilets, vulgarities freely given out and perpetual gossip being spread like wildfire.

Love, love, love.


12:29 오전

` 925; - those fashion lights seem to cause a glare

♥.† Moving Higher And Higher,To The Next Level And Beyond♥.† says:
ur daddy must be a terrorist cos u da bomb

♥.† naomi; can't stop love. says:
cheesy pickup line you have there

♥.† Moving Higher And Higher,To The Next Level And Beyond♥.† says:
ya im bored

♥.† naomi; can't stop love. says:
i'm not a bombshell yet HAHAHA

♥.† Moving Higher And Higher,To The Next Level And Beyond♥.† says:
wat is important in a bomb is the inside nt the shell

♥.† Moving Higher And Higher,To The Next Level And Beyond♥.† says:
the inside makes the explosion nt the shell

♥.† Moving Higher And Higher,To The Next Level And Beyond♥.† says:
those bombshells on bay watch r jus plastic coverings

♥.† Moving Higher And Higher,To The Next Level And Beyond♥.† says:
like michael jackson

♥.† naomi; can't stop love. says:

I ♥! best friend :3


Three Things You Want To Do Before You Die:
1. Fufill my destiny in life
2. Go Yoido Full Gospel Church in Korea
3. Have a godly family

Three Names You Go By:
1. Nao / omi / Nana / Nao-chan
2. Mrs Jeong
3. Eh.

Three Screen Names You Have Had:
1. rain-ting
2. x-asphyxiation
3. playpausestop

Three Physical Things You Like About Yourself:
1. My eyes
2. My body
3. My fingers (yes I love long piano-y fingers 8D)

Three Parts Of Your Heritage:
1. Chinese /Hakka
2. Korean
3. Singaporean (?)

Three Things That Scare You:
1. Cockroaches
2. Losing love
3. Backsliding (!)

Three Of Your Everyday Essentials:
1. Bible
2. Handphone / iPod
3. Music

Three Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
1. Shirt
2. Spectacles
3. Undergarments

Three Of Your Favorite Bands/Musical Artists:
1. Rain (L)
2. Gackt (L)
3. UVERworld / abingdon boys school / Epik High (Okay I cheated on this)

Three Of Your Favorite Songs: (right now, okay?)
1. Fan - Epik High
2. BLADE CHORD - abingdon boys school
3. I'm Gonna Praise Your Name - CCC Oxford Falls

Three Things You Want In A Relationship:
1. Godliness
2. Trust
3. Love expressively/ passionately

Three Physical Things About The Preferred Sex That Appeal To You:
1. Heart (how he treats God, me, others, etc etc)
2. Eyes
3. Smile

Three Things You Want To Do Really Badly Right Now:
1. Play piano
2. Learn Erhu
3. Be in church

Three Careers You're Considering / You've Considered:
1. Youth Pastor
2. News Anchor/ Journalist
3. Part time model

Three Places You Want To Go On Vacation:
1. Korea
2. Japan
3. Paris

Three Kid's Names You Like:
1. Shyrain
2. Kronos
3. Isabelle

Three Ways That You Are Stereotypically a Girl:
1. I am vain /wear makeup
2. I choose carefully what I wear
3. I sing and dance wildly

Three Ways That You Are Stereotypically a Boy:
1. I love hanging out with boys more than girls.
2. I can't stand drama-mamas / pusedo-cutesy / lians
3. I am a manly man.

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수요일, 1월 09, 2008, 7:35 오후

` 924; - save me from myself

I hate being thrown off course. Off centre like a broken railway is to an oncoming train. My entire database aka brain gets jumbled and I don't know what to do. I hate that. Not knowing what would happen to me after I do something. Sometimes when I get lucky, I'll do it, and come out unscathed.

Please, when the wind blows, don't scatter me away.
God, only You can help me.


화요일, 1월 08, 2008, 11:05 오후

` 923; - kismet II

She had seen him somewhere before, his image buried in her mind somewhere under the torrential avalanche of notes, files, news reports, newspapers and the final draft she had written for her slot on the news that night.

They had met in school, but she doesn't know when, or where. She had forgotten. The only thing she had remembered about him was that he had handed her a black umbrella when it was raining, and continued to hold it over her head as she made her way to the bus stop.

The school was closed for the day, and she sat on the red fire hydrant that stood prominently but unused, outside her school, observing, clutching her heavy textbook to her chest for comfort. Students walked past her, with the occasional hello or whack on the back. Little did she know he was watching her, like he always did.

It started to pour, the raindrops getting heavier by the second. She ran towards the nearest bus stop that seemed so far. He came up behind her and opened up the umbrella, tapped her on the shoulder and handed it to her. She refused. He insisted, walked her to the bus stop and accompanied her all the way home, continuing to hold up the black umbrella above her head.

Now she had forgotten him.

Until that night, when she had hurriedly rushed to the news studio in heels, and it started to pour as she made her way out from the open air carpark. She felt the rain lessen as she ran and she heard someone running with her.

It was him, dressed smartly in a suit, holding out yet another black umbrella with the name of the company he owned emblazoned on it, flashing the same grin he did 15 years ago.

Let me light up the sky
Light it up for you
Let me tell you why
I'll die for you

I just want to be where you are tonight
I'm in the dark looking for some light
How do we know if we just don't try
So how do we know


7:15 오후

` 922; - many waters cannot quench love

I hate insecurity.
I hate gossips.
I hate hate.

Pastor How has started a series on Love, and so far I feel that I flow with Love Hatefully and Love Undeservedly.

School these days are not what I'd expected... I thought that it would, at least, be more constructive and happy than compared to last year. I guess I got more insecure and stuff so far, but bullnonsense.

I'm going to bounce back and get on my feet again.

Some stupid monkeys in my school deserve not a banana but a slap on the face. Can't tell you who and why but I'm sure sick and tired of daily yells of being someone's wife when actually I am not. I am dead but it's Christ who lives in me. Dead people have no emotions when it comes to this. I will do the same.

I got to keep loving them, loving them.



On a side-note, I love you Chew and Sylvia. :D Awesome lunch. I love you both unconditionally. 2008's going to be amazing.

On another side-note, Christine is HAHA-HILARIOUS ;D


월요일, 1월 07, 2008, 8:38 오후

` 921; - kismet part I

I found this essay which I wrote during sec 1 in my sec 1 Science text, and I thought it would be interesting.

At another time, at another place, he'd be your man.

Just a year ago, he was just laughing with you, his broad shoulders engulfing your medium-build frame, his mysterious eyes boring deep into yours, searching for answers to his questions, his hands making contact lightly on your waist. Together without professing your love to each other, he'd take you out for walks, accompanying you home and on some days, stare deep into your eyes, at the same time taking your breath away.

Now, after a brief sound of silence, you are staring in disbelief at his wedding invitation. "Come," he had said, "I would love you to be there." He smiled. "Judy would so love to meet you. I have been telling her everything, about us, about us."

You stand rigid, hardly believing that you have missed the man of your dreams as you let the pink and white elegantly embossed card flutter to the floor.

And if I could be who you wanted
If I could be who you wanted
All the time
All the time
ling! you're so hilariouszxzxzxzxzxz :]


일요일, 1월 06, 2008, 10:52 오전

` 920; - battered and bruised

Even if you have a watchdog to chase away someone who had had humiliated you, they would still, somehow, manage to slip by.

The feeling is like a stab in the back, the dagger that cut through every sinew of your heart, ruthlessly slashing at every section of your soul, even if you think you're used to it, and you're prepared. Nothing, or no one could ever be prepared for it. I guess the only shield for it is love. Love by God, and/or an unexpected someone who gently envelopes you with their love. I may not be steel nor stone, but I still will try to turn my face the other way.

And I will forgive and love undeservedly, because forgiveness and love will set me free.

Who am I?

"I am Hiro Nakamura. I'm going to save the world."


금요일, 1월 04, 2008, 11:17 오후

` 919; - how she tried to make things right

It has been a very fast 4 years.

2008 is going to be a loaded gun with lots of ammo for me. Firing away. The upgrading to a AK-47 or what have you. Like shooting the target that is moving like some blinking comet. We might miss when trying to aim for the target but hell, we have to shoot it whether we like it or not. It's O Level Year y'all. Not the PSLE.

Holey cow, I'm Sec 4.

That reality hasn't quite sunk in yet, it has been 2 days of school and I'm still tuned in to Sec3FM. Which is very bad indeed. What has sunk in is that I'm going to buckle my seatbelts with a pen and a pad of foolscap in hand, with God at the wheel and my teachers in the back yakking maths sums and my emotions in the boot. All that I know is, I have to work incredibly hard (which is a feat for me) to get into either NJC, SAJC or even Ngee Ann.

It's also the last year where Joel, Junhao,Weekiat and I will be staying in this school. Sure, we will be back, but truly, the action and dispersion starts FROM THE CORE. So we need to buck up lovelies, before the school loses its chance to be the prototype.

I need to do well. I want to do well.
God save the Naomi.

2008, for me, will be the first step for me to spread my wings and fly.


Sorry for very very very lousy picture but I WATCHED BEAUTY WORLD YESTERDAY. :D

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수요일, 1월 02, 2008, 9:01 오후

` 918; - amongst other things

A friend in school just recently apologised. He was a person I just see, wave, say hello and goodbye to. Now he's in church, and I'm happy for that. He had, pushed aside every single inch of guy's ego and apologised for something he and the whole class did two years ago. I mean, I did not deserve the apology at all. It was a classic childish case which involved pettiness, everyone of which some of them need their mouths to be washed out with Dettol, and everyone talking in circles. I don't know and I don't care about it at all, because firstly, I've moved on and secondly, I already know who the real suckers are.

The thing is, how many people would risk their pride to apologise even for something done 2 hours ago? Not much. Apologising means gorging on a whole dollop of humble pie, feeling powerless and controlled. We are aware of the things we've done, I'm aware of the things I've done and I'm not afraid of saying one word which probably means a lot to that person.

Sorry seems to be the hardest word to say.

Apologies that begin with, "I'm sorry you feel this way" don't count. I'd slap you if you ever said that to me. Firstly, it's self-righteous and manipulative. Secondly, WHAT EXACTLY ARE YOU APOLOGISING FOR? Specify and admit for it.


I simply do not understand why people want others to do their job for them. You want the tickets, not me. He was there as clear as day just there, and when he's gone, you expect me to chase after him all the way to the first floor. Reason? "I'm lazy." Lazy my ass. Okay, if I had went, you'll still hate me in the end. So, no point in going, full stop. I've tried to be nice and all I got from you is just the "oh shut up" face. Well. Some people, really.

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화요일, 1월 01, 2008, 8:30 오후

` 917; - school's in

School was okay. Really.

10 things you’d like to do now:
1. Must. Lose. Pimples.
2. Teleport to Korea/Taiwan and enjoy Winter Wonderland
3. Watch Speed Racer early. TAHAHA.
4. Lose cellulite around -THIGHS-.
5. Play piano
6. Read "The Normal Christian Life" and actually UNDERSTAND it
7. Condition hair
8. Modellinggggg Ily :D
9. Shopping with Joyce/Debrah/Ling!
10. Jog. Sleep.

10 random things you do:
1. Say "I wanna pee", "walau", "All your fault la", "WHAT THE", "Shut up!", "EH I TELL YOU AH" at Weekiat
2. Laugh at funny incidents when I'm by myself, includ. in the MRT/Bus
3. Talk to myself and laugh
4. Say "Hello I am Naomi and I sneeze/forgot to buy socks/am Korean/Rain or Joe Cheng's future wife."
6. Stare at my wallpaper
7. Read books in the loo
8. Whisper "TEEHEEHEE" into Weekiat's/Joyce's/unfortunate person standing next to me's ear

10 people that mean the most to you
2. Daddy & Mummy
3. Pastor How & Pastor Lia
4. My CG
5. My husband :D
6. Best Friend
7. Best Friend
8. Best Friend
9. Best Friend
10. Best Friend

10 things you wanna have:
1. Masque to suck out all the oils from my face
2. Korean clothes to come quicklyquicklyquicklyyyyy!
3. Personal relationship with Him
4. Go Korea/Taiwan see Rain/Joe Cheng
5. Flawless skin
6. Money
7. My grade 8 practical cert with distinction
8. Good grades. Definately.

That's it.
I'm so bored/unprepared/whatever
& I'm super tired.


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3:28 오전

` 916; - take all of me

Today? I went to church at 7. And I came back at 3am.
It was wonderful, wonderful. It felt like an hour. God's presence was so strong I could feel it right there.

I have seen elitists. Have you?
Shudder to think that these indifferent people without hearts will be governing our country in 20 years time.
I dislike people, just because the father of the child is some bigshot or something, they minc their words just to curry favour. I hate it.

I've seen them.
In my primary school, it's chock-full of elitists. MP's, doctor's, lawyer's, psychologists' kids, I've seen them all.
They grow up to look down on people.
I quote Wee Shu Min, daughter of an MP, formerly from RJC, "Get out of my uncaring elitist face."
To think that these realists, these people who understand rather than live by faith, will be setting the laws, treating people, and handle all affairs in 20 years time.

We will be a different generation.
We're the revival generation.

Worshipping God into the new year was truly an experience to be remembered. I love it.
Everything's wonderful here. I have a destiny, a purpose.
As Pastor Lia was singing Hosanna with 41st Day, I had a revelation from my Father.

"Go into all the world, and make things happen. I will improve your talents, I will improve you, your character, your bodily assets, go out, I say to you, go out into the entertainment world and make a difference. As long as you believe in Me, and believe in everything I tell you, it will come to pass. Work hard on your part, and I will make things happen for you.

You will face setbacks. Go into your school. Be the light. I will make things happen through you."

I know what I'm gunning for.
I know Who's behind me.
I know everything I'm sacrificing.
Take all of me, and more of You.

I know, I'll never be like them.