so we'd spread love like violence; ♥
♥ rai·son d'ê·tre (rā'zōn dět'rə,) {존재 이유}

n. pl.reason or justification for being or existence


naomi jung
서여정, 三浦 なおみ
29 june 1992
ngee ann poly mass communications
Rorsharch ink blot
J Tune Entertainment

& ooooh, Rain 비 = ♥


Heart of God Church ♥ b41

/more about me


나의 남편!


정지훈/Rain/Jihoon - the husband.

Faith/Spaz - the best friend.

Prisia/Siao - the other best friend.

Cheryl - Cooking mama

Joyce - Korean fanatic.

Brother (wenjun) - who has 10000000 brains

Hyun - Mr Smart-ass Korean.

Chew - Dear Leader.


Ajumma (아줌마) : Auntie

Ajusshi (아저씨) : Uncle

Chagiya/Yeobo (자기야/여보): Darling/Honey

Namja Chingu/Namchin (남자친구/남친) : boyfriend

Yeoja Chingu/Yeochin (여친/여자친구) : girlfriend

Hyung (형) : Older brother (for males)

Oppa (오빠) : Older brother, also can be used as "boyfriend" in a steady relationship (for females)

Nuna (누나) : Older sister (for males)

Onni (언니) : Older sister (for females)

Ssulung (썰렁) : "so cheesy/cold/lame" for cold jokes

Selca (셀카) : camwhore/self camera

Wang Ja (왕자) : 6 pack/washboard abs



♥ Heart Of God Church
♥ B and C Zone!
♥ donghaeng; Lord and Me
♥ Moi-même-Moitié
♥ amelia
♥ andrew lau!
♥ andrina
♥ anqi
♥ bellrarie!
♥ boxue!
♥ candy!
♥ cassandra!
♥ chew!
♥ clara!
♥ dajie
♥ darren!
♥ daryl!
♥ debrah
♥ faith, best friend!
♥ fedora!
♥ gabrielle!
♥ hinwen
♥ ivan!
♥ jasmine
♥ jia en!
♥ jia jia!
♥ jiayang!
♥ jia yun
♥ joanne!
♥ joyce
♥ kenneth!
♥ le raine
♥ ling
♥ liyin
♥ lucinda!
♥ marissa
♥ nadine!
♥ nelson!
♥ pearlyn
♥ peggy
♥ pei fen!
♥ pei jun
♥ reuben
♥ ruoen!
♥ ryan new!
♥ samantha!
♥ samantha whang
♥ sion; mr kimchi!
♥ shermaine!
♥ shihua
♥ shijin
♥ shizhe
♥ shumin
♥ shu xian/joe
♥ sofiana
♥ sophia
♥ sushian!
♥ sylvia!
♥ thea
♥ ting wei!
♥ trisha
♥ wanwen
♥ wei lai
♥ wendy
♥ winsome
♥ yi jing!
♥ yu xuan
♥ zhiyi!


♥ Abingdon Boys School
♥ Gackt
♥ Kenichi Matsuyama @ Horipro
♥ L'arc~En~Ciel
♥ Malice Mizer
♥ Namie Amuro
♥ S.K.I.N

♥ Big Bang
♥ DBSK Offical Site
♥ Epik High
♥ Rain's Company - J Tune Entertainment
♥ Rain's Company - J Tune Creative
♥ Rain's Offical Site
♥ Se7en
♥ Tablo
♥ Yiruma

♥ Gackt Dears
♥ Gackt Syndrome
♥ Rain Singapore
♥ Rain Union
♥ Sexy Bi


Blogs I read:

♥ Feet Man Seoul
♥ Joss Sticks
♥ K-popped!
♥ Lakeside Girl
♥ Mr Brown
♥ Mr Miyagi
♥ Mr Wang Says So
♥ PopSeoul!
♥ The Sartorialist
♥ Sibeh Sian
♥ Singaporean Mind
♥ Son of Singapore



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일요일, 12월 31, 2006, 11:45 오전

真夏の夜のユメ / Manatsu no Yoru no Yume / A Midsummer's Night Dream
sung by Suga Shikao for Death Note 1 OST


I'm lonely and a liar
and I'm always just dreaming
You pretend not to notice
but still hold me

It feels like I'm a vampire
sucking your tenderness away
If an endless sadness should surround us,
let's hold each other as we wait for morning
I wonder if someday we can forgive even the irreparable scars
With a smile that hasn't changed since that day...

I dream at midnight
It was an awful nightmare and I woke up
A gloomy dream of the midsummer night
An endless darkness outside my window

Reflected in the mirror was hate, jealousy,
love, desire, and warmth

And when I slowly close my eyes,
you come back to my memory
and disappear when I look back
Even if you can't reach the place we were to meet at,
I won't let go of your hand...

You laugh gently as if it were something that happened in a distant world
I'm lonely and a liar
and I'm always just dreaming


ah, sweet sweet melancholy. (:


Have you ever gotten that feeling of sudden hatred towards someone when you discover he/she has said something behind your back (OR IN SOMEONE ELSE'S TAGBOARD; ah, the art of being subtle) that disses a work that you've painstakingly EDITED for 5 hours?

And the weird thing was, I actually credited IT in my list of New Year's thankyous, and I was thinking good thoughts about it until I discovered what it had typed.

Whatever, I like my work. You can say what you want but you'll be wrong, suckahh.

Some idiots just don't change.

토요일, 12월 30, 2006, 1:39 오전

Oh yeah. Watched Death Note 2 ;D with Mrs Camui #1, Debrah. <3

In the GV Cinema:

Naomi: KENICHI! *squeals*
Debrah: =.=

30 minutes later

Naomi: AWWWWWW! KENICHI *gasps*
Debrah: TATSUYA! *faints*

nearing the end of the show

Naomi: **(&^*&%*^%

we'll rock the cinema man! We're Gackt's wifeys. <3

The kissing scene between Misa and Light totally made Debrah sick. HAHA. I could practically hear her heart tear.

At least my L died peacefully ;D My Kenichi Matsuyamaaaaaaa<3

He looks cute in that mask though. HILARIOUS. <3


replies to tags:


Mrs Lee: OKay!, will do (:


passerby: haha! same! thanks for dropping by ((:

ling!: oh no. OH NO. *snatches L away*

Julia: you're... Julia Ho?

라벨: , , ,

금요일, 12월 29, 2006, 7:58 오후

Hey. Back to my old blog.

As Pastor How puts it, I live in a fatherless generation, and I am one of those people who were unlucky to be born in a fatherless family.

No, don't get me wrong. I have a father. It's just that he is PRESENT physically, but he is ABSENT spiritually. He doesn't give a damn about me.

Yeah, we have family dinners, but these family dinners involve no speaking, just eating. And the only times he'll open his mouth are

"Have you done your mathematics?"
"Have you done your piano?"

He doesn't believe in giving me anything for my birthday and Christmas. Yes, he'll throw parties, but he believes that the parties are my presents.

He doesn't go out with me. When my friends mention that they go out with their parents, I'll turn envious and I'll sit in a corner and not say anything. The last time I went out with my dad was to watch I Not Stupid 1, which was 4 years ago.

The only time he "talks" to me is when he scolds me and beats me, even though I am an only child. I tried studying, and I got 6 As, 2 Bs and a F9, he beat me almost to death.

I slept in a park once though. He threw me outta the house.

And he'll ban me for going for countdowns, (even though it involves church), parties and stuff.

But I really wish to have a father who is present.

I will not treat my children ike how my dad treats me.

But I love him still.

on a lighter note...

In a conversation with Kelly...

Naomi Camui~ ♥ december love song; says:
I'm mrs camui

Naomi Camui~ ♥ december love song; says:
all hail me pls

dRaCuLax [ OH YEA!! I'm free at last!! XD ] says:
yes i';m ur daughter

dRaCuLax [ OH YEA!! I'm free at last!! XD ] says:
the sexy love child of u and gackt

dRaCuLax [ OH YEA!! I'm free at last!! XD ] says:
where's sexy dada

dRaCuLax [ OH YEA!! I'm free at last!! XD ] says:
he promised to give mi a spanking

dRaCuLax [ OH YEA!! I'm free at last!! XD ] says:

dRaCuLax [ OH YEA!! I'm free at last!! XD ] says:

Naomi Camui~ ♥ december love song; says

라벨: , , ,

6:32 오후

Went to watch Death Note 2 with Debrah <3

It was the best man. Both of us were squealing (she at the sight of Tatsuya and I at the sight of Kenichi) and I cried when Kenichi (alias L) died. T.T

The funny part was that L put on a mask when he met Misa (LOL)

"Hey Light, how'd you date a star?" L Lawliet

L, 私は愛する!

목요일, 12월 28, 2006, 10:57 오후
lind l tailor

Good Evening, general public.
This is NOT Naomi Seow.
Rather, I am the one person who controls the entire planet's police force, Lind L. Tailor; alias, L.
To the murderer who's targeting criminal after criminal: This is unforgivable; the worst crime in history. Consequently, I will catch the ringleader of these crimes, referred to vulgarly as 'Kira.'
Kira, I can imagine what you must be thinking, to do something like this. But, what you are doing is EVIL.
*dies of heart attack*

화요일, 12월 26, 2006, 12:08 오전

- filler post.
from ling!. pwah.


01. Have you ever really cried your heart out?

02. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
Yeah. No elaboration.

03. Have you ever cried on your friend's shoulder?

04. Have you ever cried over the opposite sex?
Hell yeah.

05. Do you cry when you get an injury?
Not really. Unless it's really painful.

06. Do certain songs make you cry?
Yeah. River Flows in You and Stairway to Heaven did just that.


01. Are you a happy person?
Do you think I am?

02. What can always make you happy?
God, Gackt, Rain, my iPod, my turtles and fishes, my friends, books, rainy days, people calling me in terms of endearment, HIM :D, shopping for CDs and Books and clothes... the list goes on. :/

03. Do you wish you were happier?
I'm as happy as it is. :D

04. Is being happy overrated?
No... I think?

05. Can music make you happy?
Yeaaaahh. Playing music makes ME happy.


01. How many times have you had your heart broken?
Eh, many.

02. Have you ever loved someone so much that you'd die for them?
Eh, no. I'm cold. And indifferent too, like ling!.

03. Anyone besides your friends/family ever said they loved you?
mucho mucho. <3

04. Have you ever been head over heels?
No. I fall gradually in love.

05. Who are two people you love right now?
Fedora Ee and *coughs*


01. Who do you actually hate?
Hate is a very strong word.

02. Have you ever made a hate list?
No. I just hate that person and just show it out. Facades are lame.

03. Have you ever been on a hate list?
For long, darling, too long.

04. Are you a mean bully?
I can be mean when I want to. ;D

05. Do you hate George Bush?
Hate is a very strong word.


01. Are you good looking?
I don't think I am ;D

02. Do you wish you could be someone else?

[ LOOK @ ME ♥ ]

01. What is your current hair?
Mixture of natural dark and light brown, straight and puffy. >.< Bad hair day.

02. Whats your natural color?
Light and dark brown.

03. What color are your eyes?
Dark brown. xD

04. Current Piercings?
Nah. Afraid.

05. Straight Hair or Curls?
Straight is good.


01. What shirt are you wearing?
Some Calvin and Hobbes shirt.

02. Shorts?

03. Shoes?

04. Underwear?
... rather obvious question.

05. Necklaces?

[ THiS OR THAT ♥ ]

01. Rock or rap;

02. Coffee or Hot Cocoa;
Hot cocoa.

03. Wild Night out or Romantic Night in;
First, a wild night out, then we get tired and then a romantique night in! xD

04. Chocolate or Vanilla;
Boku wa, kimi no, Vanilla!

05. Hummer or Sports Car;
Sports car. WOAH.

06. Bracelet or Necklace

07. History or Science;
Both. ;D

08. Sleep in or Early to rise;
Early to rise and watch the sun rise (:

09. Beach or Boardwalk;
Beach. (:

10. Hoodie or Tee Shirt;
Hoodie. Step up boiiii ;D

11. Night or Day;
Night. ;D

12. High School or college;
Haven't experienced college, so I can't say for sure

13. California or Florida;
Both sounds great. (:

14. Love at first sight or Learn to Love;
Learn to love for me. ;D


01. Hugged someone?

02. Been on the phone til the sun came up?

03. Put a song on repeat for more than an hour?
Yes. Sexyback to drive my dad nuts.

04. Laughed so hard you peed in your pants?
Laugh yes, pee no.

[ LAST ♥ ]

01. person you talked to in person?
My marder ah.

02. person you talked to online?
Fedora. (:

03. person you talked to on the phone?
Amelia (:

05. person you hugged?
Shermaine xD

06. last time you had a shower?
Couple of hours ago xD

[ OTHER ♥ ]

01. Do you like surveys?
NOt really. Use them as fillers.

02. What kind of shampoo do you use?
Herbal Essences.

03. Do you get along with your parents?
They're fine at times.

04. Do you have mental breakdowns?
Sorta. I'm retarded. (:

05. Did you ever fake being sick?


01. Current Mood;

02. Current music;
Papa lapped a pap lopped; by Gackt. He's corrupting my mind.

04. Current hair;

04. Current Longing;
you can guess. ;D

05. Current Thing I Ought To Be Doing;
Sleeping. PHAT.

06. Current Windows Open;
My blog,ling's blog, Darren and Fedora's convo.

07. Current desktop picture;
Death Note 2. YAY.

08. Current Favorite Music Artist:

TADAH. I'm out.

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월요일, 12월 25, 2006, 9:28 오전



Jalkoeun Saengtan!

일요일, 12월 24, 2006, 10:28 오후


in the iTunes: Papa Lapped a Pap Lopped - Gackt
One Way - Hillsong
God is Great - Hillsong

As Ayako (Mrs Camui the First) puts it, "Today was the SEX!" xDD

Reuben talked to me via MSN. He's in Las Vegas. Lucky duck.

Kelitha, Eilen, Sylvia and Kamini crashed my house this morning, getting ready for the party and stuff.

Eilen, Kelitha, Sylvia, Kamini and I. (:

My 'da jie' Fedora, Kelly and I infront of Parkview Square

Kelitha, Eilen, Me, Kelly, Tingwei and Jason. JASON SO EXTRA. =X

Kelly, Kamini and I

Desiree, me and Tingwei at Citylink

My darling Horse LUCIEEEE and ME(:

Shitzz, I look dorky in glasses. Must get contacts. (:


Adapted from Marissa's blog (:

Things You've Done
Copy, bold the things you’ve done and post. Here are mine:

01. Bought everyone in the bar a drink
02. Swam with wild dolphins
03. Climbed a mountain
04. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
05. Been inside the Great Pyramid
06. Held a tarantula
07. Taken a candlelit bath with someone
08. Said “I love you” and meant it
09. Hugged a tree
10. Bungee jumped
11. Visited Paris
12. Watched a lightning storm at sea
13. Stayed up all night long and saw the sun rise
14. Seen the Northern Lights
15. Gone to a huge sports game
16. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa
17. Grown and eaten your own vegetables
18. Touched an iceberg
19. Slept under the stars
20. Changed a baby’s diaper
21. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon
22. Watched a meteor shower
23. Gotten drunk on champagne
24. Given more than you can afford to charity
25. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
26. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
27. Had a food fight
28. Bet on a winning horse
29. Asked out a stranger
30. Had a snowball fight
31. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can
32. Held a lamb
33. Seen a total eclipse of the moon.
34. Ridden a roller coaster
35. Hit a home run
36. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking
37. Adopted an accent for an entire day
38. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment
39. Had two hard drives for your computer
40. Visited all 50 states
41. Taken care of someone who was drunk
42. Had amazing friends
43. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country
44. Watched wild whales
45. Stolen a sign
46. Backpacked in Europe
47. Taken a road-trip
48. Gone rock climbing
49. Midnight walk on the beach
50. Gone sky diving
51. Visited Ireland
52. Been heartbroken longer than you were actually in love
53. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger’s table and had a meal with them
54. Visited Japan
55. Milked a cow
56. Alphabetized your CDs
57. Pretended to be a superhero
58. Sung karaoke
59. Lounged around in bed all day
60. Played touch football
61. Gone scuba diving
62. Kissed in the rain
63. Played in the mud
64. Played in the rain
65. Gone to a drive-in theater
66. Visited the Great Wall of China
67. Started a business
68. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken
69. Toured ancient sites
70. Taken a martial arts class
71. Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight
72. Gotten married
73. Been in a movie
74. Crashed a party
75. Gotten divorced
76. Gone without food for 5 days
77. Made cookies from scratch
78. Won first prize in a costume contest
79. Ridden a gondola in Venice
80. Gotten a tattoo
81. Rafted the Snake River
82. Been on television news programs as an “expert”
83. Got flowers for no reason
84. Performed on stage
85. Been to Las Vegas
86. Recorded music
87. Eaten shark
88. Kissed on the first date
89. Gone to Thailand
90. Bought a house
91. Been in a combat zone
92. Buried one/both of your parents
93. Been on a cruise ship
94. Spoken more than one language fluently
95. Performed in Rocky Horror
96. Raised children
97. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
99. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
100. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
101. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge
102. Sang loudly in the car, and didn’t stop when you knew someone was looking
103. Had plastic surgery
104. Survived an accident that you shouldn’t have survived
105. Wrote articles for a large publication
106. Lost over 100 pounds
107. Held someone while they were having a flashback
108. Piloted an airplane
109. Touched a stingray
110. Broken someone’s heart
111. Helped an animal give birth
112. Won money on a T.V. game show
113. Broken a bone
114. Gone on an African photo safari
115. Had a facial part pierced other than your ears
116. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol
117. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
118. Ridden a horse
119. Had major surgery
120. Had a snake as a pet
121. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
122. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours
123. Visited more foreign countries than U.S. states
124. Visited all 7 continents
125. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
126. Eaten kangaroo meat
127. Eaten sushi
128. Had your picture in the newspaper
129. Changed someone’s mind about something you care deeply about
130. Gone back to school
131. Parasailed
132. Touched a cockroach
133. Eaten fried green tomatoes
134. Read The Iliad - and the Odyssey
135. Selected one “important” author who you missed in school, and read
136. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
137. Skipped all your school reunions
138. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language.
139. Been elected to public office
140. Written your own computer language
141. Thought to yourself that you’re living your dream
142. Had to put someone you love into hospice care
143. Built your own PC from parts
144. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn’t know you
145. Had a booth at a street fair
146. Dyed your hair
147. Been a DJ
148. Shaved your head
149. Caused a car accident
150. Saved someone’s life

HAHA. That's it for now. Toodles!

토요일, 12월 23, 2006, 11:30 오후

I miss you, Ochida-san. <3

I really wish you could come to Singapore!

Why is it do I hear his voice?

Never mind, the Camuis will stick together. xD

Ayako, Naomi Yiruma and Gackt. <3

10:36 오전

In the iTunes: Papa Lapped a Pap Lopped - Gackt
Love Letter - Gackt
One Way - Hillsong

Cruxified, laid behind a stone
You lived to die, rejected and alone
Like a rose trampled on the ground
You took the fall
and thought of me
Above all.

I love You more than anything. (:
Thanks for revolutionising my life.

My life now is simply ama-zing. <3


I feel so sad for the people that are not going for the Christmas celebration.
They do not know what they're missing.
They're missing out on the GREATEST LOVE OF ALL.

Just a little bit more, Lord. A little bit more for you.

금요일, 12월 22, 2006, 11:21 오후

in the iTunes: Mizerable - Gackt

Went shoppingggg with Kelly, Fedora, Nelson, Jason (shitzz), Darren, Sylvia and Kamini. (:

The guys insisted on walking on the surface when they were totally oblivious to the underpass.
Airconned somemore. Gah.

Jason told me off for acting like a tomboy.
But I can act whatever I want, suckahhh.

& I MISSED Mrs Gackt Camui the First, my lovely Debrah. >.<
She was at the SAME PLACE, SAME TIME, SAME SECTION of Kinokuniya.

WTH MAN. >.<

Going for CHRISTMAS SUNDAYYY. The gals and two guys are crashing at my place to put on makeup and stuffs.

MESSAYYY darhling.

Kelly dearest, I know how much I love you but we can't be together. I'm straight.
And I can't be a model lahhhhhh, because of the side effects of puberty la. =S

Your body entice me and making me want it ;D

목요일, 12월 21, 2006, 11:23 오전


I love them all.
I love my family. <3

수요일, 12월 20, 2006, 8:52 오후

"Tears aren't a girl's weapon. It's her smile." - Gackt MS. Camui (the Great)

Mrs Naomi Camui is one happy lady. ;D

Went on a shopping spree with mummy dearest, got stranded in the rain (not Mr Jeong) and went to the hospital in one single day.

The trainee doctor from Yale or something like that is HOT xD But wth, he violated my modesty. (Not quite, he had to use the stethoscope to hear my heartbeat and he pulled my shirt up T____T)

I wouldn't mind if it was Mr Camui though. HEHE. x)

Most probably going to Mr Jeong's concert (YAY) and yeah. I wish Mr Camui comes to Singapore too. Debrah and Sylvia and I would most probably be the only ones welcoming him x_x

Going out with Fedora tomorrow. (: New clothes. YAYNESS.

That's it, I'm out.

You make me wanna do something to you. ;D

9:53 오전

Slacked all day at Marina Square. With Fedora. (:

It was great. We laughed, and joked, and gasped. (Fedora spilled a cup of coke xD)

We talked about future, past and about Darren. Didn't have time to cam-whore so yeah. =S No food-p0rn either x_x

Things that we'll do in the future

We'd buy a loft in Orchard and we'd stay together (with Michelle, Darren can go find his own)

Fedora wants sons, I want daughters. o_O

Michelle, Fedora and I will go furniture-shopping at Barang Barang at Marina Square, with our husbands talking at the back

Fedora will be the first woman to wear pants at her wedding (Gackt-esique leather pants xD) and at my wedding (she'd be maid of honor)

I will have 2 daughters and a son, Fedora will have a son.

I will call my daughters Yiruma and Rainette, and my son Light, Fedora will call her son Blake.

Fedora's partner will NOT be 10 cm tall and speak in a monotone voice.

She will be in-charge of hoGc Japan's drama ministry, I'll be Pastor Naomi Seow. xD

If I move to Korea, I'd buy Full House and stay in it; Fedora and Darren will visit. (Darren can sleep in the living room for all I care, he doesn't mind, as long as he can see his beloved fridge)

Wouldn't it be interesting if our children married each other. HAHHAHAHA.

That's all about it xD

FEDORA EE I love YOU mucho mucho. <3

화요일, 12월 19, 2006, 12:00 오후

Gackt-sama, how you make me smile. (:

9:32 오전

you're freaking me out.

please stop it, whatever it is.

you're scaring me.

월요일, 12월 18, 2006, 2:54 오후

Went to Xiao Hui's house today with Uthara!

-taken with my very lag; 3 megapixel Nokia N80.-
She loves to slobber all over me. Seriously. That dog simply loves me. (:
I want a dog like that. xD Then she jumped on Uthara and started licking me non-stop.
I heard from Xiao Hui that Sparkle barks at Daniel Chan heheheheeee!
And like ling!, I got my very first love bite from a dog. x_x
So not romantic. GAH.
I don't know.
Ever since I've started being radical for God, thoughts about the past started flowing in.
I have started to get envious of people, especially people who have a good friend with them who are radical for God.
I don't know, I've started to get more withdrawn lately and I seem to really envy her. She has this aura of confidence. I don't know.
I'm beginning to sense that she's actually thinking that I'm a pain in her butt, following her, talking to her and stuffs.
Okay, I shall not stick to her anymore, if she's trying to tell me this. I will try not to talk to her.
But I'll soldier on, and start being more radical for God. (:

12:43 오전


Who's going to Anime at Expo with me?


*squeals like a fangirl*

I got a new boyfriend. ;D who is 19 years older than me. PHAT.

*hypervendilates and passes out*

CHRISTMAS IS COMINGG, spread the loveee

Me wants these. ;D

Subarashikikana Jinsei 2; Gackt Photo Album

-out of stock at >.>-

Subarashikikana Jinsei 3; Gackt photo album

Yesasia; SGD $42.50

Gackt Piano Book; collection

Ebay; USD $24.99

Gackt 2007 Calandar, SGD $45.90




일요일, 12월 17, 2006, 9:18 오전

Love is such a crazy thing

Have you ever really liked someone, and either that someone is oblivious to your love vibes or other people like him/her or he/she likes someone else. Or maybe it's just near impossible to be together. Complicated reasons surface.

Love is such a complicated and funny emotion - sometimes it just hits you, or you experience it at first sight. You feel intoxicated. You feel jubilation when that person MSN-s you or calls you or SMS-es you. You feel that it is okay if your love interest beats you in Audition.

You also get that thought - "Hey, he/she is the one for me." And you're willing to tolerate the rest of your significant other's nonsense for the rest of your life; that's why people get married, don't they? xD

Sometimes, it grows gradually. Like a good friend who is close to you and you guys start treating each other nicely and stuffs, things happen. It can happen if you're a girl and she's a girl o_O

But you'll realise that it is just an infatuation and when you try to reason it out with yourself, you can't seem to do it.

Most of the time you think, "Omg, he's so hot." "Omg, she's so cute I could eat her." and many other quotes that can make a gangster gag. Crushes are feelings that usually go either way, and if you take time to foster it, you can get your relationship, or that it fades over time and well, you just can't feel it.

What is love?


And I'm in love with... ICECREAM!<3

Oh, how much I love ice cream. (:

토요일, 12월 16, 2006, 1:20 오후

Why oh why...

Do I have to live next to a &^*%#*% construction site and the %&%^$*&^ drills go ^&%&*$^ noisy and disrupting my ^&%*&#$^*%# sleep?!?!!

Okay, I digress.

Have you ever seen someone who is brimming with confidence, even if her dress sense sucks and her face is the worst one you've ever seen in your life walk through the double doors of the building and all heads turn and stare transfixed at her?

Yes,I have.

And I wonder where she got that confidence from. I would like to have some.

See, you cannot be born with confidence. You have to ACQUIRE confidence. I guess that you have to believe in yourself to have some.

I envy people who has some kind of aurora around them that makes people grow warm to them and he/she is immediately every person's best friend. I would like to be like that too.

Let's see what the future holds, if you'll excuse me.

1:02 오후

Rain's "Cyborg" tops South Korean Box office list, beating Daniel Henney's "Seducing Mr Robin"!


credit:rainsingapore, newsen
translations; Sina Entertainment and jjbug

Daniel Henney, a mixed-blood Korean actor has his debut movie [Mr Robin] start showing this week.

Meanwhile, Jeong Jihun (RAIN)'s debut [Cyborg] also released in the same week. By comparison, [ Mr Robin] didn't do well.Both movies were released on Dec 7 and they are debuts for the main male actors, respectively.

The movies ranked NO.1 and NO.2 in movie pre-ordering board. However, the pre-ordering does not necessary reflect the exact box office.

According to the statistic on Dec 9, 11am, [Mr Robin] only got 17.4% pre-sales records whereas [Cyborg] got 52.6% that created another new record!

YAYYYY! And Cyborg may be on the Cannes Film Festival! Go Ji-hoon! (:

12:46 오후

I'm taking up my cross
Laying down my life
All for the glory of your name

I'm living my whole life
All for you Jesus
Taking up my cross everyday

I choose to stand for my generation

God is simply amazing.

He showed me a whole new life at a whole new level.

Ever since I came to Heart of God Church, people have been showering love and concern for me. (:

I can't wait to see what the future has for me.

My life is simply awesome.

금요일, 12월 15, 2006, 10:03 오전

The problem with parents.

Their idiocy astounds me greatly as every day passes by.

Parents are disilliusioned. They try to pick out every little fault you have and they make and blow it up into an argument. The "friendly" debate ended up as a crying session.

For example, today. My dad was really disappointed about MGS, and when I bought the books, he said

"I know that I'm wasting money buying these books. You wouldn't study."

I wore my "church attire" to school, and the security guard wouldn't let me in. I eventually got in, and my mum started reprimanding me about by ears being too small for the principal's words to get in.


Stupid parents.

Then my dad started blabbering about me being a failure and may the Lord God save your soul and those kind of stuff.




I love L'arc~en~Ciel. Their lyrics really depict everything I could ever dream or think of.

Dive to Blue; Ruroni Kenshin

"Let’s fly away” somebody whispered
“Lets jump off the borderline under the knee”
Freedom is back to back
“We weren’t linked to the rusted chain from the very beginning”

In my chest, in my chest the sky accumulates
I want to sink into the deep blue

Wearing the endless night sky
I will look for a new world
I want to meet you but I can’t meet you, so I get lost
I can’t extinguish these wings that have already awoken

What is proper and so forth?
There is no answer
The fork in the road that only God knows of
As the unstoppable speed accelerates
The heartbeat becomes louder
I remember the loudness

However, everything is falling
Only you, please don’t grow up

I am guided by the nostalgic light
You wave your gentle hand
Separated from the future I am used to
I am told of our parting
Let’s draw a picture of a broken fantasy

Gosh. (:

수요일, 12월 13, 2006, 9:56 오후

Sorry for being off for so long. The internet router's down, and blah.

filler post for the moment; I'll post my poem up.

Note: this poem was written when I was really angsty, which was rather recent. HAH.

premeir amour

your lies flood me
your thoughts overwhelm me
your embrace takes me away

the music rises to a crescendo;

he's evil&a CHARLATAN
that's who he is
(your lies, my sweet
too far-fetched to morph)

his long fingers trace
I froze
his blue eyes takes me in a nebula
he twirls me back and forth
across the dance floor in a tango

his smile; oh that SMILE
full of greed and lust
blinds me
melts me from within

he bends me back in a graceful arc
to the quick beat of a tarantella
(indeed, my love
you know you entice me like one)

his hand grasps mine
with a vice-like grip
escaping from the music [goth metallic]
and we run off into the night.

토요일, 12월 09, 2006, 7:08 오후

I heard a story just the other day
About a man who gave His life away for me
Complicated yet it seems so clear
If I open up my heart; You'll be so near to me

I believe in You
I believe Your Word has set me free
With all that I am
I will life my life for You

I believe

It's such a great thing to be able to praise and worship God. It truly is wonderous.
When I worship my Heavenly Father, all the iniquities fall off me and I feel free.


I can't understand parents these days.

I am going church because I want to worship God! I want to sacrifice something for Him!
Begone, ye Christians by name and name alone!
It's so sickening that when I want to give my all to Him, you intervene and say that I shouldn't give so much for God.

What am I, programmed by birth for you people to hurl your anger at?

Untrue words hurled at me, and it's all just because I asked for a laptop case.
(You're very expensive to raise.)
(The thing is, I don't want the big ugly Acer bag to hinder me when I walk.)
(Even a laptop case must be fashionable.)

Goodness, please get a grip!

(What have you been doing today.)
(I have done my piano, revised sec 2 work and memorised English vocabulary.)
(That's not enough. If you fail your Grade 8, I'll sell away your piano. I should have sold it now.)
(Hello, you smashed my first piano which I went for 3 years without recess to buy it.)

Oh, ye of little faith! Ye of little belief!

(I'm going to sell the television too.)
(Sell it. You don't allow me to watch it anyway.)
(You little brat.)
(The point of this whole debate is not to argue of what you can sell at the auction, it is about YOU buying me a stupid LAPTOP CASE. It only costs less than $10 and you're making a big fuss out of it.)

Stupid adults.

(Naomi, you're being ridiculous.)
(Look who's talking. Making a big pandemonium over a laptop case.)

And naturally, the male half of the government forced me to play half an hour of scales of PIANO at 11 pm in the night.

Disillusioned homosapiens. No wonder Gackt doesn't like to mention his parents.

금요일, 12월 08, 2006, 7:34 오후

Very rarely that Naomi Seow turns out bored. Staying at home is killing my (very) functional brain cells.

I'm trying to keep my braincells from dying furthur by reading and trying to memorise my music dictionary (without success) and chewing good Japanese chewing gum. (Phat to the Malaysian ones where the flavour goes off after putting it in your mouth for 3 seconds)

I NEED TO GO OUT AND PARTAY. I shall ask Fe and Darren and Syl if they want to go out tomorrow. then Syl and I can sneak away and leave Fe and Darren to themselves hurr hurr hurr!

xD I need to go out desperately. Even if it means sitting the MRT from Jurong East to Marina Bay, I'm up for it. (:

Forget it, he's not the one for you. Full stop, end of story. So don't get yourself so worked up about nothing.

GAH, this is killing me.

3:22 오후

GAHHH. Haven't been really posting these days because I simply couldn't be bothered to. ;D

*dances around in a jig*

So yeah. The Parental Goverment is issuing a decree to limit my phone bill (and they think 70 bucks is little. Look at my cousin's which goes up to 300), stop all internet access by 8pm and make me go to sleep my 10.

HURR HURR. Like I care. Thanks to my Acer laptop which helps me sneak online in the dead of night. MUAHAHAHA.

I think I've fallen in love with Gackt. No, I still love Rain but you know, this irresistable bit of eye-candy (a really weird one at that) came along and you know what happened next.

Isn't he just adorableeeee? *lovestruck gaze and then swoons* O___O Gaze at all his prettiness ;D

I think I'll sacrifice my Gackt piano scores to put into Christmas offering. God says I have to sacrifice for Him, so I am doing so. (: Who knows, he may let me make a huge difference in the world of celebs and their lonely lives?

BLEAGH, I want one of those thingies that Gackt has, the device that stretches your legs so you could do splits. (Weird request for a Christmas present, but yes I am eccentric.) >.<
aishite mo ii kai? yureru yoru ni
arugamama de ii yo motto fukaku
kuruoshii kurai ni nareta kuchibiru ga
tokeau hodo ni
boku wa...kimi no...Vanilla

Is it okay to love too? In the shaking night
It's as good as it is... more... deeper
As those almost maddening lips I've gotten used to melt together
I am... your... Vanilla.

ah ikutsu asa o mukaereba
ah yoru wa owaru no darou ka
ah sora ni chiribamerareta
ah shiroi hana ni kakomarete yuku

Ah... how many mornings do we greet?
Ah... will the nights probably stop?
Ah... Scattered in the sky
Ah... White flowers surround us

I know I am not supposed to post this but this is one song that, after repeating so many times, I am still not sick of it.
I have become pan-ASIAN! Not just pan-Korean, but pan-JAPANESE as well. MWAHAHAH

Well, Gackt's songs are really nice. Not just the suggestive lyrics, but the catchy rhythm. And I love the guy behind it all. <3 aisheteru, Gakuto-sama! xD

Ahhh. Beautiful boys grasp my attention. (:

Fare thee well, one and all.

화요일, 12월 05, 2006, 10:29 오후


One of my greatest friends in my whole entire life that actually motivated me, got me back to church, inspired me, gossiped with me, dreamed with me, and goggled over Gackt with me. xD

She can almost become my best friend. HAHA. But I am not THAT close with her yet, so yeah. BUT ANYWAYS I STILL LOVE YOU WOMAN(:

Was chatting with FEDORA EE on MSN.

We WILL build heart of God church in Korea and Japan.
I WILL become one of the Youth Pastors.
FEDORA EE WILL become another Youth Pastor and she'll lead the drama network.
Shermaine'll start the Art Ministry. (:
Darenn will be in charge of the hoGc TV Network.
Ting Wei will help me through, and the rest too! ((((:

hoGc Japan and Korea will breakthrough, and will create a new generation of Christians in Japan and Korea! xD

Back to Fe. xD




7:51 오후

Vacation Bible School!

It was so great. Mind blowing.

Met Lucie and Yi Peng at Bishan, and we went all the way to church for Bible School.

It was awesome, and everything Pastor said really impacted me. It was as if God was speaking through him to let me get the message (oops, second hand revelation). So yeah.

We praised and worshipped, and it was the awesomest thing ever. I felt a force pushing me down and I was on my knees. But whatever, I felt the presence of God moving.

(: Use me, Lord! My talents are Yours!


3 people thought it was my birthday. -.- but yeah. HAHAHA.


월요일, 12월 04, 2006, 4:33 오후

"Will you be taking that cake? Say what you want, but I'll be taking the cake." - L, Death Note

"Look around you, and all you see are people the world would be better without." - Light, Death Note.

"I know that line is a bunch of bull." - L, Death Note 2

L and Light can probably summarise what I need to say about this whole pandemonium. Full stop(:

You go your way, and I'll go my way.
We'll see.

If my God is for me, then who can be against me?

8:57 오전


I "cosplayed" as Misa from Death Note. Fedora was supposed to go as Light, but ended up looking a little bit like Rain. No kidding. Faith went as L. (:

Guo Quan as Fei Yu Qing. His voice is REALLY like Fei Yu Qing. SERIOUSLY. He sang Qian Li Zhi Wai with Roy as Jay Chou. xD

Jacky as Zhang Fei. ROTFLMAO >.>


Eilen, Me and Fedora.

Nadine, a churchmate, Sam, Fedora, Faith and I posing for some emo shot. Thanks Nelson. >.<
Faith, Me, Fedora, Shermaine and Lynn. We were holding the Death Note books. Hahaha.

Lucie and I posing retardedly for this pic. Haha. >,>

Tingwei, Faith, Me and Lucie. Tingwei was supposed to be Avril. xDDDDD But Nelson commented that she looked like a ghost.

Fedora was Miss Glamorous. HAHAHAH.

She looks like Rain from this angle

And a parting shot, pardon the pun


I love my church mates the BEST. HoGC is my second home (: I LOVEEE THEM SO MUCH.<3

You want me to change. Is this how you tell people to change? If it is, you're failing at your attempt. You don't get people to change by hurting their emotions. You don't get people to change by bitching about them. You get people to change by telling them their faults and helping them along the way, not by scorning and deceit. Whatever, you go your way, and I'll go my way. If you don't want to be friends anymore, so be it. I have finally seen your true colours and how you actually treat people that you don't like. Well, whatever.

토요일, 12월 02, 2006, 7:31 오후

Back from Japan. Tired. Lots of happenings here and there, mostly fun (:

Atrocious espionage, new friends, and espionage with those friends. HAH.

I'll type the rest of this post in romanized Hangul so, MSN me if you don't understand.

Nanun Gudulrul Eumrolhaji Chomnun Munon Karul Ouihae Hwanaenun Saramdulrol Miwolhanda.

Aeruldulmyeon, nanun naka ouikyung ryeonul orsorki daemunae seongnatda, gurigul ordot saramdul euirul ouihar hwanaeta.

I'll type the rest some other time. I gotta go sleep.


I'm going as Misa, Faith's going as L and Fedora's going as Light!

Darren, be the Shinigami. xD