so we'd spread love like violence; ♥
♥ rai·son d'ê·tre (rā'zōn dět'rə,) {존재 이유}

n. pl.reason or justification for being or existence


naomi jung
서여정, 三浦 なおみ
29 june 1992
ngee ann poly mass communications
Rorsharch ink blot
J Tune Entertainment

& ooooh, Rain 비 = ♥


Heart of God Church ♥ b41

/more about me


나의 남편!


정지훈/Rain/Jihoon - the husband.

Faith/Spaz - the best friend.

Prisia/Siao - the other best friend.

Cheryl - Cooking mama

Joyce - Korean fanatic.

Brother (wenjun) - who has 10000000 brains

Hyun - Mr Smart-ass Korean.

Chew - Dear Leader.


Ajumma (아줌마) : Auntie

Ajusshi (아저씨) : Uncle

Chagiya/Yeobo (자기야/여보): Darling/Honey

Namja Chingu/Namchin (남자친구/남친) : boyfriend

Yeoja Chingu/Yeochin (여친/여자친구) : girlfriend

Hyung (형) : Older brother (for males)

Oppa (오빠) : Older brother, also can be used as "boyfriend" in a steady relationship (for females)

Nuna (누나) : Older sister (for males)

Onni (언니) : Older sister (for females)

Ssulung (썰렁) : "so cheesy/cold/lame" for cold jokes

Selca (셀카) : camwhore/self camera

Wang Ja (왕자) : 6 pack/washboard abs



♥ Heart Of God Church
♥ B and C Zone!
♥ donghaeng; Lord and Me
♥ Moi-même-Moitié
♥ amelia
♥ andrew lau!
♥ andrina
♥ anqi
♥ bellrarie!
♥ boxue!
♥ candy!
♥ cassandra!
♥ chew!
♥ clara!
♥ dajie
♥ darren!
♥ daryl!
♥ debrah
♥ faith, best friend!
♥ fedora!
♥ gabrielle!
♥ hinwen
♥ ivan!
♥ jasmine
♥ jia en!
♥ jia jia!
♥ jiayang!
♥ jia yun
♥ joanne!
♥ joyce
♥ kenneth!
♥ le raine
♥ ling
♥ liyin
♥ lucinda!
♥ marissa
♥ nadine!
♥ nelson!
♥ pearlyn
♥ peggy
♥ pei fen!
♥ pei jun
♥ reuben
♥ ruoen!
♥ ryan new!
♥ samantha!
♥ samantha whang
♥ sion; mr kimchi!
♥ shermaine!
♥ shihua
♥ shijin
♥ shizhe
♥ shumin
♥ shu xian/joe
♥ sofiana
♥ sophia
♥ sushian!
♥ sylvia!
♥ thea
♥ ting wei!
♥ trisha
♥ wanwen
♥ wei lai
♥ wendy
♥ winsome
♥ yi jing!
♥ yu xuan
♥ zhiyi!


♥ Abingdon Boys School
♥ Gackt
♥ Kenichi Matsuyama @ Horipro
♥ L'arc~En~Ciel
♥ Malice Mizer
♥ Namie Amuro
♥ S.K.I.N

♥ Big Bang
♥ DBSK Offical Site
♥ Epik High
♥ Rain's Company - J Tune Entertainment
♥ Rain's Company - J Tune Creative
♥ Rain's Offical Site
♥ Se7en
♥ Tablo
♥ Yiruma

♥ Gackt Dears
♥ Gackt Syndrome
♥ Rain Singapore
♥ Rain Union
♥ Sexy Bi


Blogs I read:

♥ Feet Man Seoul
♥ Joss Sticks
♥ K-popped!
♥ Lakeside Girl
♥ Mr Brown
♥ Mr Miyagi
♥ Mr Wang Says So
♥ PopSeoul!
♥ The Sartorialist
♥ Sibeh Sian
♥ Singaporean Mind
♥ Son of Singapore



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토요일, 3월 29, 2008, 1:46 오후

` 982; -

Well it didn't come as a shock to me. I knew it'll happen one day soon. I have forgotten about everything that happened at that time we were... you know. It all just happened, and our ideologies were different. I was still naive, didn't know God at HoGC yet and I was clinging onto your promise that you gave about teaching me stuff I didn't know. I thought that you were oh-so-mature, being half a decade older than me and all.

I thought all possibilities were endless until you let loose a Freudian Slip and said "Oh relationships are for experience." You're dead wrong, friend, you can never be so wrong.

Can you cope with your spiritual life as well as hers? Or do you even have a life of intimacy with God in the first place?

Now that you're with her, I hope that you'll discover that the truth about your forever is just a big, big lie.


On a happier note, God gave me a promise of financial blessings through mom. She said that if I get an A or B for any subj, 10 will fly into my pocket for each A, 5 for each B.
I am not saying that I'm rich. I can buy more christian books already. :D:D

Fall of Lucifer, you're mine (:


금요일, 3월 28, 2008, 1:52 오후

` 981; - i'm nobody else's but yours

I'm in my school library now using the super ancient computer with the keyboard that's so enjoyable to type on (: I love aircon.

1 more hour to Biology SPA and then after that it's BM at church with my family. Jia En would be there for Heart Symphony and I love that girl lots.

I have revived my love for Cyworld.
Anyway, that's not the main point... yesterday night I decided to write my thoughts down on a piece of paper; and it just came out like a meandering stream of prose. Well, my pen is my pistol, they say...


JESUS - my everything
HOGC 2.0 and beyond
B4 my family
Pastor How & Pastor Lia - you have my love - Rinnah too!
Samantha, Ivan, ChewTheng - my unconditional thanks and love are yours
I smell victory
I see revival
Hougang Sec 15
Humility, I need
Leadership, I need to learn
Love undeservedly
PTL by early 2009
Deco IC by late 2008
Erhu soloist/Percussion SL
Keyboardist in worship team... WORSHIPPER
I see affluence coming my way
I love life
I have a destiny in God & in church

Other random shortcomings and forthcomings, whichever you prefer;

I still want to continue Korean and pick up Japanese and be fluent in them
Go to Japan/Korea alone with friends pref. next year
I will impact the media industry
I shall be a youth pastor, pianist, model, newsreader
History Maker, World Shaker
I will make my first million by 30, no, earlier
I will make it by 25
I will have a good and godly family
I will have affuence to influence
I shall stay in a house my husband designs, not me (cannot trust me with the curtains, right, honey?)
I will have a husband by...
I will have a daughter by...

I should rly go and study now.


목요일, 3월 27, 2008, 10:54 오후

` 980; - dream of alternate realities

Had a great dinner with Darren, Shermaine, Desiree, Sylvia, Hannah, Cindy, Nelson and Boxue just now at Chompx2 after CG. Had wonderful fellowship and a few cold jokes here and there (: They're my family man, what could I say (:

Idk, we were talking about appearences just now and I was moaning about the oil from Darren's oyster thingy (which he very generously shared with me) will cause me to break out, as if the medicine wasn't purging out the stuff in the first place. Well Nelson and Darren told me that it'll tide over...well.

Darren said that appearences don't matter, we're in church. And people do not judge people by their appearences in church... true, but I have this issue with myself that only God can settle.


Insecurity is something that eats you from within, bite by careful bite. It gets faster when you're in the real world (school for my case), when it is fueled by criticisms and expectations.

It's antagonising for some people when they have one spot on their face, but for me, I'm hoping for the day which I do not need to put on concealer when I leave the house. It's crushing to see all those people around you with near perfect skin knowing that you want what they have. It's demoralising to see models on magazines displaying flawless complexion when you know they are who you want to be in the future. It makes me mad to see people with good skin smoke. They are crazy.

I don't know why I'm crying as I type this. Maybe it's the sorrow that I'm bottling inside for so long. I try to be the Iron Lady, when people see, they'll go, "Even though her face is like that, she's still so strong, so optimistic." I try not to show that the state of my face bothers me. Actually it does. A LOT. A WHOLE CRAPPY LOT.

I hate going to school with concealer on. I hate it. I know it clogs up the pores but what can I do? I'll only get more jibes about my face, how red it gets and it looks like some snake's skin. I'll get stares and amused whispers. I've gotten that in Sec 1 & 2, even till now. I hate having to monitor what I have to eat in fear of another breakout. I hate having to stuff myself with horrible tonics and soups. I hate having to endure painful laser treatments on my face one after another. I hate having to go for ultrasound every 4 months for my kidneys when it actually doesn't help me at all. I NEED A TRANSPLANT, HEARD ME?! NOT ULTRASOUNDS. IT DOESN'T DO ANYTHING. AT ALL. I hate having urine tests, blood tests, and all those nonsense.


For God saved my day.
Song of Songs 7:1-9

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수요일, 3월 26, 2008, 9:57 오후

` 979; - kakusei ~a rapid current~

" If you lick your wounds, certainly they will be a little less painful. But when you stop licking them, the pain will begin again.

So, even though it hurts, you should stitch up your wounds quickly. It will really hurt when it's sewn up, but after it's over, you'll be on your way to being healed. In other words, it's a relationship between our hearts.

Talking about things that are painful to each of us and licking each other's wounds is something that other people besides us can do as well. Whenever someone is carrying a heavy burden, what's important is how we can help to stitch up those wounds.

Sewing the wounds will be extremely painful. There isn't any anesthesia, not in the words that we use. But after it's over, we heal without having a trace of the scar left. That is how things are.

In my "family", when someone is hurting, I will not go over and say to him, "Oh that's too bad you're hurting." But I'll go and say, "You can do it!" In order to do this, I must become stronger.

Helping someone isn't just "one way" but you have to choose which is the best way to do it, and it is not easy. But it is necessary.

I think we should all just live like that."

- Jihaku (Confessions) - Gackt Camui


화요일, 3월 25, 2008, 7:02 오후

` 978; - BAI.


I'm off to study.



월요일, 3월 24, 2008, 6:18 오후

` 977; - love

Love opened up my eyes today.

I saw this old lady being led across the street by this lanky looking gangster with tattoos, nosestuds and a cigarette dangling from his fingertips. As I walked closer to them, you could see how love radiated from her into him. Her son, she seemed to say. He's my son. Look beyond his tattoos and studs - he is me. He is my son.

Love doesn't need manuals, counselling and workshops (polytechnics nowadays... tskk), it just is. You just love because. Nothing after that. It may be hard to love, but just to let you know Adolf Hitler and Mao Zedong loved too. If these people can, so can you.

Love is just because. I love him because. I love her because. In this world, we have too much of "Oh I love my husband because he says the sweetest things." Does that mean when he forgets to say "darling dearest" when he comes home one day means that he doesn't love you?

Love knows no bounds, love never fails.

I had lunch with Jia En today. She never ceases to amaze me, she is so radical about church even though she has PO. I have never seen tenacity like hers, and believe me, tenacity with God always prevails. I love to see her talk animatedly about her destiny with God, how followup with Fedora was so fun and how she can't wait to go for Heart Symphony on Friday. I love it. I just love that.

I love it how my cousin called me up just to ask why haven't I been in church on Saturday. At least he showed concern when I least expected it. That's love.

I love how my CG always comes like this: I'll walk super ahead with Boxue or Darren or whoever, only to turn back and find the rest of them like 30000km away from us, and we'll have this annoyed look on our faces. HAHA. Sorry CG, I love you all.

I love my dad even though he can be a pain sometimes. Thanks for the Time Magazine subscription for my birthday. Loveee.

I love my school even though I dread it. But I'm still pushing for 15. It's coming y'all.

I love my face even though it's reeling from the effects of puberty but I know I'm gonna be a model someday. I feel it in my bones.

I love walking in the rain during rainy days because I love the closeness of God and me, like we're walking hand in hand. I love our relationship; it's more intimate to me than my relationship with my future husband. And I know it'll be the same way for my future husband too.

I love God because.

I love you.


토요일, 3월 22, 2008, 7:43 오후

` 976; - regret

Gackt during his Malice Mizer days dueting with Kami.
This is super beautiful, the man is talented I tell you, even though he's weird and all, anyway...
I seem to have a fetish with these kind of Victorian stuff. D:

R.I.P Kami, you were very talented and you're the best drummer in the whole history of MM...

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12:11 오후

` 975 ; - we're going deep

I was reading through my friend's blogs just now and majority of them were lamenting about love gained and love lost.

Well you may call this a period in your life to gain experience or something of that sort, but love needs no experience. You just... love. Like that. Like in the Kingdom of God, Jesus didn't need any experience to die before dying for us. Similar theory.

What's the point of thinking about that person, pouring your whole life into something that you know you won't marry? Waste of time. You may beg to differ, like saying that just because I'm a cynic or something, that I do not have the aptitude to gain one so I type this out... but hey, you know it.

And if it means spoofing up your visage for the person, if the person only loved you for your physical structure than your character, it's not love.

It is better to put all your love into God - even if you can't see Him, you know He's there.


& on a totally random note, I was watching Malice Mizer and Gackt on Youtube and they're HILARIOUS. Not to mention that I finally watched Verte Aile (MM's 30min movie before PV of Bel Air) and Societe de Parente (MM's fanclub event) which Klaha was doing his magic tricks and the rest were acting all funny through the whole thing. HAHAHAH.

& Gackt's expression:


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10:48 오전

` 974; - your void deck my void deck

Arts Fiesta was okay. Chew Theng still couldn't get the "Your void deck, my void deck, everything so void, who are we trying to avoid?" line from Kah Ming. HAHAHAH.

& heard from Samantha that she went to eat the buffet which was reserved for the alum... but anyway, Chew being Chew...ahyo...

Yesterday's service was great. Presence of God was tangible...saw hands shoot up in the air during altar call. Well these people have just stepped into a life of thrill and excitement, a sense of destiny...woah.

Leon came yesterday and he was blown away, quite literally. He said that he has never known so many people in one day before, and everyone was super funny. Denise's friend Melissa looked like Valerie Fifi (why won't anyone agree with me?!) and Lynn's friend Yanyu started getting everyone's names wrong (Naomi became No me, Boxue became Guoxue, Chew became Chun, aigoo...) and seeing her face when I told her I'm 16. She started hypervendilating when she saw my IC because

1) I'm a Singaporean (You don't look Singaporean!!!!!)
2) I was indeed born in 1992
3) My real name is Naomi.

Funny right, these people.

Yanyu started insisting that I am not a Singaporean and from the side I look like Korean, from the front, China Chinese and the other side, Japanese. -.-

Hybrid eh.

And Boxue went to Japan with friends before! W/O parents! OMG. And he said he may be going also, with Wayne. Oh! So exciting. Maybe next year or some other time... I may be tagging along. HAHA first gotta settle the parents... sian

Leon and Boxue and Fedora really clicked because Leon liked J-Rock (:D!) HE EVEN KNEW MALICE MIZER! But he liks Dir en Grey so...

We were supposed to watch Step Up 2 but Boxue fell sick and Dad went keesiao so the 3 of us broke off from the CG to eat grub at PS and then head home. Boxue was really sick and we accompanied him on the LRT. Bussed home with Leon after that & I'm convinced he'll come again. I can visualise him serving in Lights!

Chengfen's coming on Sunday. I'm excited!


화요일, 3월 18, 2008, 8:05 오후

` 973; -


Arts Fiesta is like in 2 days and I'm freaking out. Really. No kidding.
Hello acne 1, 2, and 3, and a thousand others. But anyway God promised me that I'll get through this unscathed (Song of Solomon 7:1-9, see God I haven't forgotten!!!) YAYYYY.

I got to start studying and stop worrying if I'll get Emily right.
Studying early = Naomi sleeps early = Not much pimples = Naomi not hibernating in class (!!!)


I was typing my vision to Chew on Sunday & I felt superduper excited (:


Imagining them serving in church already.
You don't know what you're in for :D


월요일, 3월 17, 2008, 11:08 오후

` 972; -

School hols was a breeze.



토요일, 3월 15, 2008, 10:02 오후

` 971; -

with You i'm strong
with You i'm free
to change the world
to be anything

You're my faith in anything
for nothing's impossible

with You who's living in me

leader jiuuuu shi leader. :D

월요일, 3월 10, 2008, 7:08 오후

` 970; - flying away from lovelost

I guess it has never crossed your mind how much we loved you, and just because you can't take things the way they are, you left.

It's all about you, you, you. When you accepted Him did you ever think that Christianity isn't going to be a bed of roses? Christianity isn't easy. Even Jesus Himself said that it isn't. Yet why do we still believe in Him? It's faith. Do you have any?

Even though I'm not in the same group as you, we were friends since when? April 2007? That's how long I've known you. And, leadership is not about the position. It's abut accepting more responsibility. I don't see the leaders having it all too easy. It's harder than what you think.

Probably if you had sat through End Times you'd get a clearer picture.

Lost time?

I mean, I remembered what Pastors said that some people would think these thoughts when he/she comes back to God and church:

"Wow, isn't that person an integration when I was at church? Now he's a TL." or, "Woah, she's on worship team!"

At least it's not too late for those people if they truly came back (:

And furthurmore, your good friend insulted Pastors and a leader. Firstly, I've spoken to him before and I don't think he's that kind of person. If he is, why would Pastors choose him to be a leader? You yourself know that leaders FLOAT up. Secondly, to quote him, I will never, ever care about those who dare scold/insult my Pastors.

Pastors did so much to build this church with the strong culture.

And you ungratefully snubbed them.

Enough said, but...
Can't wait for my future with Heart of God Church. (:


일요일, 3월 09, 2008, 10:21 오전

` 969; - au revoir

Life is getting pretty much ennui.
It's like, when you're on a Sunday mode, you'll go "Oh tomorrow's Monday and let's get this whole week over and go out on Saturday."
Mundane, much?

Ah, this week wasn't that mundane. There's End Times Bible Study at church which is AMAZING. Oh, I wanna ride on a lime green horse and carry a light pink sword! Oh dear I'm going to look so unglam and fashion disasterous beside Deborah huh. Never mind! I don't think they notice as well (:

School was NOT okay. Well especially when there's packed with people who are totally crapped up but, love prevails yet again.

And to you, love makes me stop wanting to grab you by the collar, slam you into the glass cabinet where Mr Chia keeps the school trophies, slap you and yell in your face. Everyone has a limit, and you know that you are making that limit go down a notch every time.


March hols are NOT hols at all. STUDYSTUDYSTUDY. Is there anywhere I can buy my brains? No? Sad. Whatever, I'm going to T3 with Joyce to study in Tuesday (:(: And the rest of the CG is going to have a chalet at Costa Sands on WED, THURS, AND FRI, and you should guess by now that Naomi is NOT GOING.

Or rather, can't go. ):

Oh, and I hope I can catch Mas Selamat before the sch hols becos I rly need the 10 mil :)


수요일, 3월 05, 2008, 8:38 오후

` 968; -

Have been spending more time with God lately and I'm pleased to say that I'm well (: I mean, to see everything from His perspective is something great, something wonderful.

& I'll never trade anything for it.

I wanted to say something for a long time now; but I've deleted everything.
I moved what I wanted to say to wordpress.

월요일, 3월 03, 2008, 10:58 오후

` 967; -

Woohoo. My lovely cousins (: Except for my dad who thinks he is still young but anyway... wrong attire dad it's CNY not Hari Raya. :D
It's the little step to get all of them saved man. So far only me, Shu Xian gor and the little terror is going to church but sometime soon (:

OH AND I AM SO PROUD OF WHALESON GOR (: Even though he's not directly related to me (cousin's bf) but you'll see what he does in the headlines tomorrow (:


Oh gotta do QT alrd!
byebye (:


일요일, 3월 02, 2008, 11:27 오전

` 966; -


11:02 오전

` 965; -

I always like to start my posts with a picture or a song. Well probably it's to engage my right brain while I use my left brain to think what I'm typing. Hahaha.

Eventful, eventful, and awesome day yesterday.
ESCHATOLOGY. I sound like a theologian now.
Matt 24 & 25, the entire book of Revelation, AMAZING.
Presence of God, super tangible.
I love it when the Bible clicks, like everything is like a key in a lock, the missing puzzle piece.

Sian la, I cannot go for Ivan's meeting later!
Never mind, I've already messaged him... we'll talk more on MSN and on the phone.
Techonology nowadays... probably someday soon we can like talk face to face on the phone. Hahaha

Chew's been teaching me a lot of stuff, how to build up my spiritual life and how to follow up with people. Ish ahmuaizing.
Even if I'm still a regular, I'll be the best regular.
I'll still keep doing what I'm doing (:
My strong point is EV-ing! Really meh.

HAHAHA oh, I'm reading this book on how to win with people. Author's a pastor but well, I'm done with all my Christian books so BLAH!
As they say... my house next time will have a reading room man. Like those Victorian houses where they have a library. And I'll have a fig tree planted in the middle of it... Jesus sat under the fig tree man. Don't ask me how I'm doing it, I'm gonna ask Boxue. HAHAHA

Thanks to Annabelle and Rebecca yesterday, TEAM BROKE THROUGH (:
And B4 broke through as well. 30! Finally.

My life is amazing. I wouldn't trade it for yours (:


토요일, 3월 01, 2008, 10:19 오전

` 964; - are we still the same?

Dive to Blue - L'arc~en~Ciel

「はばたくのさ すぐに」
「さびた鎖に 最初からつながれてなんてなかったんだよ」

"Let's fly away, real soon"
Someone whispered
"Let's fly away from the boundaries at our knees!"
Our freedom, back to back
"Man, it's like we're free of these rusted chains
That we've worn since birth!"


In my heart, in my heart, the sky seems to fit
I'd love to sink myself into those azure depths


Aim for the neverending night sky
Let's search for a new world
Even wavering with uncertainity
Won't make these newfound wings vanish

神のみぞ知る 止められないスピード
加速するほど 鼓動は高く高鳴り覚えていくよ

Sometimes there is no correct answer
God only knows what twists lie in the path ahead
Accelerate up to an unstoppable speed
Remember this connection even at the peak of loneliness


Everything may have been corrupted but
You alone don't need to grow up


Let that nostalgic light guide you
And gently hold out a waving hand
The unseen future may hold partings
But we can paint it with broken illusions


Take your foretold destiny
And toss it away into the sky


Even now, Even now, I remember
The way the morning shone on those distant days


Aim for the neverending night sky
Let's search for a new world
Even wavering with uncertainity
Won't make these new wings vanish

見なれた 未来にも別れを告げて

Let that nostalgic light guide you
And gently hold out a waving hand
The unseen future may hold partings
But we can paint it with broken illusions


Take your foretold destiny
And toss it away into the sky

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