so we'd spread love like violence; ♥
환영
♥ rai·son d'ê·tre (rā'zōn dět'rə,) {존재 이유}

n. pl.reason or justification for being or existence

나는


naomi jung
서여정, 三浦 なおみ
29 june 1992
ngee ann poly mass communications
Rorsharch ink blot
Pianist
J Tune Entertainment

& ooooh, Rain 비 = ♥


ll.intoxicated.ll@gmail

Heart of God Church ♥ b41

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friendster
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나의 남편!

누구지?

정지훈/Rain/Jihoon - the husband.

Faith/Spaz - the best friend.

Prisia/Siao - the other best friend.

Cheryl - Cooking mama

Joyce - Korean fanatic.

Brother (wenjun) - who has 10000000 brains

Hyun - Mr Smart-ass Korean.

Chew - Dear Leader.

용어

Ajumma (아줌마) : Auntie

Ajusshi (아저씨) : Uncle

Chagiya/Yeobo (자기야/여보): Darling/Honey

Namja Chingu/Namchin (남자친구/남친) : boyfriend

Yeoja Chingu/Yeochin (여친/여자친구) : girlfriend

Hyung (형) : Older brother (for males)

Oppa (오빠) : Older brother, also can be used as "boyfriend" in a steady relationship (for females)

Nuna (누나) : Older sister (for males)

Onni (언니) : Older sister (for females)

Ssulung (썰렁) : "so cheesy/cold/lame" for cold jokes

Selca (셀카) : camwhore/self camera

Wang Ja (왕자) : 6 pack/washboard abs

할말!



친구

♥ Heart Of God Church
♥ B and C Zone!
♥ donghaeng; Lord and Me
♥ Moi-même-Moitié
♥ amelia
♥ andrew lau!
♥ andrina
♥ anqi
♥ bellrarie!
♥ boxue!
♥ candy!
♥ cassandra!
♥ chew!
♥ clara!
♥ dajie
♥ darren!
♥ daryl!
♥ debrah
♥ faith, best friend!
♥ fedora!
♥ gabrielle!
♥ hinwen
♥ ivan!
♥ jasmine
♥ jia en!
♥ jia jia!
♥ jiayang!
♥ jia yun
♥ joanne!
♥ joyce
♥ kenneth!
♥ le raine
♥ ling
♥ liyin
♥ lucinda!
♥ marissa
♥ nadine!
♥ nelson!
♥ pearlyn
♥ peggy
♥ pei fen!
♥ pei jun
♥ reuben
♥ ruoen!
♥ ryan new!
♥ samantha!
♥ samantha whang
♥ sion; mr kimchi!
♥ shermaine!
♥ shihua
♥ shijin
♥ shizhe
♥ shumin
♥ shu xian/joe
♥ sofiana
♥ sophia
♥ sushian!
♥ sylvia!
♥ thea
♥ ting wei!
♥ trisha
♥ wanwen
♥ wei lai
♥ wendy
♥ winsome
♥ yi jing!
♥ yu xuan
♥ zhiyi!

명사

♥ Abingdon Boys School
♥ Gackt
♥ Kenichi Matsuyama @ Horipro
♥ L'arc~En~Ciel
♥ Malice Mizer
♥ Namie Amuro
♥ S.K.I.N

♥ Big Bang
♥ DBSK Offical Site
♥ Epik High
♥ Rain's Company - J Tune Entertainment
♥ Rain's Company - J Tune Creative
♥ Rain's Offical Site
♥ Se7en
♥ Tablo
♥ Yiruma

♥ Gackt Dears
♥ Gackt Syndrome
♥ Rain Singapore
♥ Rain Union
♥ Sexy Bi

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Blogs I read:

♥ Feet Man Seoul
♥ Joss Sticks
♥ K-popped!
♥ Lakeside Girl
♥ Mr Brown
♥ Mr Miyagi
♥ Mr Wang Says So
♥ PopSeoul!
♥ The Sartorialist
♥ Sibeh Sian
♥ Singaporean Mind
♥ Son of Singapore

주크박스

과거

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감사

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월요일, 7월 23, 2007, 10:34 오후

` 662; -

My father must be the most irritating, chauvinistic, disillusioned person I've ever met on the face of this earth.

When I was 8, he cut up all my Pokemon cards, saying that they're "Of the Devil" and "Satanic".

BLOODY HELL I HAD A DARK CHARIZARD + DARK RAICHU CARD

-and he cut them all up. (including the plastic covers)

Now, he doesn't allow me to buy Harry Potter

-because "it's not of the Bible." "The Bible doesn't encourage FANTASY."

BLOODY SHIT MAN.
I'M STILL GOING TO BUY THE BOOK NO MATTER WHAT.

라벨:




목요일, 6월 21, 2007, 9:27 오전

` 633; -

I am so PISSED.

I went to Thomson Yamaha for a piano recital on Sunday, and since I was there early, I inquired if I could use the room first, with the permission of my piano teacher.

As I was decked out in army gear (note, army pants + dog tag+ Red Rain black shirt), the assistant, with the name of Robin or something along those lines, started to go all "No, you can't." "The room is full of EXPENSIVE MATERIAL THAT WE CANT AFFORD TO LOSE." And saying all of those in a rude tone.

Oh my effing crap. I can't possibly tuck a grand piano under my arm and walk out like that.

I politely excused myself, and went out. As I walked out, I heard the guy say to his colleagues "What a nuisance. She's only Grade 3 lah."

My teacher came, and she asked me (in front of the guy, nonetheless), "Naomi, have you done your Grade 8 piece already?"

I smirked at him and went into the room.

Insufferable people. Other countries do not need a courtesy campaign.

라벨:




수요일, 6월 13, 2007, 8:20 오후

` 622; - please.

I don't know who I should be angry with.


StarM, or you, Mr Jeong Ji-hoon?


I have perfectly good reasons to get mad at both.


StarM for handling his concert (yes, I admit the effects were good, the stage was great and the man himself is sexy as whatever), but from the way they're doing things, we can all see a lot on how 'competent' they are (or so, they claim).


Ji-hoon chagiya, for you, because you're KEEPING QUIET all this while. Can't you (at least) disclose certain information we need to know about why StarM's cancelling your concerts left right centre?


Come on, please, at least say something to the stranded fans in USA and Canada and to the rest of us, the Clouds. We're waiting for the verdict of the Rain Corp (asswipes, the lot of them), and we're fervently hoping and praying for you.


I'm seething at the fans too. Girls, it's not Ji-hoon's fault in any of this messed-up business. This guy is the guy who fell and injured his arm in Hong Kong and he still endured the pain and performed in Singapore to make us happy. This is the guy who devotes his entire life to us.


Why are you making him feel lousier when he already feels lousy?


I can't say much, because I'm (practically) nothing to you, chagiya. Nothing. I'm not Hana, I'm not Mrs Jeong (yet), nor am I JYP.


But I have one thing to say, which is to pull yourself together and use your brain. USE IT. We're all behind you, so do whatever you want to do WISELY and not let iconoclasts handle everything for you. You're the performer, so obviously you have a say in everything that is going on in the World Tour.


Do you, Mr Jeong (and yes I'm referring to StarM too), want your concert poster to look like this?












NO? Well, I don't either.


(I know this is pretty none of my business but Ji-hoon is the first singer that I had actually liked in my entire LIFE. And never before I had liked a person [a man, particulary], for 5 whole years. And I have never been emotionally attached to a person that I have never even corresponded like a tongsaeng, a proper tongsaeng, such and such.

You know I love you, Ji-hoon. So do what's best. Aja.)

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월요일, 4월 23, 2007, 7:54 오후

` 570; -

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY; JASPER! :DDDDD

-You know you love me ;D



Sucky day.

Went for math remidial and got scolded by vegetable at a decibel louder than an airplane taking off.
Flunked physics (the whole level practically flunked.)
Evil No. 1 gave us the sly/seductive/grossed-out smile at us.
And Evil No. 1, when explaining a question, tried to bring himself down to the level of the desk, by spreading his legs out wide, so we have a clear view of how small his butt is.

-No kidding.


But when I flipped open my phone;

:DDDDDD

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목요일, 4월 19, 2007, 10:26 오후

` 576; -

I have been carrying only 2 bags my whole secondary school life.

My MYUK tote bag and my Converse backpack (both bought at Sec 1, nonetheless.)

And you said I have a lot of bags.

WHAT THE HECK.

Money is meant for spending, bastard.

라벨:




화요일, 4월 10, 2007, 9:56 오후

` 562; - do you know everything that my heart's been though?

You think you're so smart.
Firstly, insulting my fish, then you insulted my church, and my LEADER.
Yeah, and you had to rub it in to say he's ugly.

It's the final straw.
You just had to put me down in everything, don't you.
Just go and think and reflect about you and your lousy attitude before you try to lead others.
*




Had biology paper today, it was supposed to be on last Thursday but the Attack of the Bees postponed it to today :D

Of life, and other random things;



My Kingdom Hearts keychain ;D




Bio is teh lurrrrrrve ;D




Cheryl is the focker ;D

*

I'll exalt Him on high.

† Saint Darren † || What's Music To You? || says:
hello ah. R. of course.

† Saint Darren † || What's Music To You? || says:
beats him hands down legs down, everywhere down!

† Saint Darren † || What's Music To You? || says:
okays. he beats ribbon in every way

† Saint Darren † || What's Music To You? || says:
clean nice short =)

/NAOMIJEONG(: 雨;~사랑 예수! <3 ♥ } Reminiscence Of You. says:
Of course he's better than that someone hahahahaha

I have some doubts.
How am I so sure that I'm going to marry _?
I just have this hunch, from God maybe, that it's like.
Intangible. Tangible. Intangible yet again.

Is it how God communicates?
By hunches? By dreams? By a vision?
I don't think I will get him anyway. So I don't know.
It's God's will.

It seems so funny how news travel fast.
Anyway, it's up to God. (:

But anyway I'll still keep it close;

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토요일, 3월 17, 2007, 12:43 오전

` 543; -

"naturally he won't accept."

"yeah I know."

"and for one thing"

"hmm?"

"he wont fall for u, end of story."

It's sad how things turn out sometimes.

*
Zane says:

-On Marriage:
"that marriage will NEVER last.by 35, you'll end up in a divorce."
"that a girl shouldnt be married at the age of 23."
"it'd mean he's 27."
"if he completes his uni at 22, goes NS for 2 years,
comes out 24, works for a year 25, works util 27, barely affords a car, married."

-On rich guys:
"do u think u will be picked by a rich guy? no."
"a rich guy has many candidates, he can toy with all sort of women and stuff."

-On liking girls
"cuz if i like a girl and i wan her to know how i feel, i'll just give obvious hints."
"and when she asks u like me ah or something, i wont hesitate to say yes."

Oh goodness, he's super smart. And he's in my class. (:

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금요일, 3월 16, 2007, 9:47 오후

` 542; - mmhmm.

Prefect bonding was fun, if not cool. Only a minor hiccups but funfunFUN (:
Eddin ar Eddin. Go and scold me for what. ): You're making me superrrr sad.

While we're playing squeeze and stretch, XH fell on my arm /while I was grabbing Wayne/. I became the medic instead :D

The BBQ. Bryan, the considerate, went and lined the BBQ "pit" with the Obiturary page of Straits Times and started to light it. How very considerate. God bless their souls.

And, being the considerate person that he was, he started to sing "You're Pitiful" out loud, causing the fire to flicker and die. (:

He can make his mark as a cabaret singer, eh, Bryan? ;D

I smelt of charcoal after the whole BBQ was done.

Thanks mucho mucho to WAYNE for sending me home (:

*

I need to speak.
I feel that you're not actually treating me as a good friend.
You suggested something that became one of the worst decisions I had ever made in my life.
You used me. You only see me as the "going home" friend, the "movie buff", the "compromising", the RAIN IDIOT", the "little rich girl", the "person who I can make use of".

Whenever I try to suggest something, you cut me off immediately.
And you never invite me on outings with people. Only if I asked if I could be invited.
Oh, and you said, "we'll never leave you out." BULL.
You guys just use me. As a "friend".

When it comes to anything I say, you made my mood go down like a roller-coaster deathdrop. For example, I say, "I love Biology." and you retort by, "Oh, Biology is the shittiest subject that I have ever studied. It sucks to the core."
Yeah, and when other people say, "I love Math." Even though if you hated math, you'll say, "Oh, Math is LOVE."

And, a final word, It's YOU who do not bother making friends with people, not ME. Don't complain why I do not introduce people to you. YOU take the initiative, not ME.

As ling!'s friend Mahdi says, "I do not like to talk to irritating idiots."

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토요일, 3월 10, 2007, 12:22 오후

`536; -

"It sucks to like someone you could never, ever, get." - Renie

Went J8 with Uthara, hoping i could get to see Hyun Jun. But we didn't.
Well, whatever.

Thanks Amanda, Uthara and Jia Ling for the encouragement and the shoulders (:

*

My own mood surprises me sometimes.

At home, I rarely even speak. Even if I want to, I can't.

You see, I wasn't supposed to be in this world at all. I was what they labeled me, "an accident."
My parents didn't even want children at all. Even though other people called me a miracle (because my dad's condition), I see myself as a fugly loser with heart + kidney problems.

I can't speak at home, as my father is one heck of a one-track mind. He only see things his way and he can't accept the harsh fact that people do not see things the way he does. My mom, on the other hand, is a stubborn person who likes me not to get into fights and possibly, be single forever and ever, amen.

Now I'm on an all-out war with them, all because it stemmed from an argument about why I came out of MEP class at CHIJ St Nicks late by 10 minutes.

My father, being the one -track idiot, says it's MY fault for disrupting the class, (which I did with Hinwen, and we got sent out, but this didn't affect the class at all.)

Please, we didn't even have sex at the water coolers or something. Gosh. It's al all-girls school, unless Remy and Alastair becomes lesbian or something.

Fine, I hate my parents, and my life.

*
hinwen, he's not mine, he's yours (:
Since he says he likes you, go back to him la bitch ;D
I'm cool with it.
Even if you don't stead with him, or you do, our friendship will remain the same, bestie.
For I love you more than you ever think I will, sexy (:

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월요일, 3월 05, 2007, 6:57 오후

` 529; -

Well, this is all I have to say now.

B to the I to the T-C-H.

*rants and tears hair out*

*

No, I am not seeing anyone, I didn't bitch, I didn't pull someone's arse, I didn't rip someone's hair out and make it into a bloody mess.
So can you stop your childishness and have this jiiemuiix shit. I didn't even talk to you, didn't even do anything to you to make you despise me so much.

And I have something to say to you.
Don't think that I'm nice to you and you can treat me like something worse than dirt. I have put up with you for very long, and I can't stand your attitude. When I say hello, at least have the decent courtesy that your parents tried to instill in you to reply back, bitch.

I was just telling you nicely not to speak to people in a certain way, and you thought I was scolding you. And, what's more, said that I am "act rich", "proud", "not even dep head still want to scold me lor."

You're either thick skinned or dense in the head, bitch.

*

2 more days (:

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수요일, 2월 07, 2007, 7:20 오후

` 493; premier amore

my bleeding mascara
streaming down

like your black ink
out of your ballpoint pen.

the way you're slowly killing me;
your addictive whispers
& they're filled with malice and misery
every word

remembering that just one song
that contained every single thing
- revolves around you
piercing like barbs

& everywhere I turn reminds me of you

- I love the sound of you walking away, oh, walking away.

*

I don't know why I'm feeling so snappy today. It's like, you've given up on everything that you could possibly love.
I'm repeating the same song again and again; hoping that it'll fade away.

Have you ever been in a void of confusion?

라벨: ,




화요일, 1월 16, 2007, 3:56 오후

"Cheryl, who makes decisions for Singapore?" Mr Chin asked Cheryl during SS today.
"Me."



Papa lapped a pap lopped; Gackt

oboreru koto sae wasureteshimau you ni
"kuruwasete..."
shiitsu no naka de boku no hikigane ni tsume o tateteiru

Like I've even completely forgotten drowning
"Make me mad..."
In the sheets, a nail stands on my trigger

moeru tsuki o nazoru konna yoru wa yurusarenai tsumi de
iki mo dekinai hodo miugoki wa torasenai

Tracing the blazing moon, this kind of night is an unforgivable crime
Until you can't even breathe, I won't let you move an inch

sono kami mo kirei na yubi mo tamaranaku daremo o sono ki ni saseru
urunda hitomi ni mitsumeraretara
mou... gaman dekinai kara

With that hair and that pretty finger, you can unbearably make anyone care
If I'm looked at by those cloudy eyes
Then... I can't be patient any longer

kimi o daite uchuu no kanata e
kodoku na tabi kara "sayounara"
mujuuryoku na kankei de mo ii
soredemo kimi wa
dareka ni muchuu

I hold you, and from my lonely travels
To beyond the skies it's "sayonara"
Even a weightless relationship is okay
But still, you're
Absorbed in someone

sono koe mo atsui toiki mo utsukushiku daremo o toriko ni saseru
nurashita karada kasaneawasetara
mou... gaman dekinai

With that voice and that hot sigh, you can beautifully make anyone your slave
If our wet bodies overlap each other
I can't... be patient any longer

kimi to atta chikyuu no hate de
dare ni mo jama wa sasenai
juuryoku no hikiyoseau mama
itsuka wa kimi no tsuki ni naru

At the ends of the earth where we met
I won't let anyone interfere
Like gravity pulling us towards each other
Someday I'll be your moon

kimi o daite uchuu no kanata e
kodoku na tabi kara "sayounara"
mujuuryoku na kankei de mo ii
soredemo kimi wa
dareka to tabi no tochuu

I hold you, and from my lonely travels
To beyond the skies it's "sayonara"
Even a weightless relationship is okay
But still, you're
In the middle of traveling with someone

-----------------------

I'm hooked on this song. And yes, I'm dirrrrrrrrty. ;D

I guess I'll just give it up, the entire unrequited love affair (:

----------------------

To Someone.

When you're disciple someone, you don't just shoot everything into that person's face, especially when he/she is in a really bad mood.

Oh, and you tell me to change my temper. Okay, fine. When I tell you to lower down your volume down a notch, especially when I'm on the phone, what do you say?

"Oh, I'm like that, so you can't expect me to change. Too bad, you gotta live with what I am."

Hello, I can just retort and say, "Oh, I'm born with this temper too, you gotta live with it."

But I chose not to.

And you totally turned me off when you said, "I want to say this and you can hate me for all I care." That SUCKED. I felt like giving you a virtual slap to the face.

"Oh, XX has a high pitched and loud voice, and did she feel unconfortable with it? No."

I'm talking about you, darling.

"Oh, we don't have anything in common, and talking with you just sucked. And I refused to go to any outings that had you. And plus, you were always sticking to her like glue and irritated a lot of people because we wanted to talk with her about something private. So, all in all, you were irritating."

Woah. Nice ending to a horrible story.

And pardon me, I'm born with the sarcasm bug, so too bad, you gotta live with it. (:

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목요일, 1월 11, 2007, 11:50 오후

NO relation whatsoever.

Sometimes, when I'm really bored, I try to envision myself in the future.

A woman, svelte and slender, walks out of the shower room. She is wearing a ladies' office blazer and a short black skirt. She spritzs a whiff of epensive perfume (I Louwe You) and reaches for a silver key necklace. She walks around the zen-like air-conditioned apartment, before stopping at the entrance of the door to slip her feet into her Manolo Blaniks and grab her leather laptop case.

She starts the ignition of her sleek, black BMW and drives off into the afternoon sun. She reaches the hotel, and parks gracefully in the carpark, and locks the car.

She reaches the room that the pop star was in, with the cameras rolling, she translates his every word. He gives her a wink, a subtle inquiry if she would love to have dinner with him that night. She shakes her head, and gives him a stunning smile that would probably make him die from a cardiac arrest there and then.

Her job done, she goes back into the carpark and drives off to have a romantic candlelight dinner with her conductor boyfriend at. the. RITZ CARLTON.

...

I stare at myself in the mirror, and sad to say, I have unruly hair that won't stay flat no matter how much gel I slather on it, thick thighs that are results on bingeing, pimple marks that will fade in time peppering her cheeks (I have no more pimples, YIPEEEE) and I certainly do not have the 34-24-34 (or whateveryoucallit) figure that ladies long for.

I am cynical, indeed.

Read Le Raine's blog, and decided I should do this too for fun's sake.

100 Things About Me: Part I: Childhood
1. My first word was "refridgerator." No kidding. I could only talk when I was 3 years old.

2. My parents originally wanted to put my Chinese name as "直美", which is Kanji for Naomi. Then my (*&$%*(^% grandfather went to put "Ru Ting". uurgh.

3. I could only walk at the age of 2. My parents thought I had Down's or Asperger's Syndrome or something.

4. I was born in Thomson Medical Hospital on a rainy Wednesday.

5. I was a miracle child, as my parents weren't supposed to have any children. I think of myself as an accident.

6. When I was 4, I was given a stuffed hippo. I still have it with me now and it looks as good as new. I called it Hippo. Original.

7. When I was 5, I was given a pink bolster, a hand-me-down. Now I can't get to sleep without hugging it every night.

8. I hated Barbies. I used to swing them around by the hair and decapitate them.

9. At the age of 6, I asked my parents what was a condom.

10. When I was in kindergarten, I fell in love with Enigma, this superhero who wore ballet shoes and then she could fly. I dreamt that I flew around and I still can remember that dream.

11. I was a huge fan of Teletubbies. I used to have a Laa-Laa bag.

12. When I was 8, I played soccer with my next door neighbours, Calvin and Ronald, who were Primary 5 and Sec 2 respectively. Now they are handsome young men who frequently asked for me when my parents went to use the facilities of the condominium.

13. I witnessed my aunt and her lesbian girlfriend making out in my grandmother's house at the age of 7.

That's it. I'm out.

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토요일, 1월 06, 2007, 10:08 오전

How shocked I was to learn of such indifference.

I was notified of a certain task I was supposed to do the day before, and I was, techically unable to do that certain task. If only that person had told me one day before, I could at least do something.

When I demanded why I wasn't informed about it, I was given this la-de-da reply;

"Oh, simply because I forgot, sorry."

Come on, if you were assigned a task, you are supposed to do it immediately, not push it to the back of your head and let it rot.

And I'm always the last to know what I'm supposed to do in the group, and when I do, everyone's like, "Oh, how come you don't know." or, more stupidly, "I thought I got tell you?" when they didn't even leave me a miss call.


Please, for the love of whatever, don't give such last minute crap because some of us GOT TO PLAN before doing that task.

And if I didn't fufil it and made you angry, it's because I've got Short Term Memory Loss and I completely FORGOT.

-incoherent ranting-
x
And I heard that the group wished everyone a Happy New Year besides this blogger. Well, I seriously don't give a shit, because I am thinking of leaving anyway. -rawr-.

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목요일, 1월 04, 2007, 7:15 오후

it all starts to sink in

I still thought I was Sec 2 until Danial asked me what class I was in, and I mumbled, "2E2."

School was frustrating and tiring. (You would if you had to lug thick textbooks.) We installed the homeroom system,and we Sec 3 prefects have to be deputy head prefects (there weren't enough prefects anyway).

And the Sec 1s. MY GOD. They're damn cute can. Had one firstie who followed me around because she didn't know where to sit, and even was on the verge of having a cardiac arrest after I asked her what her name was.

And stupid Percy Kong. Some things you just have to shut up about, you know.

Modern Dance made things a little better (:

NG XIAO HUI; I LOVE YOU A LOT, DON'T BE DEPRESSED ALREADY! JIAYOU FOR Os TOGETHER BABE!(:

I'm out, going to study Biology. More later.

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금요일, 12월 29, 2006, 7:58 오후

Hey. Back to my old blog.

As Pastor How puts it, I live in a fatherless generation, and I am one of those people who were unlucky to be born in a fatherless family.

No, don't get me wrong. I have a father. It's just that he is PRESENT physically, but he is ABSENT spiritually. He doesn't give a damn about me.

Yeah, we have family dinners, but these family dinners involve no speaking, just eating. And the only times he'll open his mouth are

"Have you done your mathematics?"
"Have you done your piano?"

He doesn't believe in giving me anything for my birthday and Christmas. Yes, he'll throw parties, but he believes that the parties are my presents.

He doesn't go out with me. When my friends mention that they go out with their parents, I'll turn envious and I'll sit in a corner and not say anything. The last time I went out with my dad was to watch I Not Stupid 1, which was 4 years ago.

The only time he "talks" to me is when he scolds me and beats me, even though I am an only child. I tried studying, and I got 6 As, 2 Bs and a F9, he beat me almost to death.

I slept in a park once though. He threw me outta the house.

And he'll ban me for going for countdowns, (even though it involves church), parties and stuff.

But I really wish to have a father who is present.

I will not treat my children ike how my dad treats me.

But I love him still.

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on a lighter note...

In a conversation with Kelly...


Naomi Camui~ ♥ december love song; says:
I'm mrs camui

Naomi Camui~ ♥ december love song; says:
all hail me pls

dRaCuLax [ OH YEA!! I'm free at last!! XD ] says:
yes i';m ur daughter

dRaCuLax [ OH YEA!! I'm free at last!! XD ] says:
the sexy love child of u and gackt


dRaCuLax [ OH YEA!! I'm free at last!! XD ] says:
where's sexy dada

dRaCuLax [ OH YEA!! I'm free at last!! XD ] says:
he promised to give mi a spanking

dRaCuLax [ OH YEA!! I'm free at last!! XD ] says:
LOL

dRaCuLax [ OH YEA!! I'm free at last!! XD ] says:
KIDDING KIDDING

Naomi Camui~ ♥ december love song; says
=.=

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