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정지훈/Rain/Jihoon - the husband.

Faith/Spaz - the best friend.

Prisia/Siao - the other best friend.

Cheryl - Cooking mama

Joyce - Korean fanatic.

Brother (wenjun) - who has 10000000 brains

Hyun - Mr Smart-ass Korean.

Chew - Dear Leader.

Ajumma (아줌마) : Auntie

Ajusshi (아저씨) : Uncle

Chagiya/Yeobo (자기야/여보): Darling/Honey

Namja Chingu/Namchin (남자친구/남친) : boyfriend

Yeoja Chingu/Yeochin (여친/여자친구) : girlfriend

Hyung (형) : Older brother (for males)

Oppa (오빠) : Older brother, also can be used as "boyfriend" in a steady relationship (for females)

Nuna (누나) : Older sister (for males)

Onni (언니) : Older sister (for females)

Ssulung (썰렁) : "so cheesy/cold/lame" for cold jokes

Selca (셀카) : camwhore/self camera

Wang Ja (왕자) : 6 pack/washboard abs

♥ Heart Of God Church
♥ B and C Zone!
♥ donghaeng; Lord and Me
♥ Moi-même-Moitié
♥ amelia
♥ andrew lau!
♥ andrina
♥ anqi
♥ bellrarie!
♥ boxue!
♥ candy!
♥ cassandra!
♥ chew!
♥ clara!
♥ dajie
♥ darren!
♥ daryl!
♥ debrah
♥ faith, best friend!
♥ fedora!
♥ gabrielle!
♥ hinwen
♥ ivan!
♥ jasmine
♥ jia en!
♥ jia jia!
♥ jiayang!
♥ jia yun
♥ joanne!
♥ joyce
♥ kenneth!
♥ le raine
♥ ling
♥ liyin
♥ lucinda!
♥ marissa
♥ nadine!
♥ nelson!
♥ pearlyn
♥ peggy
♥ pei fen!
♥ pei jun
♥ reuben
♥ ruoen!
♥ ryan new!
♥ samantha!
♥ samantha whang
♥ sion; mr kimchi!
♥ shermaine!
♥ shihua
♥ shijin
♥ shizhe
♥ shumin
♥ shu xian/joe
♥ sofiana
♥ sophia
♥ sushian!
♥ sylvia!
♥ thea
♥ ting wei!
♥ trisha
♥ wanwen
♥ wei lai
♥ wendy
♥ winsome
♥ yi jing!
♥ yu xuan
♥ zhiyi!

♥ Abingdon Boys School
♥ Gackt
♥ Kenichi Matsuyama @ Horipro
♥ L'arc~En~Ciel
♥ Malice Mizer
♥ Namie Amuro
♥ S.K.I.N

♥ Big Bang
♥ DBSK Offical Site
♥ Epik High
♥ Rain's Company - J Tune Entertainment
♥ Rain's Company - J Tune Creative
♥ Rain's Offical Site
♥ Se7en
♥ Tablo
♥ Yiruma

♥ Gackt Dears
♥ Gackt Syndrome
♥ Rain Singapore
♥ Rain Union
♥ Sexy Bi

Blogs I read:

♥ Feet Man Seoul
♥ Joss Sticks
♥ K-popped!
♥ Lakeside Girl
♥ Mr Brown
♥ Mr Miyagi
♥ Mr Wang Says So
♥ PopSeoul!
♥ The Sartorialist
♥ Sibeh Sian
♥ Singaporean Mind
♥ Son of Singapore

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Layout: vehemency

라벨: white noise

라벨: angry, white noise

라벨: quickie, Rain, tablo

라벨: random banter

라벨: random banter

라벨: white noise

Faith (texts back): "WORK TOIL STRIVE!!!!!! RAIN LOVES SMART GIRLS!!!!!!!!!"

*

Daniel: "AJA AJA! PHILIPPIANS 4:13! WILL BE PRAYING FOR YOU! REMEMBER BI!"

Me: "OMGZXZXZXZ HOW YOU KNOW I LIKE RAIN?!"

Daniel: "So obvious."

Me: "-.-"

Daniel:

xDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD you guys never fail to make me laugh.

*

And Rain's "Fresh Woman" is stuck in my head. Help.

And a final note from me:

がんばって!!!!!!
아자 아자!!!!!!!!!!!!!

라벨: random banter

월요일, 10월 20, 2008, 4:45 오후

` 1118; - REVIVAL WOOHOO












MAI LOVELAAAAAAAYYYYYYYY HOMIES :D

Just by looking at these pictures, I can really be happy. Happy, not satisfied.
Just like a year and a half ago, Esther and I were worshipping alone, at the staircase near the Science Block, just writing down names for potential friends and simply praying for God's hands over our school. Especially I was someone no one liked. But I can safely say that I have faith.

And when God says He gives abundantly, He really means business.

And there are more people actually. They couldn't turn up but hey, it's rapidly growing and expanding. Hougang Secondary power. Even there're devils trying to tear me/us/whatever down, God and I would not let it happen.

This shows that in a school like mine, under dreary circumstances, it is easy, it is possible. Growth is easy. Revival is possible. All that matters is how much you want it to happen. No excuses here.

Maybe God gave me the gift of evangalism. He has shown me that even in a difficult school I could still win souls for Him. Perhaps He is preparing me for something even bigger. Somewhere that I would face even more persecution. Somewhere that people are so mixed up they forget about being pure in the first place. Somewhere where malice turns into misery and eventually dissipates into suicide.

But if I can bring revival to my school with the help of Christ Jesus, it means that you can too.
Nope, no superpowers involved.

Well I've got a story to tell
About the King above all kings
You spoke for peace, hope, love and justice
Things that we all need today
You let a broken generation
Become a dancing generation
This is revival generation
You may not hear it on the radio
But you can feel it on the air

Revival town
That's what they're calling this place now

라벨: God, revival, school

목요일, 10월 16, 2008, 11:35 오후

` 1117; - i'll make it naomism



I'll be back, y'all.

*
[EDIT]

Super funny.
Trisha scared me that Rain was actually going to get married this year or next.
And my reaction was super big and she totally didn't expect it, haha.

"WHATTTTTTTTTTTTTTT?!?!?! HE HASN'T MET ME YET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

Yeah you get the idea.
But then Soolan and Jinzhi confirmed that it was a joke HOHOHO
Okay 5 years to break into the industry!

: D

Anyway I am happy to pass the limits that I've been setting for myself in my QT. I used to only pray for 5 minutes straight and I'll feel tired, but I've been increasing 5 minutes everyday, and now I can pass the 10 minute barrier. More to come.

For if I'm not strong in my spiritual life, how am I going to be strong in a complicated industry?

[/EDIT]

[EDIT on 20/10/08]

I love love LOVE the new album.
Doesn't sound very JYP because JYP's songs for Rain is like "I'm A MAN IN YOUR FACE" kind of thing but here he has subtle sensual stuff which is good for me : D

I'm a very happy girl.

Check out Rainism here:



AND I thought one line was 너의 몸 속안에 돌고 있는 나의 "my majesty" BUT NO.
The lyrics were 너의 몸 속안에 돌고 있는 나의 magic stick!!!!!!!!!

WHAT?!?!?!? Yeah he dances with the glowing lightsaber but...
I read the korean words before that, and it registered.

EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.
Go google translate yourself if you wish.
But he was very sensual on stage. Me like. But I was half laughing and half in awe. HOHOHO

[/EDIT]

라벨: hiatus, naomi, Rain

화요일, 10월 14, 2008, 1:38 오전

` 1116; - i'm the (super)girl



Deuteronomy 28:13 "The LORD will make you the head and not the tail, and you only will be above, and you will not be underneath, if you listen to the commandments of the LORD your God Deuteronomy 28:13 "The LORD will make you the head and not the tail, and you only will be above, and you will not be underneath, if you listen to the commandments of the LORD your God Deuteronomy 28:13 "The LORD will make you the head and not the tail, and you only will be above, and you will not be underneath, if you listen to the commandments of the LORD your God Deuteronomy 28:13 "The LORD will make you the head and not the tail, and you only will be above, and you will not be underneath, if you listen to the commandments of the LORD your God Deuteronomy 28:13 "The LORD will make you the head and not the tail, and you only will be above, and you will not be underneath, if you listen to the commandments of the LORD your God Deuteronomy 28:13 "The LORD will make you the head and not the tail, and you only will be above, and you will not be underneath, if you listen to the commandments of the LORD your God Deuteronomy 28:13 "The LORD will make you the head and not the tail, and you only will be above, and you will not be underneath, if you listen to the commandments of the LORD your God Deuteronomy 28:13 "The LORD will make you the head and not the tail, and you only will be above, and you will not be underneath, if you listen to the commandments of the LORD your God Deuteronomy 28:13 "The LORD will make you the head and not the tail, and you only will be above, and you will not be underneath, if you listen to the commandments of the LORD your God Deuteronomy 28:13 "The LORD will make you the head and not the tail, and you only will be above, and you will not be underneath, if you listen to the commandments of the LORD your God

This pretty much sums up my life right now.
Mugging hard on every side
Tired but I will press on for everything is for His glory, not mine
To go to Ngee Ann Polytechnic then Stanford University/University of Melbourne
whichever

Mugging

Annyeonghi kaseyo I need to do my biology

라벨: white noise

월요일, 10월 13, 2008, 1:17 오전

` 1115; - can'tstoplistening



이노래는 진실했던 사랑이야기
모든걸 다 바쳤던 나의 이야기
하지만 이젠 끝을 모두 맺어버린
지나간 나의 사랑이야
I love you 아직도 사랑해...

HOHOHO. I can't wait for...



my love, 내 열 온 무기로...

라벨: Rain

일요일, 10월 12, 2008, 1:04 오전

` 1114; -



Come live in me
all my life take over
come breathe in me
and I will rise on eagle's wings

라벨: white noise

수요일, 10월 08, 2008, 10:47 오후

` 1113; - in You, I find my peace



(Key to my heart)

Oh come, You will
The Owner of my spirit, my heart
Imperfections tacked to a blank wall
Yet whitewashed over with Your blood

Day by day I seep in, more, deeper
Rejuvenating, revitalizing, tantalizing, You are

You're the well where my love springs from
Hold me steady, my Lover of souls

eternally,

(for a comma says that it isn't going to end so soon
we still have many more to build this Kingdom)

*

On a sidenote, I am NOT going to name my children April, May, June and Armageddon.

Musette Claire.
Musette Claire.

I like it already.
Welcome to the world, like say, 10 years later, Musette.
I can't wait to see how you look like, how church would have grown (I think it'll be past 10 000), how everything would have changed. For the better.

The future's going to be amazing.

라벨: white noise

12:03 오후

` 1112; - love story (II)

HAHAHA hey kids here's the new part 2 of the teaser for Love Story from le fiance.



And the pictures.

I'm very excited.
NAOMISM AND RAINISM! HOHOHOHO.

라벨: love, Rain

12:25 오전

` 1111; - You're the love of my life



My love, my all, my everything, my spiritual home.

I was reading Peifen's blog and I skipped to Ivan's blog. Immediately I could tell the difference. These people are so real. They tell it like it is, they are transparent, like a no-holds-barred kind of attitude. That's what I like about my church. No one lies, no one does anything to hurt another. But that's for granted in the world. In the world, if you are honest with someone, they either think that you're being fake (ironic, eh) or they use it as a chance to attack you just because they've been hurt themselves.

I love this bubble world that I'm living in, and I will cultivate that bubble world to heal broken hearts, wounds, once-bitten-twice-shy mentalities and just bring them back to life again. I love this place, and most of all I love the Saviour who created everything just for you and me.

Looking back into the past, I can safely say that I love Jesus and this decision has never failed me before. It's an ardious journey but the feeling and the relationship that I really have with my heavenly Father makes it worthwhile. I really want to share this goodness to everyone, that explains why I would want to go into the media industry. Because you see, in the media industry, it's notorious for broken hearts, betrayal, divorce, loneliness and recently, suicide (like the Korean media world). I think God will use me to heal them, no? Just imagine... it'll be so cool.

Call me crazy, but at least I have something to be crazy about.
I see myself being pure in a corrupt industry, being God's beacon in the dark. Oh Lord, use me as You will.

I found my dad's old classical guitar! It hasn't told me anything yet because I haven't really played it... one string is broken and the guitar bag is well-used... after O Levels I'll go with Zhi Yi, Sylvia and Cindy to get new strings and polish and picks and a new bag. Well I'll ask it whether it is a girl or a guy... I have a feeling it's a guy. But anyhow, it's a sister/brother with my piano! Same manufacturer... Yamaha. Anyway when I was playing the piano, it told me it's name is Jacqueline... not Jackie. Jacqueline Yamashita Yamaha. WOAH. My guitar's surname is going to be Yamaha too... I'm sure of it. If it's a guy it can marry Sylvia's Chanel! HAHAHAHAHAHHA

Okay I'm going craaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaazy.

I'm off to do QT even though it's 12:41 in the night, after a marathon session with Lynn at NYJC (I'll post about that some other time, it's worthwhile and great to study there), another physical marathon walking session with Sylvia and Shu Yi (from NYJC, to the bus stop at Serangoon Stadium, to the Richards Avenue Park near Cheese's house) and back home. I'm knackered. But as long as the spirit is willing, the flesh will follow.

For some reason Hati Hamba (Servant's Heart) is replaying again and again in my head. Maybe I'll sing it for QT later...

gdnight & gdbye

라벨: nonsense, revelations

화요일, 10월 07, 2008, 12:53 오전

` 1110; - WHINE WHINE

That hiatus thing doesn't work very well aye.
But I still have time to post while I should be mugging.
Bad Naomi, bad bad Naomi
But hey I miss typing.
Let's hope the mega Joss Sticks sessions at Miss Loi's helps
With Cheryl Samantha Stanley Clare Ethan Marcus and Kangkang
Oh Ben's going to kill me for calling him Kangkang but I DON'T CARE HAHA

Oh no I'm typing like a bimbo

You, know, bimbooooo? *twirls hair*

Ting Wei will be so proud of me

Yeah, like, so, whatever?

I need eyedrops

No I really need The Brain Drop

Since my brain is being squeezed dry by Stalin Hitler Trigo Cyclic Quad Redox Reproduction

But srsly an OSIM portable would be lovely

Attached to the bus seat to I can have a relaxing zap every morning

OHHHHHHHHHHH! I KNOW!

Maybe you could ship Mr Jeong Ji Hoon to be my personal masseuse.

No that'll be bad. He's not even my husband, YET. Chemistry before Biology, yo.

Oh noes what's happening to me

But you get what I mean, like, totally

I was thinking of my future with Cheryl Thng and I came out with this:
I am going to play for a band called the Hoohas
I'll be playing the sitar while Jihoon's going to play the Sarod
We'll ride off into the sunset on a camel nd we'll sing shanties to each other all day

and name our children April, May, June and Armaggeddon.

Interesting, no?

Ahyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

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qwertyuioplkjhgfdsazxcvbnmnbvcxzasdfghjklpoiuytrewq

qwertyuioplkjhgfdsazxcvbnmnbvcxzasdfghjklpoiuytrewq

*MUG*

라벨: nonsense

월요일, 10월 06, 2008, 9:10 오후

` 1109; - my taboo love, mr jeong jihoon♡



I really cannot tahan already, need to post Chagiya's picture up, or not I'll be delirious.
I think we really flow too much.
I mentioned once that I want my first album to be called Naomism, and now his 5th album is called RAINISM (레이니즘)!!!!!!!!!11!!!!!

I don't know if this is a case of IMITATION IS THE HIGHEST FORM OF FLATTERY or we just plain flow and he's gonna come to HOGC and marry me kinda thing but I choose to believe it's the latter. I mean, must be POSITIVE!

And now gimme gimme gimme this a man after midnight!

Album art:





NUUUUUUUUUUUUUU it's not suited, UGLYYYYYYYYYYY.
First one makes him look super cyborg, and the second one is just WRONGGGGGGG.

(I think everyone's going to be all, "OKAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY...... WHATEVER~" and just skip this to the other redundant things)

But!
Naomi is here to save the day!



:D
SWOONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN
I wonder if I could be in his team or something. But what does it take?
Determination? Korean?
I want to continue Korean lessonssssss ):

$$ faster comeeee ):

라벨: Rain

일요일, 10월 05, 2008, 7:35 오후

` 1108; - the dark without Your light



It's for freedom that Christ has set us free
I live for You
And not for me, anymore
And your mercy is new with every day
No longer will I forfeit grace
I'll follow You and live by faith

If not for love,
where would I be if not for love?
If not for grace
Where would I be if not for grace?

라벨: God

1:37 오전

` 1107; - BFF (i)





Hello world, this is one of my bestest best friends, confidante, fellow CG mate, keesiao-er... I could list a whole string of adjectives but well you get the point.

We're on the same frequency most of the time - the sudden impromptu comments (which actually, happen at the same time), the same weird fetishes (MAMMA MIA!), and the nonsense we share. Even she's a year older than me, she makes me feel real old, like I'm already in Poly (she lends me her Mac, shhhh!) . But nonsense aside, she grows in God with me, encourages me when I'm down with her smiley face (she never gets angry).

I love youuuuuuuuuuuuu, Chia Sushian. Always will, let's grow the CG, CeG, Zone, Church. We will be leaders in this House. And yeah I love you!

:D

라벨: friend, random banter

토요일, 10월 04, 2008, 3:23 오전

` 1106; - RIP



Another celebrity bites the dust.

RIP, Choi Jin-shil.

She committed suicide because of internet remarks and rumors that she lent Ahn Jae Hwan, a fellow actor, US 2 mil to clear his debts... and which eventually led to his demise because he couldn't repay every single debt and this is too much for him... she leaves behind two children.

If one aspires to make it big in the korean entertainment industry, you must be able to handle a lot of flak. Lots of celebs have been committing suicide because of negative comments, derogatory terms and everything. Like U-nee, Jeong Da Bin...

Perhaps now God is giving me the training ground in this aspect, the real battle comes later, when I'm 20. They need God in there, I know.

Please, let's go through the last 3 months of 2008 without any more deaths. The passing of Turtleman, Kim Minsoo, Lee Eon, Ahn Jae Hwan... no more, no more.

라벨: sad

2:29 오전

` 1105; - don't go wasting your emotion





I think he caught my eye because

I don't know what to say to him but I

I feel like rushing over and telling you that

I don't know how it came but it just came. Maybe it was your eyes, the way they light up whenever I do something stupid, or when I say something stupid to you. Or was it your patience when I get pissed at life, or simply, at math? Could it be your little quirks, your weird fetish? However I, no matter, I think I like you. A lot. But I don't think it could work out, so it'll remain an unrequited one for a while. A very long while. But unrequited love doesn't work out for me all the time. Every time I see you I'm happy, but I think you're happiest when you're with her and I don't think it's wise to do anything to you when she has you. I think she must be a very lucky person. I think I've told you that before, haven't I?

I think it's all funny, how I thought you were soooooo annoying and then the hormones take over. I know that the attraction won't be forever, but allow me to savour it while it lasts (which won't be very long, I hope). Maybe the reason why you aren't avaliable at this moment because God has planned someone even better than you for me? I think that's the case, according to Josh Harris.

I shall not waste all my thoughts on you (sorry friend but that's the way it is) and I shall shift my braincells to do something more productive, like memorising a bio chapter or continue the crusade on the sleeping cells. Well, if you chance upon my blog and read this, please go on thinking it isn't you because it is all about you.

Sometimes, I wish I was Elizabeth Bennet, Fanny Price, or any heroine Jane Austen's brillant mind could come out with. Their unrequited love eventually becomes one of requited. I percieve that I want to experience this so much that I want to act in drama serials (Korean please). But sometimes my heart does flit, only briefly so. I think I shall be pious from now on. Minus the chastity belt.

Hello, you, can you hear my heart today?

But... give me Jeong Ji Hoon any time, hands down.

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street

라벨: love, surreal complexities

목요일, 10월 02, 2008, 7:41 오후

` 1104; - I wish you were a stranger I could disengage



I have never really hated people.

But you're one exception. I used to love you, not in that way, but as a brother, and a friend. Or so I thought. When I see you, my heart wells with immense pity and loathing, all in a lethal combination of seething apathy. Every. Single. Time, Now. I feel like shouting sense into you but hey, why waste my time on someone who's so hypocritical? I'm so not gonna waste my time on someone who doesn't stand up for his own convictions. You try to demean me. Saying that my Biology isn't good and you heard it from Someone. I can't go into Ngee Ann Poly? Stuff yourself.

You've been missing ever since The Reform. Conviction, much? Don't think you're indispensable. We don't need you, or, rather, I DON'T NEED YOU. ANYMORE. Noticed, that after you ignored me I was left to start a new all over again? You were nice, the best friend I had. You're gone. But a la the phoenix, I found new friends, Clique 5, and a whole new bunch of awesomeness that you can't even match up even though you try. Ever since you got It, you've been distancing yourself from everything. Who cares. You've got It, go show your love to It like you want to.

I've grown up ever since, spiritually and emotionally. I found new friends. I learnt to treasure every single one now. I used to treasure only you. Now I have more which make me really happy. But are you happy? Unreal.

But today, even though I had a splitting migraine, I still held up my hand to greet you with the hi-5, like in the old days. You just walked past, not even looking at me.

And that was then I really hated you.

라벨: hate

1:37 오후

` 1103; - :D





Chagiya's 5 ALBUM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
Good job to enlist Ha Jiwon on it, an A Lister, as always.
But I'll be there soon, just you wait.

I'm not particularly fond of sad ballads but this is okay, so far so good. I only like ballads from Epik High.
YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY.
Will post a revew of it when Hyun ships it to me from Korea (:

라벨: album, Rain

12:55 오전

` 1102; -

Staying up late today to do Biology.
I (really hope that I) can do it!!!!!!!!!!!

Because (I choose to believe that) I AM TEH L33T ALL YOU N00BS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1!!!1111!!!!

Christine and Faith is staying up with me to study, poor dears.

라벨: nonsense